Ephesian 5: 25-27

 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her 26 to make her holy, cleansing[b] her by the washing with water through the word, 27 and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. 

Lord, you see me as a diamond, refined gold, and you allow me to enter the process of being refined and polished, because you know who I am, you know I have the potential to rise up. Because you are God, you chose me to be presented in front of you. You want me to become holy and blameless, worthy to be presented to you and be accepted by you.

Ethan, my first and only nephew

Guinea PIg Ate too much vegetables and had a ballooned tummy for 3 months

I have 2 boy guinea pigs at their 2-3 years old. I gave them too much vegetables and thought it's okay. They were eating an average of 4 cups of vegetables each and until they stopped eating (for about 2 months). They gained weight and I didn't realize their stomach can't handle the excessive gas. I thought they just ate and grew fat. One day I notice the outgoing guinea pig shook his body a few times like he was in a mini seizure. I panicked and watched him closely. I found that his legs were weaker than before and didn't want to move like usual. His stomach seemed like a mini balloon. I started researching online on these symptoms. I found many threads on "guinea pig's stomach bloat issue" and got very worried. I couldn't afford taking him to the vet and I wish I had. I spent hours on the internet researching and reading stories, watching youtubes on stories of sick, bloated guinea pigs. I prayed for him and asked God to intervene. I felt guilty that I couldn't afford professional medical help for him and apologized to him.

At the end, I found suggestions online to treat his stomach issue. I massaged his belly (by vibrating him on my lap or a massager or by hand) for 15-45mins, fed him some baby anti-gas medicine in the lowest dosage, fed him as much timothy hay as he'd like, repeat 3 times a day. I also let him have daily floor time to exercise. Poor guy would drag his weak legs around but he was happy to chase after his friend. This process took 1 full month to see some improvement. A second month had gone and he was back to healthy and I slowly weaned him off the anti-gas med and daily massage. I was exhausted spending 3-5 hours a day to take care of him keeping a close watch on his poop, behavior and shiny eyes. His behaviors could tell a lot about his health status.
After this I did my research on the healthy amount of vegetables to feed guinea pigs and what are some vegetables to avoid and keep.
I have learned so much more about guinea pigs and that my God answered my prayer to save my sick baby!

Entryway Desk/Mail Center/Keys
-Mail Center
-Document filing
-To take items/reminders
-office supplies
-Extra gift card/credit cards

Kitchen
-cans (sweet, savory)
-dry food (sweet, savory)
-containers
-noodles/rice
-tea/coffee/herbal drinks
-condiments
-baking containers
-cooking pots/pans
-oil/wine/sauces
-Electronic devices (blenders, mixer, sandwich maker, etc)

Hi, sis, I value you and our friendship and that's why I have given some deep thoughts all night and day in working things out with us and communicate our differences. I appreciate your communication and openness because you care about our friendship.

同你有衝突我好唔開心,我覺得自己好無用,我好驕傲,生氣自己,成日不知不覺傷害和趕走愛我的朋友,我最怕自己孤單一個.
你指出我的"攻擊人hostile pattern"令我想到心理治療師上個月也指出來,我一直都不知而經常做的pattern. 多得你指出,否則我不意識自己在重覆this unhealthy pattern. 就算我不自知,我要為我的行為帶給你傷害而道歉,請你寬恕我.

根據therapist,這個pattern是源自我對原生家庭的suppressed anger, 而channel out toward others, 這樣對身邊無辜的人是不對和不公平的. 我還在逐步地幫自己離開這damaging pattern,不知需要幾多時間,我會努力work on my issues. 我亦需要你的幫忙和耐性,如你願意, 下次見到我對你hostile/擺你上枱,please let me know nicely. 這樣可以幫我increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share with me, you help me become aware of my issue. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. It is difficult for me to admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you!

Hi, sis, I value you and our friendship and that's why I have given deep thoughts all night and day in working things out with us and communicate our differences. I appreciate your communication and openness because you care about our friendship. Knowing there is a conflict between us saddens me, I feel that i am useless, I am so arrogant, angry with myself, unknowingly hurt and drive others away, I am afraid to be alone without any friends in the end. You pointed out that my "verbally attack/hostility pattern" reminds me of what my psychotherapist also pointed out last month, I did not know that I do this frequently. I'd say words to others with a hint of anger without knowing. I'm grateful that you pointed out to me, otherwise I'd still be unawared of this unhealthy pattern. Even though I was not aware nor intentionally attack you, I am responsible for my action and I apologize for hurting you, please forgive me. According to therapist, this pattern is derived from my suppressed anger toward my family of origin. Because it was suppressed over the years, this anger finds ways to channel out toward others (who are innocent). That is not right and unfair to those around me. I am gradually working on this issue and just beginning to be more aware of it, I do not know how much time it will take me, but I will work hard on it and other issues. I do need your help and patience, if you are willing, next time when you notice this hostilty in my conversation, please let me know nicely. This can help me increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share your anger with me, you help me become more aware of this damaging pattern in my life. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. To admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant is extremely difficult, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you! If you think of any other conflict between us in the past, please let me know and we can make time to talk and listen face to face. I really don't want any conflict remain unresolved between us. I won't make it to church tomorrow due to work. I'd make time for you just let me know when you're ready.

Lord,
I feel so uneasy all day. I know I finally took care of the Prius recall on the side airbag and spent 2 hours and changed up my plans to exercise and relax. I don't know what is troubling me inside. I went to Daiso, Grocery outlet, places that I used to enjoy wandering at. Yet, they didn't bring me peace and enjoyment.
If unloading everything to You is the way to go, here I am unloading feelings and thoughts that have yet made sense to me. During shopping at Daiso, I felt dizzy and weak. I thought I was hungry or dehydrated. I just don't know what is going on inside me. Lord, what is really going on inside of me? Can you please tell me?

"You're dealing with a lot, 搞到你"陀陀擰".
好辛苦,很難再這樣過活每一天.......how do I get out of this, Lord?

我撐不下去了

主,你要我當如何看和行呢?

Jesus: come lean on me.
I lean into Your shoulders and cry; I have no more strength to hold myself up.
Jesus: 有我和你一齊行, I know what's out there.

I feel more at ease, more peace, being comforted and reassured of Jesus' presence to face my challenges.

我極度的想你,最想對你說我很愛你,到今時今日我還沒忘記你. 和你相愛的日子是我最開心快樂的日子.

我最愛你的:
你對我的相信,
你相信我的夢我的愛我的心,
你讓我做我,你接受我,
真正的我,懦弱的我,頑皮的我,認真的我,有需要的我,傷心的我.

那一段日子有你相信我,
有你愛我.
我每次需要你,你都在身邊安慰我,鼓勵我,幫我說出心裏感受,代我出頭
你用心的愛我
你在乎我
每天放工你都在等我陪我

我的現實世界告訴我你已經出嫁並懷孕,不會再像以前一樣愛我. 我暫時不能完全的接受. 是的,真是很難去接受. 我極之痛苦.

我不想放開我們僅餘的回憶, 連這些都放開了我怕我更活不下去,更痛苦.

我問主耶穌, 你一定很吃醋,我的心完全給了另外一個人. 我腦海裡的耶穌 想伸手捧著我的臉, 心疼我要受這些苦. 我沒有想到耶穌不生氣, 還為我心痛. 我抱著枕頭哭了

I felt uncomfortable being alone at home today, not at ease with Jesus as well. My head reminded me that I have a choice to follow my own infatuation or Jesus. I kneel in my conversation with Jesus, telling Him that I now choose to let go of any physical, emotional, spiritual attachment and connections with ex in Jesus' name and by His blood cut them off and connect the loose ends to Jesus for healing and restoration. I know Jesus knows my pain and is more broken for my suffering and His royal princess is living in poverty. It really puts His sacrifice in vain. I want to live as who Jesus intends me to be, who He died so I now become, worthy of His life, I want to feel it, experience it, be it and live it. And I know it will take some hard work and sacrifice, Jesus is willing to help me and has everything needed to help me. I know someone's are praying for me,  Thank you for your prayers.