whew! finally done w/my sociology paper!! *tears* anyways, must sleep now... screw the rest of my crew who are still not done with theirs and yet talking to each other and playing online games. tsk tsk tsk. awwww, pain! sore! tiredness! have a day full of classes from 9-1:30, crepe! (crap)

and yes, once again, i'm working on my paper which is due in 8hours. aiya~ this is my first time trying to write a college paper in 48hours. sigh. i miss HS english class. how they can always make u prepare and start on ur outline,etc. aiya~ why me? hehe, jk!

my chinese program died on me for a few months already. it sux. i didnt get window2000 cuz i want to be able to install that chinese program onto my computer so i can continue writing stories and emails in chinese while i'm on campus. great, i couldnt install it back in cuz i think my computer is not clean..yeah, gotta 'tune it up" that is. anyways, must finish my paper and print out my first draft, aiya~

got this tonite...it's really meaningful...i like it. and since i dont have time to write my philosophy here, i'll share some that i agree with.

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on
stress management.
He raised a glass of water and asked the audience,
"How heavy do you think this glass of water is?
The students' answers ranged from 20g to 500gm.
"It does not matter on the absolute weight. It
depends on how long you hold it. If I hold it for a
minute, it is Ok. If I hold it for an hour, I will
have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an
ambulance. It is the exact same weight, but the
longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."
"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or
later, we will not be able to carry on, the burden
becoming increasingly heavier.
What you have to do is to put the glass down, rest for
a while before holding it up again."

We have to put down the burden periodically, so that
we can be refreshed and are able to carry on. When you
return home from work, put the burden of work down.

Don't carry it into your home. You can pick it up
tomorrow.

have so many things to put in my journal but still can't find the time to really write them all down. darn. now i forget them.... >_< aiya. anyways, got a paper to write, i should shut up now.

See what Care Bear you are./a>

mommy called today at 8:10am cuz she wasnt there when i called. so we talked for a bit.. she complained how she has a lot of things and her luggages are already full and she is worried how she's gonna carry her luggages while making a connection in vancouver all by herself. sigh. if only i were there, she would have no worry over that. ^_^ BUT!!! anyways, hopefully she'll be ok in some way. aiya. yeah, davis snowed this morning. yes, many people witnessed that! roomie called at 8 (b4 my mom called) to wake me up n tell me that it was snowing! i thought that she was being silly again, so i said, "no, it's just frost." roomie, "but but but, it's got snow on top of the tree, lawn,etc!" i shook my head, "sigh, nah, prolly just ice fr frosting in the morning, u know how it is." my dormmates came back from morning class n said that they saw snow. great! i want to see how it is to walk while snowing! ohh well~
i'm so sleepy ZZZzzzZz only had like 5hrs of sleep, special thx for roomie n mommy for calling! *tear* TIIIRED, SLEEEEPIE. aiya~ must be productive today! cuz i will not have as much free time as what i have today!

wenta get dinners at viet restaurant and cost me $14!! SIGH... u know what, i'm doomed. now, lets just pray that my snack money (gold plus) is being put into my account BY NOW!! *fudge*.... i've been waiting for 2weeks or so already...
ok, anyways, i was quite pissed and wanted to ramble here tonite after dinner. but now i lost my rage, so i guess, i should move onto other topics before i start cussing.

well, lets see what i did over this weekend? went grocery shopping. didnt get a haircut, special thx to my bro. (grrr) anyways, mommy's coming back on sat ^o^ that means next weekend is another slack-off week for me..*chuckles* hey~ it's not my fault! i have to go pick up my mom at the airport! *looks innocent* (chuckling continues)
oh, yeah, finished one hw out of 4hws i planned to start on over the weekend. oh well~ good enuf. at least i actually stayed up till 4am to finish some reading assignments. oh, got a letter from K fr singapore ^^ she made me a friendship bracelet!! *gasp* yeah, i was so surprised when i got it! ^^ cuuute! (actually it looks cool). i just put up a pic of me with the bracelet under my photos! check it out! ^^ anyways, i've been wasting my precious time!! someone slap me!!! SIGH.
ok, more reading b4 i go to bed. nite.

wish me luck, peeps. what a nice way to start my day: woke up at 9 and met my 2dormmates outside the door. ngan went to take a shower while i brushed my teeth,etc. and i scared her a few times (more like i made her nervous, she didnt get scared, she became paranoid *chuckles*) and so i left the bathroom w/a big smile on my face and went back to my room to study a bit more for chem ^.^ heheheh, poor girl. anyways. dormmates found a place called the heritage house that may be our future housing for next year. we'll go check it out today and sorta reserve it.

well, we checked two places: the heritage house and the syncamore lane. i like the syncamore lane better. maybe becuz we saw a really messy n yucky room (4guys) and then the nice and neat apartment of 2girls'. yeah... the rents are pretty much the same. syncamore provides free gas n water n nicer funitures while the other one seems older *shivers*. anyways, we'll decide next week.

it's sad how going home becomes my incentive to study hard for my midterms on friday..hehe ^^|| well, i'm so sick of school, i need a break, i need to go back home where i get to put down all the stress i get from school or others and just be a little girl (to my family).. it's an awesome feeling to be worry-free. sigh. i dont want to be a kid again. i dont need to cuz i'll always be a kid in front of my family. they will always cherish, love, and treat me as the youngest kid of the family. (in other word, spoiling me..hehe) yeah, my mom finally got a plane ticket flying back on feb 2nd!!! (thank god!) well, i wouldn't mind if mom takes another month in hk rather than coming back. i dont get to see her everyday when i live on campus anyways. just that it'd mean i'm going home every weekend just for her when she's back. yay!! more n better food for me!! *cries* love ya, mom! hehehe..

just wenta www.colorgenics.com to see how do i unconsciously feel now.. it says :

i'm seeking for peace of mind n secuity and i'm not satisfied w/current situation.
problems just keep coming back and go on,etc.
i'm under stress and am desperate for love n care n someone to comfort or just to simply listen to me,etc.
becuz of all these tensions, i'm always alert n try my best to guard myself....

well, i know i'm sorta stressed out..but didnt think that i'm that stressed out. i'm not! i'm just trying my best to be productive and to manage my time wisely (from the lesson i learn fr last quarter *cries* hehee, jk! i'm happy w/my grades, at least i passed! must be grateful for what i already have, rite? hehee)
yeah, try to get some reading assignments done b4 it's too late...*shivers*...okie.. enuf. i'm getting bored. and my math hw has been awaiting, ta!

haven't updated this for a while... hmmm, what am i up to lately? well, i have 2midterms coming up on friday, chem is the major one. well, math is kinda hard too, haven't been putting in effort..opps! well, hmm, well, I..I have more important things to do. omg, i so hate sociology and anthropology! i'm finally learning the names i'm sure i'll be using it quite often in anthropology after listening to it so many times for 3weeks! it's about time, u say? hehee, yeah...i know. i'm finally catching up in all of my classes, sorta, i'm much less behind than last quarter. somehow, i have more reading assignments to do this quarter that makes me fall behind!(argh) hopefully i can finish reading half of a book that is expected to be done reading by the end of this month along with reading assignment of another book! (WTF) ::sigh:: mom still lectures me on how playful i am in college and prolly spend most of my time kicking back rather than studying.. mom, if u know how much free time i have left after classes, then u'd have been more supportive especially when i miss u.

yay! i'm finally going back to SJ this weekend. stayed last weekend to study but my goal of the weekend wasn't fully met. sigh. and i bet you i will not be productive this weekeend when i'm home either. yes, and cathy can't whip me when i'm not studying! hah! *makes faces at cathy* and yes! i can't wait to go home n eat something decent!
i have class at 8 and i got up at 7:45 to study!! *gasp* yes, even i am surprised *giggles* well, my roomie woke me up cuz she was studying for her midterm at 6something.

Simpson's character you are most like is:

Marge
Simpson

stayed over cathy's place for 2days n nites. planned to study very hard but i disappointed myself again. but its alrite. its no one's fault. it just sux when ur plan doesnt work out the way u wanted it or expected it to be..hehee..oppsie~
yeah, saw the gloomy n realistic BH down. ate delicious ostrich burger! *kisses ostrich* and finally tried my first wendy's chicken nuggets. McD is still da best around here, sorry, wendy *pushes her away*. oh yeah, and me n cat saw the simpsons on sunday! (homer rules!) and while watching i was cooking chicken pieces. yes, i cooked! *slaps those who were surprised* the chicken didnt turn out too bad ^o^ yes, they were edible n i finished mine. i'm so proud of myself! maybe it's a sign that i'm not bad at cooking! dat means i'm gonna have better food next yr! yes! i should take cooking lessons over the summer or something, so i can finally burn all of my instant ramens and cook my own nutritious food instead. anyways, too tired n too hungry to type now.

You are ... Mother Simpson

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wasn't productive all day and went to see black hawk down. and tried ostrich burger!! it actually tasted good n so much better than beef patty (yuck). u should've tried McD's and my dorm's burgers. the beef patties are so dry! it's like a piece of jeans in between buns. WTF! dont i deserve better than these? hehee..anyways, i'm just exaggerating a bit here. but burgers are nasty.

black hawk down is such a brilliant movie. i liked it as it ended. thank god! it provides a closer and realistic view of wars and what our soldiers sacrifice for us *salutes*. i'm gonna be thankful on veteran's day from now on. i wasn't disgusted by the gross scenes of wounded bodies or bloody exposures of body parts. but the thought of it actually happens in every war disgusted me. oh well, life is life. i think we are all spoiled from living peacefully while many many fellas protect us and provide security for us. sigh. maybe i should really go ahead n be a doctor. but, what's the point of becoming one when i have a great tendency of getting cancer in my later years? yes, i hope they come up w/cure for cancer by then thru biotechnology!

just went to a cantonese student fellowship in davis tonite from 7:30-11:30. they had a workshop on relationships. one of those workshops with the same topic and same idea i have heard of b4. well, it's still got some points in it. just that i was too tired and i basically know what they'd cover. (but criminals would still commit crimes when they know that they are illegal and bad. it's an analogy, dont get me wrong there)
i like the people there. they are all young people and UCD students. and they are friendly. such heart-warming group of peeps. anyways.. i'm gonna go and have some fun now. maybe play a lil' online pool or read a few pages (few=more than 2 =p)

got 3free condoms from UCD peer counselling office. hehee, hey~ i got them for fun okay... cool colored ones..hehehe. anyways, some guys from the same building saw em and whispered to each other so i shouted out, "yes, they are mine. i got em for free!" and they showed one to one of the most innocent mammals on earth (ngan). she examined it and started reading off the condom, but she didnt know what that was. i took it away from her. u know, i'm good at corrupting people's souls and minds. =p (whateva!!!)

yea, i'm staying here in davis for the long weekend. what for? well, one: i will not get things done at home and most likely gain more weight since i have ldelicious food at home (anything that is better than dorm food is considered=delicious). since i have 3days off, i hope i get everything done and prepare for my upcoming midterms. aiya... midterms, yes, i "love" them so much. sigh. :::helpless:::

got addicted to this online pool made by shockware, awesome game. pool is so fuuuuuun! ^o^ and i'm going to play more pool or bowl with cathy over the long weekend. well, give me a break k? =p if u find me not reading books in my free time, whip me (lightly), cat. thx. lets see, i need to read for chem(to catch up n to read ahead, do chem problems, finish reading one of the two books for anthro (awwww *pulls my hair*), and read for sociology. SIGH life again sux.

what i resemble the most..
# 1 china
# 2 fiji
# 3 iraq
# 4 switzerland and/or canada
# 5 america
# 6 burkina faso
# 7 japan
# 8 england
# 9 france

You are Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivrusky the Fourth
A strange and fun loving kid. You are an expert computer hacker and have all the really important, meaningful dialog in the series :).
Which Cowboy Bebop Character Are You?

went stargazing with cathy last nite outside my dorm. omg!! that was my second time stargazing. the first time was with alex. that nite was cloudy and moist. but i saw a shooting star and big dipper. it was my first time seeing a shooting star with my own naked eyes! ^o^ hehee, yeah. and last nite was my first time seeing twinkling stars. i'm so serious, stars do twinkle!! o_O WTF! i was sooooo surprised...^+++^ (smiling w/teeth showing). it was awesome! freaking cool! there were only two of us out in the cold gazing at the stars. hehe, twinkle twinkle lil' stars~ how i wonder what u are. sigh of joy. awesome stars. they were kinda bright and we had a nice clear sky last nite.

me n roomie didnt sleep till 3 cuz we were up talking about diff things. it was nice cuz we haven't talked like this ever since the break. it's like..we are both tired by the time we go to bed so we stop talking to each other about problems or just fun things that happened like what we used to do every nite b4. well.. i got to clue her in to a lot of things that were in my mind and happened while she was not around. and so did she. yea, we finally stopped talking and fell asleep. and when i woke up this morning, my back, my shoulder, my arm,n my abs sore!!!!!! T.T why meeeee?! then i told roomie about it cuz i couldnt figure out how and why i'm sore. she reminded me of my badminton class yesterday. "oh yeah, huh!!!" yea.. and so are ngan n phuong. they are all in pain..hehee, as much pain as i'm going thru. =p anyways..it hurts when i laugh or giggle. darn! ouch~~

What Psych-Ward do you belong to?

damn, i have depression personality! crap! i knew it! =P i'm a schizo!

Which drink are you?

yes, admit it! i'm just another heavenly body...=P

*yawns* yes, it's passed 12 midnite and i'm still up cuz my roommate is on the fone!!! sigh. and her conversation prolly will last for an hour...sigh. what have i done to deserve this? hehehe, jk! i'm tired..didnt have enuf of sleep last nite and have to get up early tmr...>_< *cries*...i so wanna slap her... omg, i'm becoming violent here.
okay.. i have so many reading assignments for two of my 4classes.. i'm doomed! i'm tellin ya! i'm DOOMED. i kinda hate reading too, only liked it when i got into it like half way in the book. anyways, i'm gonna stay in davis over the 3days weekend so i can at least get more things done since i have an extra day to spare(procrastinate). hehe.

i'm so tired n sleepy...finally fell asleep in chem at 10!! sigh, quite impossible cuz that class is becoming fun now. anyways, slept at 3am last nite cuz i was talking to some friends and trying to finish my reading for sociology (fudge it!). sigh.. i'm done w/3 out of 4readings..thank god!! okay, i shall go read more now...late.

yups, i'm back in davis! hehee, went back to SJ on fri evening and came back on saturday noon. yes, that's right, i only stayed in SJ for like a nite! what for? well, i couldn't study at home. hmmm, it's just weird to be studying at home. so i decided to go with cathy's friend: james to davis. we had nice conversations in the car. james is cool. oh yeah, we had del tacos. i saw del tacos in LA, but never had a chance to try it. it's pretty good. i miss overfelt super chicken burrito. the chicken and the rice inside the burrito..man! ^^ anyways... we watched TV and kicked in cathy's "condo". then me n cathy saw "if these walls could talk2", it's not bad. but i'd recommend "better than chocolate" over "walls". i read n studied till 2am (and stopped several times in between..hehee). anyways, yeah, slept on the couch cuz i didnt want to go back to my dorm. i'd rather sleep on the floor than to sit on my wooden dorm chair for hours. what scary me is that i'm getting used to that chair!!! my god! >_< my poor butt! =P

oh yeah, went to play pool with cathy and i'm glad that we r both beginners. pretty much at the same level..hehe..yeah..but online pool has its fun in it too! =P anyways, must return to my reading of one of several books i'm supposed to finish in a month or two. sigh.

hello, peeps! ^^ its the morning of friday!! yes! FRIDAY!! thank god its friday! sigh of relief! ^___________^ la la la la la la la~
pardon me, u just dont understand how grateful i have to be for taking a break off heavy school works. *worships* =p hehee, well...altho i have tons of hws to do over the weekend, i still think that returning home will just the situation better. yes, please remind me to work on my reading assignments n hws..please! (pls hit me hard if i dont! except cat, thank u)

thank god my earliest classes of the week start at 9am and for MWF, my classes start at 10am. PRAISE DA LORD. so i can study till 2am the nite before my 10o'clock class ^.^ which helps and gives me more time on catching up the class/reading. oh yeah, i lost my student ID card today on the way to 3back to back classes. ate pizza again for breakfast n lunch. and got so paranoid about my ID card so went to get a new one right after classes for $15. and got an email fr some nice professor saying that he found my ID card (my new card was in my pocket at that time)...great! oppsie...i'm too spoiled, sorrie! but i'm happy to get a new pic on my student ID card which i will keep for 4yrs if i dont lose it again. yes... well,now i have 2cards, who's up to playing badminton in davis with me? huh? anyways..i'm so tired now.. why am i still up??? i'm supposed to be reading or studying or sleeping!!! no chatting! stop me!! okay...must sleep...nite (in a shaky voice)

i'm so tired of school... sick of it... and i'm sure it'll get worse later on, darn! >_< thank god it's wednesday.. just 2more days to go and i'll be home! i want to go home~~~

sigh, school has started, my fun and free time is over :: tear drops hanging:: anyways, i believe i will be reading and writing a lot this quarter. thanks to anthro1 and sociology2. ::mwah:: my schedule is pretty packed. tues and thurs are the worst with back to back lectures and discussions.(my god..sigh) have to skip lunch for every tues and thurs from now on (aww, man). anyways, they should be interesting n challenging. i need motivation to work harder anyways.

i went to play pool and bowl with friends over the weekend. we were almost there fr fri-sun. ^^|| hehehe, i guess i'm getting addicted. hehee, last time i was playing air hockey with a friend 30mins before class. my friend got scared and was obviously afraid of the speed of the hockey when i hit, so i had to slow down or else she'd never return it back. (hehehe) yeah, the score was 2-0. i won. and becuz we took so long to score (due to the "speed" we were playing at). it just stopped after 20mins. lol. it was bored too.. sigh~ thank god it stopped or else i'd have to continue that until i get to 7. yups, that was my last fun weekend until spring break. anyways, yeah, i hope my family will never read this part.hehee.. oh yeah, i wanna go home already... so sick of school, especially when i have no time and no company to play pool or bowl with. darn. school totally sucks again. sigh~ life is life. must get on with life. just like what i read in "sin boldly!" (it's so funny and true, yet educational. recommended) and ofcourse i will never read it if it's not assigned..hehehe.

::: must study for chem::: yeah, i shall start reading my chem book b4 class so i can make sure that i try my best this quarter. since da prof said that my chem class is the hardest in the series, either i work my ass off or just fail the class. yes, and i think i should start giving up my free time since i had enuf and done little on academics for the past 3months. hehee, first thing must do is to stop downloading songs!!! >.< it's soooo hard when u have free n super fast internet connection. sigh. how am i gonna survive without it next year?? oh no~

went to a chinese restaurant with cathy. food was ok. well, i guess i should say really good since i can never get that kinda quality in dorm food. anyways, i think i'm getting freshman5...darn...i think i gain a total of 10lbs over the summer and till now. must stop the "growth" ( =P ). altho i have lots of baggy jeans that will still fit me even if i gain 10more lbs ^^ anyways, working out more often will make my lifestyle more healthy n normal and it'll get me off internet ^^ yay.

oh, yeah. went to DCCC(davis cantonese chrisitian church) today for sunday worship service n sunday school. ^^ yeah, my first step in an attempt to continue my spiritual life. (gotta start with faith and actions) well, not bad. but they combined chinese&eng worships together. so i'm looking forward to just cantonese worship next time. lunch was okay. my friends helped to prepare the lunch. (therefore i can't complain)..hehe, jk. it's good cuz it's better than dorm food. i start to cherish food that tastes better than those i've been getting here. anyways, then we the overfelt crew and some new fds went to bowl for hours. fun. but it's time to cut my nails. it hurts. i sorta wanted to play pool if the guys were gentle enuf to step out of the game. but sorry, the guys we know so far haven't proven to me that they can be gentlemen too. okay, hmmm, then me n cathy just wandered around in downtown Davis for a while..hehe...i was so lost at nite. couldn't tell where i am unless i see gap. =p thank god i dont get to drive in davis. i'm tired. this is it. nite.

yay! my roomie is home ^_^ ok, anyways, this is enuf to welcome her back =P

awww, i think i twisted my arm muscle(s) while playing badminton with some dood (=p). awww...it hurts whenever i raise my elbow. darn. ok, i shall go and flip a few pages in my chem book or do something related to classes =p (even staring at my books would help). nite.

have a safe ride home, cat.

What Kind Of Pokemon Are You?

You are Sailor Mercury!

You are very smart, and you're good with

computers. You're sweet, and soft-spoken

and you have a very good heart.

You're not the most powerful, but you're the

brains of the operation.



You fight with the element of water!




Take the Which Sailor Are You? Quiz!

...created by Kenzie.

the theme for the camp this year is to fear God while we love Him. and i know how churches n peeps used to emphasize god's love and forgivness. some people would take god's love for granted. let's say dat I'm doing something wrong and knowing that it's wrong, but i'm thinking about "let's confess it later to god since he's gonna forgive me no matter what." so the theme reminds everyone that.. it's not our choice to commit sin. if he says it's bad, and if i'm still comitting it, then it's another sin.
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. - James 2:26
anyways, not trying to preach so that u believe in my morality also. so, i want to give up my bad deeds which have been holding me back. i want to give up homosexuality. well, it's not a sacrifice as it may sound. it's more like, i value god over my own preference/choice. hehee, now i sound so religious...=p ofcourse i'm not. but..i just have a strong faith in god.

it's so cold in SJ...yay~ my roomie is back~ i mean, aww, my miserable life will now being..heheh, jk! =P yeah, i'm still talking to my roomie on aim when i will meet her tmr in davis..hehehe. dont mind us. we are like this most of the time. we talked thru icq and aol when we were in our room. and we'd talk at nite while we are in our beds and about to sleep. hehee, that's why we usually didnt get enuf of sleep and fell asleep in classes the next day. thx, roomie =P. and i bet u we'll fall asleep or even skip classes on friday since we will have so much to talk about on thurs nite. >_< aww...man.

went to after-xmas-shopping today n yesterday with my bro. some old navy stores still have their winter blowout 50% sale. anyways, i think i'm going back to davis on thursday..hehee, just dont wanna leave SJ yet...i know i will miss my rice!! >_< hmm, a rice cooker can help.

5phone calls interrupted me in my sleep this morning&noon =p i was surprised that they were all for me. hehe, yay! i'm so populah! so many friends called me! =P well, an icq friend called from SF airport to say hi n told me to sing for her as what i promised a month ago ^^||| yeah, ofcourse i didnt, i was half awake. i could've gone to meet her if i knew that she'd be dropping by SF airport. oh well.

saw finding forrester, entrapement, and a chinese movie called love feel 100% II. entrapement was good, even tho it was my second time. my bro was gonna play the rock for the nth time today, but thank god he meant it as a joke. whew. yeah, and talked to a friend/penpal on icq about christianity and we inspired each other in some way ^^ thanks, K.

As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. - James 2:26