awww...2002 is approaching...hehee, being class of 2001 makes the first year of the new millenium more meaningful to me. well, and quite a lot happened in this year. being a HS senior n a freshman in college really excited my life a little. this year is basically a busy year for me. dealing with senioritis (submiting college applications, passing subjectA, deciding my major, playing parts in the senior skits, playing varsity sports, preparing for my AP exam, participating in two science fairs, etc) was very tiring. finishing our experiment for the science fairs was the most difficult challenge throughout my HS career. i'm glad that i learned a lot from it. a lot. and the experiences i went through in 2001 make me who i am now. there's no highlights of the year cuz i can't remember everything and when did it happen. so, let's just say that i learn a lot and the difficulties in life "enhance" my life and myself. again, no pain no gain.

hello, just got back from a chinese christian retreat for 4days in santa cruz. sometime it was boring and long, but its message was meaningful. i made a commitment to God that i will from now on devote my time n effort to get to know Him and His words, follow Him, let Him lead my life, and to attend church/fellowship. fortunately, i met a group of chinese christians who also go to UCD at the retreat. PRAISE GOD!! \^o^/
hmm....i still have many questions and will arise with many questions about christianity. can anyone tell me if homosexuality is a sin? or is it just homosexual sex? are stem cell researches wrong? etc. hmmm, well, i'm not into thinking over those questions now. it's more like i'm taking it...not as seriously, at least, i dont want to rush to find the truths and answers to those. and by praying, i will get the answers.

it's about time to return to school, sigh~ but these 2weeks seem pretty long n relaxing to me. i had never found as much pleasure in any 2-week vacation before. perhaps, living a college life with pressure (kinda) in davis made me more grateful for anything peaceful or good. i used to hate spending my xmas at home. i used to feel very depressed to be spending it at home and when my family didnt have any xmas mood at all. it really sux. but i actually enjoyed my xmas at home. i didn't do anything special or xmasy. i just went online for a while, played with my hamsters, listened to songs, watching TV (the simpsons n friends), etc. i actually enjoyed the peace. i wanted peace. and since i have a great winter break, i believe i shall study harder next quarter (at least i will try harder). and the thought of majoring in pre-med reflashed in my mind. was it a sign?

happy new year! ^_^

how is my xmas?? nothing unusual happens, but i'm in a good mood! ^^ i dont think having a merry xmas is all dependent to the number of parties or number of friends are around u now... it's all about the spirit! the state of mind! some annoying dude commented my xmas as "boring", i was a bit offended. "hey! dats none of ur business if my xmas doesnt sound so interesting or fun to u! as long as i'm happy! i'm having fun in spending it this way!" *whew* i guess i just over-reacted. *humming*...hmm, see, i'm in a good mood. i usually hate to spend any holiday at home. i used to ask myself, "whats the point?" sigh, staying home was such a pain in the butt for me. and it still is, but i think i'm getting better at it or that "we" are becoming friends. anyways... xmas is still cool. i just had too much fun ova this winter break, it seems pretty long to me. omg, i dreamt that i got an A on chem!!! >___< pathetic!! why did i even dream of that?! great!....i seriously thought it was true. awww..... peeps shouldn't have woke me up this morning, u know, kill me rite then or something =P. sigh~ hmmm...grades will be posted on the 29th.*starts to tremble*........well well well...... after 29th, i will know what classes to take or drop for sure. uh.... my bro is gonna get me a new cell fone plan, this time i'm gonna have 400day time mins& unlimited nite n weekend minutes...*laughts hysterically* ahem, okay...*calm down*....=p yeah, and i'll be using panasonic pro max.yay!


anyways... i miss mommy...i dont know how will i finish telling her stories after she's back from her trip to hong kong. i wouldnt even know how and where to start...^^||| oh well, i've been chilling with my bros on the 24th and 25th. more like a family thing. we played video games (and ofcourse i lost almost every time), watched chinese drama series, etc. hehe, we didnt sleep until like 5:45am last nite cuz we finished watching 2tapes for like hours. yeah, i didnt sleep till 6 cuz...i had to like force my bro to sleep cuz he wanted to finish watching the tape. sigh~ bad bro. and he's older too. O_O yes, what is up with him? hehe...
okie...gots nothing to say now. i guess u should go away n leave me alone~ thank u. =P

awww, stupid headache started buggin' me last nite. it wasn't just ordinary headache. it was more like a sign that i over-worked a certain body function (it happened before when my eyes were very tired/exhausted fr. wearing contact lens or whateva). so...yeah, i hoped that it'd go away after a good night of sleep. yeah, but the headache was back in the afternoon. it annoyed me. so i went to sleep at 8pm and woke up at 10:30 cuz my bro was back fr his church and went to bug me. anyways...so i got up and watched TV (simpsons =p )...and now i'm still chatting online. oh well... great, my 2friends said they have something for me for xmas... but but but...i didnt get em anything... too poor now, sigh. i think..hm, i will stick to dorm food for my next quarter. i already used up money my bro just gave me this week...opps...^^||| hmmmmmmmmm.....merry xmas, everyone!

great, there's a tiny blister on my middle finger on my left hand from playing street fighter w/my bro. arghh....it hurts.
anyways, hmm..what's new today? well, basically nothing. i didnt go to church today tho...((bad)) yes, i know...but but but... i wrote a few xmas cards for friends up till 3:40am last nite!!! =p so it'd explain why i got up at 12:30 today. hmm... and sneaked out to buy xmas present for one of my 2bros (didnt know what to give to the other one) while my dad went out..heeehe...i wrote my dad a note for sneaking out to do something and i *destroyed* the note when i found him not back after i was done shopping..heeee....yeah, perfect "crime"...=p then i just stayed home all day watching some chinese movies. oh, yeah...my xmas present for my beloved hamsters was to clean their toy (spinning dish) for em...^.^ see~ i love em. (i used to give them cereal for treats =p )...anyways...they are still alive! so, hush! hush! keep ur comments to urself!

oh, btw, i think i said PS2 last time...but i really meant it to be PS ONE!!! yea... opps, i made a boo boo, cat.

sorry, everyone, i think i'm in love with iPod.



sigh, well, hehe, this is just like the thing i used to have on oakley sunglasses or MD mini-system.

aww..i miss my roommate. ok, anyways, i'll be seeing her in a week or so..

ouch, haven't played PS for a long time. played crush team racing, street fighter Z3 and some jap game(dont know the eng translation of it). anyways, street fighter n the other game required rapid motion on the controller, crap, my fingers hurt now! grrr.... anyways, i guess, thats enuf PS for me. =p
got a quiz from cathy and my result is:


heehehe, so hilarious, well, hmmm...kinda funny... cuz i'm not like that most of the time, only recently. =p anyhoo.... oh, yeah, saw iPod advertisement yesterday and

awwwwwww...... damn, it's so cool!!!!

Better Man by Robbie Williams

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

::went out all day long. felt bad for leaving my dad alone:::
hmmmm.....anyways....i went out w/cathy to her friend's party this morning then dropped by Ross and found a discounted nike sweater. but the line was too long and it was pretty near the time dat honhon was gonna pick me up at, i just tried to hide it n left it at the kids' section..hehee...=p anyways, hon n i went to SF airport to drop off a friend. the traffic was nasty. NASTY TRAFFIC. later we met up with JJ n hung out at her place for a bit. got to talk to hon a lot more about things happening around. somehow i lost my skills in starting a conversation(damn!)...and i hate it when i want to do something to stop the silence in the car but couldn't think of things to say. well, anyways, hon n i still talked and discussed a lot. one of the topics was whether being loved or giving/loving is better. some would choose to be loved. i'd rather be the one who gives. loving a person i truly love is more important to me than to be loved by a person who loves me more. somehow i just got to a point where i believe that a person should be able to provide a loving n caring enviornment, sense of security, n mutual understanding for the other half. and i know i'm not there yet. it'll take at least 4-5yrs for me to reach such level or just to get close to it. anyways, all those things are included in the chinese word: happiness ©¯ºÖ (sorry for the bad translation here. it's kinda like "happiness" according to my twinbridge chinese translator, but there are many forms of happiness in chinese). anyways, my whole point is that...i finally have a goal or an accomplishment i want to reach. ((((sigh of relief))))....hmm...it's been a long time from the last time i seriously thought about life,etc. i'm glad that i know what to achieve now instead of feeling lost n not knowing what was missing in my life. i guess this is why i grew more quiet lately. well, serious thinking in progress! =p it also reminds me of the song "to be a better man". yups, thats what i want to be! ^.^

to cat: family n school will always be my priorities, if u are still willing to accompany/support me while i achieve my goal, pls do, i'd really appreciate it. its up to u.

::so freaking cold in SJ, both inside n outside::
what is up with da weather lately???!!! it takes me even longer to type on a different keyboard with freezing hands now. it's so hard to type without any typo...darn. anyways..i just lost things i previously wrote here, so, great! i was complaining how cold here is, blah blah blah. i'd prefer summer ova winter cuz...i hate, again, HATE, the feeling of surviving from the coldness in winter. i remembered clearly how i'd sit in the same position for hrs on my sofa watching TV just becuz i didnt want to lose my warm spot...haha, yeah... and somehow my house gets very cold during winter (so does everyone's)...but yeah, the thought of i'm gonna freeze to death occurs tome more frequently in winter or when i'm on my bike going to classes in da MORNING... or NOW when i'm in SJ missing my warm dorm in davis..>_<

okay, enuf...what was i gonna say? ohh..rite, i got a C on my chem final. i was so happy after knowing it... at least i didnt blow it!! (not that bad)... sigh, i'll be satisfied with a C in college...dats so freakin sad!! damn. or maybe i should work harder? hmm....interesting thought! i'll give it...more time to think ova it...come back next time to check on my thinking progress. =p

went to berkeley with cathy today and finally visited alex and his dorm. saw a few products from the simpsons (yes, da simpsons!!!). i've been searching for homer's figure keychain...tsk tsk, couldn't find it. and i saw ngan's friend's keychain, i was in shock, i just gasped without making any noise or expression (it was so hard)...>.< damn. anyways...i shall stop saying damn... lets stick to fuck..hehe, jk.
yeah, went to berkeley n walked around UCB... met cathy's friend and her cool place in berkeley, and met up with honhon at nite. we highlighted our hair...^^ alrite...we make da perfect "couple" now..hehee...anyways...we'll see about that tomorrow when we meet up for afternoon snack.
and i also lectured cathy a bit...which i felt both bad and good for doing it. bad: it seems like i'm all perfect n judging others now n making comments,etc. good: i finally got the courage to tell her what will bug me if i hadnt told her now. well...i thought my confusion was cleared up recently, but, it's back!! :: scream:: dern, it just wont leave me alone. hmm... i'm surprised to know that i still dont know what i want now. i am surprised cuz i always think that i know myself pretty well by now. i guess not.

oh, yeah, finally saw "better than chocolate", a les movie. i liked it. it has less moral or meaning, but it gives audiences a broad overview of what types of les/transgendered there are in the real world and some of their obstacles they face in order to go for their sexual preferences. it's a nice movie. and.. nice porn; especially when they were just making portraits of "the goddesses". ok, enuf talking for tonite, must go kiss my hamsters goodnite n go to bed. yes, i kiss my hamsters. (and my bunny, not my duck n hen, eww, no.)

:::enjoying my winter break:::

went out n saw a few movies in 2-3days that i was in SJ. saw not another teen movie which i'd not recommend to u if u cannot take nasty jokes/scenes and again, it was hilarious; ocean's 11 which was pretty good and quite interesting ^.^ check it out! also saw mulholland drive which i'd not recommend at all, go for it only when u have nothing better to do. =p i'll probably to see vanilla sky on friday or ova the weekend and perhaps taking cathy to see 13ghosts, k-pax, and princess' diaries before she leaves.

::::one down, one to go:::::
just came back from my beloved 8am-chem final. it was EASY!!! ^o^ i'm so happy to be able to annouce it here.. had been having troubles figuring out problems on da past midterms..(fu*k)....yeah, but this final was actually easy!! ~^o^~ I AM SO SO HAPPY!!! (tears in my eyes)...SIGH of relief~ sigh~ (shouldn't spent as much time on chem then! darn)... yea... i think i aced da multiple choice part (yay! i can finally admit that i aced on something!! sad~) anyways... one down, one to go. must cram more for econ.

this morning i kept hearing noises..(it was my alarm clock, now that i realized)... thanks for cathy for giving me a wake up call, or else i'd oversleep..thanks! ^^
yes, what am i doing? i'm already packing up..what the! lets study for econ!! (telling myself..)...ok ok, fine. study, off i go.

hello, everyone!! yay~ i'm still up this late!! dats rite!! for my beloved finals!!! ^___________^ (((GRRRR)))
me so tired n trudys ran out of redbull, great! well, i guess, pulling all niters is not good anyways, so i might just as well flunk my chem final n go to sleep now.

okay... hmmm, chem....sigh~

~SIGH~

:::pulling my own hair:::::
sigh, i'm tired of being myself... why do i need so much time to just figure out how i feel?? am i that important to be holding up someone's time/feeling for such a long time? i'm sorry...i'm selfish....:::very depressed::: leave me alone before i attack u...hehe, jk~

aiya...just blew my math final....great..... one less class to fail...=P hehe..jk...i dont know... perhaps i'll get a C in dat class...oh well,who cares now.
i dont know..i'm so distracted lately....dats so bad.... i'm back to the time around my midterms, i was so lazy and procrastinating all the time...
even playing snood is not helping...wuts wrong with me? tsk tsk tsk... maybe i should just go to SJSU..hahaha....NOT!! hell no, i'm sorry... **deep breath** okay, back to study. i cannot continue hurting my education. i dont want to go to SJSU....i like UC....and i already brought a sweater fr UCD too!! i must not hurt its feeling....=P

hehee, ok ok...enuf of those... yay, its only 3pm now...i have all nite to study on one subject...hmm, econ? chem? econ!!! well....stupid econ, so tricky... evil!! (omg, i'm adopting "evil" from turtle..hmm, bad~) has anyone tried "diet pepsi twist "????? i got it from trudy's (mini market on campus). it was so nasty at my first sip... but now it's alrite... it's da only soda left..haha... not cold too...oh wellz.

hey, roomie, have fun...i'm gonna miss u!! hehe... i know u wont miss me cuz..u're meeting all of ur friends and eating all those foods dat appeared in ur dreams for the last 3months (tsk tsk tsk)... oh well, i'm glad ur finally going back and..like, go back to da lifestyle and place that u were so used to, after working hard in college...^^ good girl! i'm proud of ya! keep it up tho! and..... remember what i asked u to bring back??heheheehe....

good morning, everybody, yes, i'm up at 8am!! unbelievable...hehehe, esp when i have no morning class to go to, why i'm up? hahahaha..isn't it not very hard to guess? last min cramming, ofcourse!!! what else?!! =P yea, me so proud of myself! (dat i actually got up to study, wait a min! i'm here typing! o.p.p.s...^^;; ) oh well...i..i..i just miss u guys...so am i forgiven? ^_^ (giving da best smile)... anyways, enuf nonsense. almost everyone is going to be done w/their finals by friday (my roomie n phuong n many others..>_< i'm too sad, can't list em all, hee), yeah, i wont get to go home until saturday afternoon!! dat sux! @#$^%&......................can u believe that i'm still not ready for my finals yet?? >.< i'm gonna be so doomed.... okie... must cram more...laters!

i can't believe dat i actually sat down for around 5hours working on math problems....omg, i'm so happy that i'm studious again..hahhaha..yeah..it's been a long time... after this saturday, i'll be done w/school. i'll be home kicking and chilling so hard...^+++++^ can't wait, dammit!!!

:::just got back from an 8am final::::
yes... did okay...it was easier than what i expected. woohoo! (sorry, have no energy to smile now).. i'm so tired... i kept on sleeping during my final, thank god i have 2hours to finish it! hah! =p yeah, it was so funny, i fell asleep while the TA passed out finals to each row... and i fell asleep while i took the final. it's like, i fell asleep after answering one question and woke up later for the next one. so hilarious... thank god i will never see people from that class again! hopefully.... oh well... too bad... it's uh, biological thing, u know, me have no control ova it. =p and towards the end of my final, i finally woke up..and like did a few problems then fell asleep...see, slight improvement!! yeah, i had to recheck my final after finishing it just in case i just... write down whateva cuz i was so sleepy...hehee...yeah, and found a few mistakes! yup yup...thank god i checked! (which i usually dont). yeah... i stayed up studying and talking to cathy last nite... it was such a wrong timing.... but its alrite... i can just go to sleep now...u know...yeah, nite, peeps.

i'm confused or just not knowing what to do, a few interesting things happening lately. anyways, must concentrate now, have final tomorrow!!! >___<

how would u feel if people discuss about u behind ur back? what if they are all indeed nice, friendly, generous, and understanding people? maybe it's just that it took me by surprise that people are people. so they would talk about random topics. i couldn't believe that i cried (like 2drops of tears) just becuz..those whom i thought are perfect aren't really perfect. they disappointed me. felt being betrayed. but, i'm glad that i got to know the truth. although it didnt really matter, i did feel sad about it. haven't cried for such a long time (the last time was 4months ago, not so bad). and... i was surprised that i cried for stupid overfelt people (not meant to offend anyone cuz i'm fr overfelt myself). what usually would make me cry are like, problems in family, relationships, friends, and academic. oh well..i'm not feeling as bad as before. i'm actually fine n normal now..cool... okay, lets move on.

aim was actually being nice to me tonite cuz it usually tells me that i'm over the rate so i have to wait for 10seconds before i get to send my msg again. my typing rate increases now after chatting w/cathy tonite...lol~ for how long? hmm...God knows! 3-4hrs. (my poor fingers!! >_< and my chem book! opps, aww, they r feeling neglected) ..........oh well............

hey hey...i just finished watching "the animal" on TV. IT WAS SO HILARIOUS!!! omg...lol....^___________________^ i'd rate this as high as K-Pax,althought they are both diff types of movies...but it's okay. they are all good. but..i dont know, i can take gross scenes or talks, thats why i found the animal funny. well, ofcourse, it has no point or just plain stupidity. relax! life's about balance! u gotta balance it w/a bit of humor/fun and ur logic. i'm so glad i watched it. i went to study chem w/2other girls tonite for around 4hours (unbelievable!!) and it was helpful! because we discussed and brought up questions, by having each of us sharing part of what we understood, we all learnt from each other!! that was so great! ^_^ yeah, and i played badminton for an hour and my back sores now, aiya, exercising is important too. so, peeps, exercise!
heheee, the animal is SO funny..... ofcourse, u have to watch it with a very simple mind so u'd understand its humorous content. same with watching the simpsons. u cannot question or reason the actions/words/thoughts of the characters. u have to go with them and let them bring u into their ideas.

today's the last day of classes. final week is next week. i'll have 5days to study for 4finals. it's plenty. and i believe i will spend it wisely...-_-....yes, wisely. okie..that's what i have to say tonite. nite...

someone practiced on the piano while i was there with 4other people studying for chem. she played some...love songs, the well-known love songs. one of them that caught the most attention from our group was the theme song in romeo and juliet. my friend and I used to play that song like 10times a week when we were in our piano class in high school. i dont know, i wasn't very close to that friend, but we were like buddies throughout the class. and when it came to after class, we'd only say hi. the theme song in romeo and juliet reminded me of the time when i sat in front of the piano practicing and was alone in the room. l liked practicing alone, it gave me greater concentration. hehehe, but ofcourse, i haven't been practicing for..ahem, quite awhile. =P well well....i'm lazy and that i'm busy with many things around my life! =P

early greetings for those i love

::::n u know who u are!:::::

::::under a physically tired n exhausted condition:::::

sigh....so tired... maybe it's nite time, so... i got back to dorm at 9:50pm after a study group with 4other first-time-meeting friends and biked home by myself for 10mins in the cold, dark, n sprinkling condition. gosh. ..........hmm, well, maybe i should stop complaining.....i hate people who complain endlessly..hehe...^^ yea. they just get on my nerve and i will become very mean and rude to them (even friends).
well, now, i got..75% of study on psyc done...WHEW!!! sigh of relief!! ^__________^ yay~~ wuts next are chem n econ. major studies needed for them, man. hehee, i notice that...i always complain or talk about studying/school here...sorrie if all those talks bore u to death..i'm sorry.... see, if u get bored, u should see how i feel...>_< hehe, opps,me complaining again!! omg! (must stop before i become lina!!:::world's whiniest whinner::: u guys should've seen the way she whines...)
okie...life's all good after finals....aww....^^ just can't wait, man.hehe....i'm going on a christian camp for 4days3nites over my xmas vacation with my bro. i think it'll be fun and..inspiring. i seriously need to go back to God to...glue all the pieces of me back together. i've changed so much, positively and negatively. and, after all the stress and pressure from being a college student, i need a break and to resort all the informations(informatic/experience) in my brain. ohh, good news is that i'm understanding chemistry, not just HS chem. sigh of relief...^^ that means i wont do as bad on my chem final..hee...ohh ohh, i did good on my math midterm!!! i'm so happy! my friend used to get higher grade than mine, but this time, mine was higher, i was surprised. it now proved to me that, working hard helps!! (well, u know,i've been sorta working hard after doing bad on midterms, trying to catch up and prepare for finals..ya know.)

well,i think...i really talk too much about how i do in school, that's a bad idea.
sometime, i really wanna share to the public about my love life. however, due to some "technical difficulty", i cannot let those info's out into the public. so, yeah,sorry,folks. ur missing out on the good stuffs!! hehe, jk! ^_^ althought thoughts of creating a different journal on that have occured several times, i dont want a certain group of visitors to see it. so it's really hard to be able to identify and sort out all the visitors(friends, family, etc). perhaps setting a password system?? haha, nah, going thru all these hassels just to know about my personal life isn't worth it? isn't it? hehee, so..yups,end of discussion.

sorry, guys, gotta spare some room for encouragement for me too~ (since not getting any from peeps)

You can do it, sun!! keep it up!!

:::ever wonder why people fall in love?::::
from what i learn in psychology, relationships begin with proximity (closeness) and similarity. as proximity increases, the probability of two people becoming friends/lovers increases. because of the increase of time/opportunities to meet, to talk, and to know more about each other, one will tend to like the other. however, repeated exposure to something/someone we hate will not increase your liking. most of our close friends resemble our age, physical attractiveness, interest, religion, or attitude. that's similarity. why? because we like people with similar interests/beliefs/attitudes and it's easier to communicate and maintain sense of belonging.
:::why do people get divorced?:::
people change in ways they couldn't have predict. in most of the cases, people just simply marry the wrong partners. the definition of dating in terms of Western custom is determining whether two people enjoy the same kinds of entertainment (hobbies, interests). what's important in maintaining a lasting relationship is considering the consequences in a family life. a couple can count on each other for care and affection through good and bad times in a mature, lasting relationship. in other words, that couple understands each other (attitude, thoughts, political choice, religion, personalities, reactions/feelings in diff situations).

::::psychology textbook lying rite in front of me::::

dats rite, i'm about to lock myself in da room n finish studying for my midterm on this wednesday... plus, my roomie isn't here tonite, so i have the room to myself, that means i'm supposed to have a better and quieter study environment. and i realize that..i can concentrate better if i only have a desk lamp on and leaving the whole room dark. perhaps, the less stimuli fr the lights the less distraction for my brain to sort out the neuro-messages. =p

anyways.. i didn't sleep last nite... have been having trouble falling asleep at nite...sigh, somehow, i always wake up whenever my roommate moves or switches positions, is it a sense of protecting? or... am i just....thinking too hard at nite??haha...i dont know... but i'm so tired and sleepy today... i couldn't stay awake in my psyc class, kept falling asleep and didnt realize until i woke up again. >_< and i still..had to take notes while i was half aslept...>_< omg, u dont wanna see my notes, there's a few cross-outs and many dots cuz i was falling asleep and holding a pen!! heee...yeah, u get the picture? =P and one time, i woke up and found myself writing something down, but..it had nothing to do with the class!! my god!! heee..... oppsie~~ so yeah, gotta study hard tonite and go to sleep early today... so i will have energy to study more tomorrow!! how fun, huh! =P must leave now..heee, buh bye!

:::Munching on chips ahoy n typing::::

hey hey, sup?! i forgot to include a minor story... i always thought that "everybody loves raymond" is just..some silly show... everytime i scan channels on TV and i would immediate move on if everybody loves raymond is on.... but this time i spent a little time on it after watching simpsons and found that it's a silly show, but funny! just like why i like simpsons so much...Raymond reminded me of homer, but in a realistic figure this time, which made the show...a really nonsense show due to his stupidity/carelessness. since simpsons is just a cartoon, people usually find it more reasonable for the storyline/characters to be stupid/ignorant. raymond...is considered a useless person by his family cuz he would make a stupid choice all the time. the funny part is when his family picks on him and rejects his thought of being useful, for everything else, the scene would just..make u feel that this show is just...stupid. but if u think of it in a diff perspective, u'd learn that...paying more attention to ur family/anyone else around u is not such a hard thing to do. and by doing so, it'd increase the quality of ur life and others.

hey... ^_^ i wanted to write something like 3days ago...but didnt find the time..hee...yeah, i dont know why... it seems like i thought of many things and some of them involved deep thinking (related to life, lessons,etc) i dont know, just complicated thoughts.... i dont know how and why those thoughts came to me.... but i agree that they taught me something about life (again), as in, in a wider and diff perspective on a certain issue. i hope that's a positive influence..hee...^_^ and i finally could STUDY at home!! yeah! study!! ^___^ i actually sat there for more than an hour studying and doing problems on chemistry....which i normally couldn't focus on when i'm home. yea, it's a miracle! hee....^^||| maybe it's due to the approaching of my finals (in a week!! :::scream:::), but...it's still cool that i can finally, hmmm, sit down, not being distracted, n concentrate on studying. (somehow i feel kinda proud of myself to be able to do that again..but but but..i used to manage studying and controlling myself so well b4..sigh..what happened?) anyways, it's still a good news right? hee....^^ yeah, must go to sleep now.. gotta wake up at 12noon tmr!! =P

hello~ just finished my last midterm for math (which means what's left is my FINAL!! >_< ), yeah, i feel good...cuz i'm done w/studying for math. therefore, i can start studying for chem n econ over the weekend, final week is dec10-15, my god, i have TWO finals on SATURDAY!!! SATURDAY!! cant u believe that? sigh~ (altho many people have finals on saturday too)... but these are going to be my first finals on weekend, alrite.
i did alrite on my math midterm, the worst i can get is probably the average or a bit below average, so..i'm happy.... everything around the average score is considered good (more like a GREAT! in my case)...=P... heehee, i dont even dare to tell my family what my actual score on my first chem midterm!! >__________< HORRIBLE!!! the thought of chem and what i got on my midterm used to haunt me and depress me so bad for like..a month...it was very annoying and depressing...sigh~ but after slight improvement on the second midterm, my nitemare is gone.. i dont feel as bad when i think of my chem score.... yea...whew! since we're talking about chem, lets talk about chem lab... somehow i do labs very well since i was so experienced from taking 2science classes in my senior yr of HS.... so u'd notice others' carelessness on their labs,etc. or let's just put it this way, some of them may not even know the names of common lab equipments!!! ARGH!! for example, someone in my chem class didnt know what watching glass, test tube, buret, pipet and a volumetric pipet are..... hmm..... interesting, eh? i'm sorry, not trying to be mean..but.. it happened.

my roomie asked me..why is my name "sun" and not like, "moon"? or even a name of a planet? haha... i was surprised that..she was interested about the origin of my nickname... well, i've been using sun ever since i first used internet. i still remembered that i was thinking for a nickname to use in a TWese chatroom. i thought of the chinese term for "sunny day", but i didn't like the pronounciation of "sunny" as a name (sunny sounded a bit gay to me if ur gonna use it as a name)...so... i went for "sun". from then on, it became part of me: one of my identities. and some even call me "sun" in person and translated "sun" as what it is in chinese "the sun", but, the original meaning of it was really "sunny"..heee...oh well, i'm used to be called "the sun" now..hee... it's alrite... that's rite, i'm the "little sun".

remember i brought a set of dolls of the 2main characters in monsters inc.? ^_^ i brought them to my dorm, and now my roomie and my friend want them...gosh...u dont know how they.. grab them from me... -.- |||| yeah... and my roomie slept w/kitty (james) last nite... sigh, u see, some of college students are childish...tsk tsk tsk... (altho i'm the one who brought them..hee)

anyways, it's been so cold lately.... okay, i'm serious, COLDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! soooo windy!!! >__< its like, as windy as if the wind could kill u or freeze u to death, okay~ my god, i came back biking from class at 7pm, it took me about 5mins to return to my dorm from class, and i was so so so cold over the interval of time..shit...and i was already wearing wool hat today (well, i have short hair, okay, hafta protect my ears...=p ) i was all shivering...sigh... see, another good reason to shop!!!! ^+++++^ ho ho ho.

yeah! i finally saw monsters inc.!! ^-^ cute cute little movie.... and i brought a set of plush dolls of the 2main characters of the movie...^^ well, i told u i liked one-eyed mike even before i saw the movie.... well, and saw the one, it wasn't as good as i expected...idont know, it could be my taste or my problem. anyways, i wasn't as productive as i predicted over the weekend..heee....^^||| didnt study at all again...my god, i'm really turning my breaks into vacations..hm....that's bad.... well, i'm about to study now..just to make up for it... still got lots to catch up on....>_< sigh....

gasp!!!! just found out that... i'm already having one midterm this fri, another midterm next wednesday, and after those two, i'm have FINALSSSSS!!!! >___< oh my!!! ::::catching my breath from the shock:::: sigh.... yeah, everything will be done in 3weeks...my goodness.... college sux!! argh, gotta go back to seriously study now...ta!

halo~ yup yup, so how's everyone's thxgiving?? lotsa food?!! i suppose! ^_^ mine went pretty well. this year's kinda special and different for me cuz..i didnt spend my thxgiving w/mah family, with HH and some friends instead. yeah, i really start, no, not start, i have already noticed a family-like feeling or should i just label it warmth in HH...^^ hee, yeah, since we live pretty close too, i guess, the feeling of that will grow. anyways... (JJ, dont be jealous, u r part of the "family" too...ccc )

well, i finally saw "My School Mate, The Barbarian" my favorite male singer- nicolas tse tonite..... it...SUX!! sorry to say that aloud, but it really sux.... i was very disappointed, although nic was in it...but but but...i just couldnt stand the movie... gosh, why can't filmmakers just put in some effort and not just hard sell the good looking-actors/actresses in the movie? come on~ ............ it's okay, i still have lotsa hope in monsters inc., it's gonna bring back my passion n cravings for movies again.

happy thxgiving, guys!! ^.^ it's sooo cool to have 3school days in a week, awww~~~ feel sooo good, u have no idea how good and happy i am this week. and that's why i had time to go see 2movies in a row!! yeah... nice holiday, man! never realize how lucky i was when i was in HS being spoiled w/day offs so often, sigh. forgive me, man.
okie, enuf of junk talks... wut was i gonna say? forgot now... anyways, just went to yesasia to buy CDs, will be receiving two korean CDs by Yoo Seung Jun in 2-3weeks!!! YES! well, he's awesome and totally cool, not very cute-looking, but...i like his rapping and dancing style, alrite. he's talented in his own special way!

i'm going to HH's house tmr to join her thxgiving dinner...^^ hehee and i already had a turkey dinner w/mah family tonite... since most of us won't be home tmr nite...and the rest of the time, i better study and hopefully will do better on my next midterms coming up in 1-2weeks...>_< horrible! gosh, they just keep coming back...my god....

i haven't seen monsters inc., argh!!! i can already sense that it's gonna the best movie among the other two i already saw....but but but, most of my friends have already seen it, i'm still waiting for a company...anyone wanna join???

i went to see K Pax with a group of friends tonite and just got back home around 12midnite~ hehehe, my bro will be so upset and think that i'm so playful if he knew. well, i was gonna study at nite, then was convinced to go see harry potter, however, someone decided not to go and i was kinda pissed. and later on, they said lets go watch K Pax (since harry potter had already started before we made up our mind!) cuz my friend and I were disappointed at others' decision. yeah, so we went for K Pax instead. plus, my roommate was watching her favorite epiosode on my computer, it wasn't possible for me to study in a nice and quiet room anyways. i want to see Monsters Inc., i already like the one eyed dude (Mike) without seeing the movie or knowing what the movie is about. ^^||| weird, and i dont like disney character easily (not before i see the movie, okay)... yeah, so it must be good! can't wait to see it with someone or some friend who is willing to fulfill my..hmm...little want by going with me? hehee...okay, enuf with monsters inc., i gotta write down what i think about K Pax before i forget by tomorrow..hehee..^^||
yeah, K Pax is quite cool and..heart-warming movie. it was actually better than what i expected. i found myself so into the movie so often when i felt my fists pushing against my legs or the handles,etc..hehe...yeah, i enjoyed it. but, please dont...expect it to be a really good movie, cuz.. diff person has diff standard in judging, so, i dont wanna spoil the fun or disappoint u after u see the movie if it doesnt turn out to be as good as what i felt it is.

hmmm, back to academics, well, i got my grade on my econ midterm, i did SLIGHTLY better this time and the overal class average dropped dramatically, which makes my grade close to the average....heee.... i was disappointed that it was close to the score on my previous one, but...i think i did improve. cuz the class did bad too.
yeah... like 2more midterms that i need to find out tomorrow....:::shivering::: i dont know, i'm just..very nervous...cuz.i studied, at least i tried my best to study as in..controlling myself. (my god, why am i like a wild child now? so uncontrollable nor serious about education anymore...what's wrong with me!!!>_< ) SIGH....can someone just slap me? thx.

okie, gotta go to sleep now..have class in like 7hours...aiya...nite

went to play badminton and worked out with friends last nite, quite refreshing! haven't enjoyed sports in a long while... thank god i'm done w/my midterms, or else i wouldn't be able to leave my studies! yeah, so now i can feel a bit of muscle sore...oh well...i still like the feeling after working out, it's like, u can feel ur physical strength thru exercising....

yay~~ i'm going home on wednesday!!! YES!! ^____^ NO SCHOOL~~~ yayayayayayyayaa~~ ::::tears in my eyes::::as u can see, how much i "like" my school and classes...>.< yuck! anyways, i just need more free time to catch up with my classes, i'd better! so i'm gonna use my thxgiving vacation wisely and productively. I...I..i..betteR!! (hopefully!!! pls, god~ help me!!) okay, i shall return to my hw now, laters!

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i went to "stream of praises" with the same good friend(initial: HH) i went with yesterday...^_^ awww, good music, better view, and better overall mood of the crowd. ^___^
i dont know, have been far away from God for quite a long time, i notice it and do feel bad about it for not..doing anything to change the situation. hmm, maybe, i'm really selfish ba. that's why. anyways, i'm trying to go to church as often as possible to bring myself closer to God again.
okay okay, enuf of my spiritual problems.

my friend in UCB and my dad kept telling me to transfer to berkeley. before i would consider it, but now, i would say NO, i'm surviving on the edge of passing my classes in UCD now, what would happen if i suddenly have to adopt to another new environment and more competitive system?? OMG~ no way!!
and, tell u what, i know for sure that i'll so regret of what i'm doing now in freshman year (being lazy and so it hurts my GPA!!!)....argh....it's such a sad topic, let's...move on.

oh oh oh!!! today when i was at HH's house, her dog is SOOOOO adorable!!! ^________________^ i already miss her!! she's so CUTE!! aww... i miss her tummy and her fur... although she gets really hyper sometime and licks me on the face (my first time being licked by a cute little puppy!! ^^ so its cool) anyways, yeah, the world is beautiful again..hehe....=p (despite the effort and time u'll need in order to keep a pet in ur home!!) so i'll just stick to keeping small animals,such as rabbit or hamsters, at home now.

feel so good today! ^_^ cuz i'm DONE w/my second round of midterms!! yay~~~ i dont know why, i still looked all mad after taking my last midterm as if i still had lots to catch up on, weird.
anyways, i'm sick!! argh, having flu la~ my voice changes, now it sounds so weird...^^||| hehe, and went out with 2good friends to a christian concert in SJ called stream of praises, it was good!! ^_^ i felt quite relaxed attending it. and we went to see a movie called the 13th ghost, it was pretty good too. although disgusting and scary sometime, but i like the idea and the end of the story. such a relief to know that u wont get scared anymore at the end of the movie~ hehehee...^_^

i heard this eng oldie song in a friend's car today, the lyric went like this: would it be my fault if i can turn u on? would i be so bad if i can turn u on? when i kiss ur lips, i wanna taste it.
yeah, something like that, what an interesting lyric. ^.^
okay, i'm gettin real tired now...so take care, y'all!
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hey, how r u all doing? ^^ i dont know why but i'm in a good mood now when i know there are 2 more midterms for me by friday!!!! (sigh, i'm weird, i know---NOT!! i'm just unique!) well well well, i dont know... just feeling good and the world seems beautiful to me again!....^^ i guess....that's what u get after u go thru serious studyings and stress..hahah... but i'm fine..physically, despite the runny nose i have.
oh, btw, u do not know how much i hate chem now!! hate memorizing the equations/formulas/relationships of different objects..OMG!!! >_< i'm so going to flunk my chem midterm again!!! argh~~~ ((i miss mr.Rad ::my HS chem teacher::)) anyways... i'm 18, a legal adult now, gotta take care of my own business independently. yups yups. independent! okay, enuf of this nonsense blabbing... gotta return to my Econ book!! oh oh oh...u know what? i think i did pretty well on my psyc midterm (today)...although i said the same thing last time and my grade turned out to be...uh, u dont wanna know. (it was that bad). okie, anyways...i better study before my roomie comes back, somehow i can study more seriously when i'm alone. good day

hi, all.

ai, me in one of those moody stages now....aiya... u dont know how frustrating it is to be studying for chem and getting stuck on some of the problems/lecture and needing to study for psychology cuz there's a midterm for me tomorrow. and after pscy, i have my lovely econ midterm the enxt day, and chem midterm the next next day. people were shocked after i told them about my midterms. i was like, oh well, life's life. but but but!!! i'm so ((((tired)))) now... i dont know why, reading in english just doesnt click in head unless i read it over and over. maybe i was distracted or couldn't fully concentrate. anyways... just... taking a break so i can go back to it later on without feeling sick or building up hatred towards it. hmm...alrite, gtg, take care.

i finally miss home and everyone truly. after i've been away from home for 5-6weeks...^^|| oppsie~ i take kinda long to realize this..hehe...=ppp
anyways, i just..really want say that, i miss u all, and i think u know who i'm talking about. take care and let me know that u r doing okay sometime.

sup, all!
well, me have been good good all week!!! (yes!) even my roomie is surprised that i'm so studious now (finally~ =p) hehee...
as i said, i gotta put in effort for my education instead of fooling around and messing up my life and future. yups!
and u know what? i'm having midterms this and next weeks!!! AARGH~ those things just keep coming back! sigh~ (lina, an advise for u is to choose UCB cuz of its semester system (meaning 2semesters per academic yr and less midterms), UCD has a trisemester-system, we have about 2-3midterms and 1final exam per academic yr::as in per course:::)
anyways...enuf with college stuff.... my point is that i'm being really good lately! even i'm surprised and proud of myself! (heee) yea, so all of u (including mi family n mi amigos) shouldn't worry about me ^^ me=mature now

yeah.. me gotta study again...(n listen to music)...so take care,peeps.

hey, all..how are u doing? me...surviving~ am still alive loh...
hmm....well, can't u believe it that i actually started studying for my classes!!! ^____^ me feel so proud! (of myself ofcourse)
anyways....hehee...although it has been like 4-5weeks after my school started..haha....
okay okay, fine, let's change our subject, it's not fun to discuss about my school life and grades now.

hmm...let's see, i'm going home this weekend for food..(can u believe it?) sigh~ yes, although i have tons of readings to catch up, sigh~

hi peeps..well...sorry that i'm overwhelmed w/school works and other distractions that are surrounding me now, so i decide to limit my internet usage as little as possible.
i found myself downloading mp3's and checking out other silly things for hours every day n nite.... and the results of my midterms don't even satisfy half of my expectations (although i know i deserve them), yeah, so...i'm gonna be a good kid now.. school is my priority. (gotta remind myself this!! argh)
take care while i'm gone.

hihi~ i'm writing this at home!! home home!! ^_^ hehee...not in dorm anymore using my roommate's computer...
anyways...i can even type chinese now..cool~ and i'm getting my computer back to my dorm on sunday.. hopefully it's fine...
well..just finished talking on the phone w/my roommate..... she misses me a lot!! (haha..jk...it's the other way around) =p
hehee..i ate so much at home today...cuz my dad cooked rite after i got home... i was like, eh..dad...stop feeding me!! >_<
oh well...the food was GOOD!!!!!! (aww...it was so good! u cannot imagine my happiness nor understand my gratefulness towards my family's (esp. peeps who cook for me) contribution n sacrifices....hmm...)
sigh!!! especially after taking midterms... eating good food is like a reward to me...^+++^ i didnt even care how much i was eating..haha...gosh...thank god i'm only eating like this once a week!! (as in going home every weekend)
anyway...i was searching for instant food or drink mix so i can bring them over to my dorm on sunday..^^ hehee...gosh, home has so many free resources!! =p heehe
ok ok...i'm a bit hyper today as i finished all of my midterms (finally!! gosh!)...^^ hehee... n that i'm home n have eaten so many good food!!
ai~~~ life is all good again! and i'm going out to shop for more instant food,snacks,etc tomorrow (me driving!!) heee....can't wait to carry a box of instant noodles back to my dorm so i wont starve again at nite while i study for my classes nor starve cuz i miss the meals due to the overlapping period of time of my classes n the lunch period. oh well... life's all good again!! ^++^ happy happy~ (as in gay gay)::::gay gay all the way, till the end of may:::::in memory of rei..hehe, jk!

hello, all~
aiya~~~i've been sleeping through my morning class today, hehe, opps! =p
well.. i couldn't help it if i was that tired in the morning due to lack of sleep in the nite before..=p my body was just undergoing some restoration. =pp
hehe...yay~ i have chem midterm tomorrow!! (sigh) but i'm just done w/my other hws...whew~ that means i can start on my studying for chem now..alrite!

just got a shot on my left arm today, it hurted so much when the nurse inserted the needle into my arm...and she even told me that the vaccine wouldn't be affective if the needles doesn't reach my arm muscle; i was like, "dohh!! >.< stop telling me! stop it!"
yea..now i got it why did she have to push the needle all the way into my left arm now..i was like, "hello? it hurts, u know, can u pull out the needle already?!"
oh wellz...it's alrite now... my arm is fine, no stiffness,etc. heheee...at least i dont get my shots on my butt!! like some little kido's still do...tsk tsk tsk! disgrace, man! (lina, u do that rite? hahaa...)

anyways, i'm in a good mood now..hehee...cuz i'm using my short blocks of time in between classes efficiently!!! alrite!!! ^+++^ that means more time for me to study for midterm now..hehe..coolz~
alrite alrite...gotta leave the computer before i get addicted to it again! wish me luck on my midterm, peeps! (thx to those who do wish me luck)
btw, i'm getting my computer back this weekend! heheee...that means, less time for my journal! =p hehe...hope not.
and i'm going home this weekend...gotta shop for snacks n instant food. gosh...MUST BUY FOOD~ (it's my best friend..=p hehe)

people, remember to eat when ur stomach is sending u the signals!! sigh...or else u'd get stomachache like what i had tonite...it was horrible.. never felt so bad before(as in having stomachache)....anyways, thank god i feel fine now.

hello~
well..just found out that i got a D+ on my math midterm!!!!! >__< sigh...i knew it..i kinda expected for that kinda result.
my friend got about the same score as mine, which surprised both of us cuz i expected her to get higher than that.
but..it's alrite... i feel okay, however she feels horrible about it.
well, i only have one midterm left, it's chem!!!which i haven't started studying for it...opps! cuz i still have other hws that r due before the midterm!
so i'm gonna finish the hws first then study for my midterm!
yesterday i went to a time management workshop, which supposedly helped me on developing a wise way to spend my time efficiently.
i knew what my time wasters are...after messing up on 2 out of 4 of my midterms, i will start eliminating those time wasters that prevent me from getting my tasks done on time.
basically i have started on one of my biggest time wasters:failures to use short blocks of time constructively. yea..i wasted a lot of short blocks of time in between classes on wondering around n being stupid!! aiya!
okay okay..it's okay... see, i'm doing hws during those blocks now! (starting today)...^^ heee...yup, i'm gonna be a good college student from now on! (and lina, i think u need to start learning how to self-discipline urself starting now.. cuz u know how well i can control myself from temptations before, and now i'm like..having trouble organizing my own life.. well... u know.. just wanna remind u about it.)
okie...enuf of talking...let me get back to my lovely hws now!! ^_^ good day

hello~
well..just found out that i got a D+ on my math midterm!!!!! >__< sigh...i knew it..i kinda expected for that kinda result.
my friend got about the same score as mine, which surprised both of us cuz i expected her to get higher than that.
but..it's alrite... i feel okay, however she feels horrible about it.
well, i only have one midterm left, it's chem!!!which i haven't started studying for it...opps! cuz i still have other hws that r due before the midterm!
so i'm gonna finish the hws first then study for my midterm!
yesterday i went to a time management workshop, which supposedly helped me on developing a wise way to spend my time efficiently.
i knew what my time wasters are...after messing up on 2 out of 4 of my midterms, i will start eliminating those time wasters that prevent me from getting my tasks done on time.
basically i have started on one of my biggest time wasters:failures to use short blocks of time constructively. yea..i wasted a lot of short blocks of time in between classes on wondering around n being stupid!! aiya!
okay okay..it's okay... see, i'm doing hws during those blocks now! (starting today)...^^ heee...yup, i'm gonna be a good college student from now on! (and lina, i think u need to start learning how to self-discipline urself starting now.. cuz u know how well i can control myself from temptations before, and now i'm like..having trouble organizing my own life.. well... u know.. just wanna remind u about it.)
okie...enuf of talking...let me get back to my lovely hws now!! ^_^ good day

hey hey~ great, i'm in a good mood now, dont know why, but..it's ok...^^ the reason is not important ba.
nothing good happens today besides the fact that i'm still alive n everyone else around me is fine too..
hee... me decided to concentrate on my school (finally, and my school already started for a month! gosh.. bad sun..)
despite all the other distractions (like going online, chattin, buggin people around me, going out, n hangin out just for the heck of it)
i should be studying lar for my midterms...but..finding myself here writing this journal thing..aiya
anyways...^_^ just wanna do something to my website since i "ditched" it for like weeks since i moved to davis.
well, hope that u all have seen my new pics ba...esp me n my roommate! ^.* peeps said my roommate is cute, i was like, "no comment", haha, jk!

well...btw, i wanna delicate a little note for my buddies who cannot read chinese on my website..haha..sorry, guys!
but..u know...i haven't been white-washed yet! ...heehe, just kiding la! no offense!
anywys.. so from now on, u guys can at least be able to read this section of my website n see whats going on in my daily life (...IF!!!...i still continue writing this journal thingy..hehee,u get what i'm saying? that's IF i dont get lazy)

hmm....good day, peeps! (bean n mango juice, n perhaps allybaby too, if u all check out my website someday)

hello, y'all. sup, this is sun~ yea... heard of blogger from my roommie-rei**....so..here i am to try it out.
but i'm not as messed up as my roommie who talks n writes to herself here just to relieve her stress n complains. hehe..i have better ways to express my feelings, like just randomly call up close fds, or work on my website, or chat w/whoever that's online, or study for classes (yea rite!!), or just sing aloud in the room. anyways...this is getting boring to be talking to myself...okie...laters