ok, bro's gf's hamster died in the afternoon (7/29). that poor soul.
not feeling good now...somehow i'm not happy about stupid things that i'm not supposed to be unhappy for ^^|| i guess it means i care ba. been looking forward to 8pm since 7.. and i was rushing through my hw and reading.. but i was a bit disappointed. (i'm just jealous and "small air") sux when things dont go ur way.. hahaa..ok, thats a pathetic laugh. forget it. whats more pathetic when i feel like talking but have no one in mind that i could talk to? i should get a life.
Monday, July 29, 2002
let's see, what am i up to for the weekend? well, hung out with lori and had dinner with her. serramonte is pretty good, not bad, it came to my surprise that they have thai spice at its food court! (fine, i'll try to make my own pad thai~ and salsa fr the recipes i got fr aol cooking =P ) then working for saturday. hehe, got my own apron with tapioca express logo at last~ yes, it's my own =D (altho i will have to return it b4 i head back to davis. but i wont need an apron in the future or to prove to ppl that i'm an employee of tap ^^|| ). then church on sunday. ohh, finally had a normal family dinner where everyone gathered around a dining table. haha, yeah, havent eaten like that for 1-2months. ^^|||
oh, yuck, bro's gf's hamster bled today. was so gross!!! that poor thing, i'd rather poison her so she wont have to suffer so much. sigh. well, that hamster has a huge tumor.. i'm sure many ppl wont be able to take a look at her wound. not that i love staring at her wound but thats another reason for me to continue on with premed major.. *very tempting*
oh, yuck, bro's gf's hamster bled today. was so gross!!! that poor thing, i'd rather poison her so she wont have to suffer so much. sigh. well, that hamster has a huge tumor.. i'm sure many ppl wont be able to take a look at her wound. not that i love staring at her wound but thats another reason for me to continue on with premed major.. *very tempting*
Saturday, July 27, 2002
Friday, July 26, 2002
havent talked to bro for a long time since i talk on the phone for hrs every nite ^^||| well, it's like he usually gets home at 10pm..then fr 10-1am will be the only time me and him could talk about things around us (latest movies, CDs, people, etc). i sorta miss talking with him. i'm sure he does too cuz he visits me everytime he arrives home and finds me on the phone. haha, he usually throw me a look and leave me alone until i reappear to brush my teeth.
KCI (fr FL) called and we sorta talked after a long chat on aim. she's turning so butchy..haha...she actually looks kinda cute too. anyway, i was really surprised how bored she is. not sure if i'm being stereotypic or i'm sorta disappointed in her way of dealing w/girls. perhaps, i'm no one to judge this kinda thing ^^|| oh well.
KCI (fr FL) called and we sorta talked after a long chat on aim. she's turning so butchy..haha...she actually looks kinda cute too. anyway, i was really surprised how bored she is. not sure if i'm being stereotypic or i'm sorta disappointed in her way of dealing w/girls. perhaps, i'm no one to judge this kinda thing ^^|| oh well.
Thursday, July 25, 2002
yay, almost done with my written assignment thats due tmr. ^_* somehow, after working i was tired but i was excited or hyper. maybe thats why i couldnt fall asleep. anyway, uploaded a few pics of mine and i sorta edited them. lori loves them..hahaa. no surprise =P see, i'm becoming more arrogant about my appearance cuz of her. haha~ but yeah, she printed them out and pinned it to the wall. hrm..not that i mind, but i'm just kinda shy when i think of how other ppl will see my pics..haha.. very gay. (gay cuz i took pics of myself and edited them; sent it out to ppl~) haha..yeah, roomie would scream "u are so gaaaay~ gosh, i cant stand u~" if she finds out. hehe..that dorka. a sudden thought today: might wanna take more GE at comm college next summer (since it's so much easier and cheaper here; davis is too hot in the summer). thats if i know someone who needs a place to stay for summer sessions. oh well. if i take courses at a comm college, i can still go to hk in august. ^_*
worked 6.5hrs straight yesterday. longest ever in my life. at least ppl there were nice and we knew more about each other now. ^_^ anyway, was so tired last nite. drank too much milktea and green tea too =D
stupid econ prof kept saying that she's very disappointed cuz my group decided to drop our extra credit project. it's only summer, sorry. no more hard working until i get back to davis =( now i'm in no mood to shop at all. i have a chance to visit valleyfair everyday afterschool but then i'd rather read a book or just take a nap. yes yes, me back to my retiring mood =P anyway, i gave mom the first $18 i earned at tap and she was like, "no no no~ u keep it. since u worked so hard for it, i dont want to take the credit." well, i guess it's too little. hehee, maybe next time when i finally earn a higher salary ^.^ anyhoo, that $18 is already gone la. been having $5 in my wallet for 2weeks now. ^_* yes, me saving real hard, couldnt u tell?
oooh, shoot, jaded is on this friday...awwww..i really want to go..but then, there's little meaning to go now. 1) i'm not desperate to meet more les 2) dont feel like socializing at all. sigh.
stupid econ prof kept saying that she's very disappointed cuz my group decided to drop our extra credit project. it's only summer, sorry. no more hard working until i get back to davis =( now i'm in no mood to shop at all. i have a chance to visit valleyfair everyday afterschool but then i'd rather read a book or just take a nap. yes yes, me back to my retiring mood =P anyway, i gave mom the first $18 i earned at tap and she was like, "no no no~ u keep it. since u worked so hard for it, i dont want to take the credit." well, i guess it's too little. hehee, maybe next time when i finally earn a higher salary ^.^ anyhoo, that $18 is already gone la. been having $5 in my wallet for 2weeks now. ^_* yes, me saving real hard, couldnt u tell?
oooh, shoot, jaded is on this friday...awwww..i really want to go..but then, there's little meaning to go now. 1) i'm not desperate to meet more les 2) dont feel like socializing at all. sigh.
Wednesday, July 24, 2002
as u can tell that i havent updated my journal for a long time.. as in, there's little i wanna write in this anymore ^^|| hrm..well, i guess thats what happens when i have a person to share things with. just 2more weeks of school and i'll be done. working more steadily now.. as in i'm not a trainee anymore ^^ so i get to work for more shifts fr now on. gonna try to stay in davis for a week in august. even missing a week of work, it's fine. it's worth it. dont think i'll bring trouble for tap cuz they dont really need me. a week should be fine.
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
> Subject: Special Sauce
>
> I was sitting at the drive-through window at
> McDonald's this weekend. I did
> the usual thing, I drove up to the menu and ordered.
> I proceeded to the
> first window and paid, then drove to the second
> window and waited for the
> order. After sitting there for a few minutes, the
> clerk slide back the
> window and asked, "Will you please pull over to the
> side; your order is not
> ready."
>
> I was a little upset and even impatient, but I
> pulled over and waited. I
> thought, "How come other folks ordered and drove
> straight through and I have
> to wait." I waited for another two or three
> minutes. It seemed like hours
> before the clerk finally ran out, tapped on the
> window, and handed me the
> order. Of course I asked, "Hey, what took so long?"
> She
> replied, "You wanted the Special Sauce, which meant
> it had to be especially
> made for that sandwich, it doesn't usually come with
> that one.
>
> This scene is a reflection of our prayer life. We
> make our request to the
> Lord. Our menu is His Word, where He has listed
> promise after promise. We
> stand before Him and request and plead and,
> sometimes, even beg. We go to
> the first window and pay, sometimes with fervent
> prayer, sometimes with
> prolonged suffering, sometimes with obedience, and
> sometimes not at all. We
> then move to the second window and wait for our
> order. If God doesn't answer
> within a few minutes, we become upset. You know the
> phrase, "Jesus, it's
> 5:00 p.m. Friday; I prayed to You yesterday, and You
> still haven't answered.
> I can't wait much longer." Why is it taking Him so
> long? I've seen people
> drive up before me and they received their orders
> right away! We even go so
> far as to tap on the window and ask if He has
> forgotten our order. We
> become impatient. We become upset. We become
> downright mad.
>
> Lord I asked for a mate ten days ago and I don't see
> him/her anywhere.
> Lord, I've been asking for a new job for two years;
> others have passed me
> by. I've been waiting on a financial blessing for
> ten years and I still
> have more months than money. Where are You and why
> haven't you blessed me?
>
> And just when you think He is giving you the answer,
> He pulls back the royal
> curtain of Eternity, and states, "Please pull over
> to the side and wait a
> while longer." This once frustrated me to no end,
> made me mad, made me want
> to give up, made me want to holler; that is, until
> the clerk brought out my
> sandwich. Then, the revelation became clear.
>
> Do you know why the Lord has put you on the side?
> Do you know why you have
> had to wait for this blessing longer than before?
> Do you know why He has
> put you through more this time than ever? Do you
> know why it seems as
> though He has not heard you and He does not care?
> Do you know why it seems
> like you have had to go through more tears, more
> pains, and more struggling
> this time?
>
> Because this blessing is a Special Sauce Blessing!
> This is an Overflowing,
> Pressed-Down, Shaken Together, Blessing! You made a
> Special Order and God
> has been putting together a Special Sauce Blessing
> for you and He has to
> prepare it for you!
>
> That mate you wanted . . . He's putting together a
> Special Sauce! That job
> you wanted . . . He's putting together a Special
> Sauce! That financial
> blessing . . . He's putting together a Special
> Sauce! That peace on the job
> . . . He's putting together a Special Sauce! That
> house . . . He's putting
> together a Special Sauce! That deeper anointing . .
> . He's putting together
> a Special Sauce! That promotion. . . He's putting
> together a Special Sauce!
>
> For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,
> says the Lord, thoughts of
> peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
> . . [and a Special
> Sauce]. Jeremiah 29:11 How many people have driven
> away before the clerk
> brought their food, and how many people have missed
> their blessings because
> they did not wait? Hang on there. Keep on waiting.
> You made a Special
> Order, now wait on God's Special Sauce! But they
> that wait on the Lord
> shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with
> wings as eagles; they
> shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk, and
> not faint. (Isaiah
> 40:31)
>
> They who wait shall receive a Special Sauce! Please
> send this message to
> those people who mean something to you, to those who
> have touched your life
> in one way or another, to those who make you smile
> when you really need it,
> to those that make you see the brighter side of
> things when you are really
> down, to those who you want to let them know that
> you appreciate their
> friendship. And if you don't, don't worry, nothing
> bad will happen to you,
> you will just miss out on the opportunity to
> brighten someone's day with
> this message.
>
> I was sitting at the drive-through window at
> McDonald's this weekend. I did
> the usual thing, I drove up to the menu and ordered.
> I proceeded to the
> first window and paid, then drove to the second
> window and waited for the
> order. After sitting there for a few minutes, the
> clerk slide back the
> window and asked, "Will you please pull over to the
> side; your order is not
> ready."
>
> I was a little upset and even impatient, but I
> pulled over and waited. I
> thought, "How come other folks ordered and drove
> straight through and I have
> to wait." I waited for another two or three
> minutes. It seemed like hours
> before the clerk finally ran out, tapped on the
> window, and handed me the
> order. Of course I asked, "Hey, what took so long?"
> She
> replied, "You wanted the Special Sauce, which meant
> it had to be especially
> made for that sandwich, it doesn't usually come with
> that one.
>
> This scene is a reflection of our prayer life. We
> make our request to the
> Lord. Our menu is His Word, where He has listed
> promise after promise. We
> stand before Him and request and plead and,
> sometimes, even beg. We go to
> the first window and pay, sometimes with fervent
> prayer, sometimes with
> prolonged suffering, sometimes with obedience, and
> sometimes not at all. We
> then move to the second window and wait for our
> order. If God doesn't answer
> within a few minutes, we become upset. You know the
> phrase, "Jesus, it's
> 5:00 p.m. Friday; I prayed to You yesterday, and You
> still haven't answered.
> I can't wait much longer." Why is it taking Him so
> long? I've seen people
> drive up before me and they received their orders
> right away! We even go so
> far as to tap on the window and ask if He has
> forgotten our order. We
> become impatient. We become upset. We become
> downright mad.
>
> Lord I asked for a mate ten days ago and I don't see
> him/her anywhere.
> Lord, I've been asking for a new job for two years;
> others have passed me
> by. I've been waiting on a financial blessing for
> ten years and I still
> have more months than money. Where are You and why
> haven't you blessed me?
>
> And just when you think He is giving you the answer,
> He pulls back the royal
> curtain of Eternity, and states, "Please pull over
> to the side and wait a
> while longer." This once frustrated me to no end,
> made me mad, made me want
> to give up, made me want to holler; that is, until
> the clerk brought out my
> sandwich. Then, the revelation became clear.
>
> Do you know why the Lord has put you on the side?
> Do you know why you have
> had to wait for this blessing longer than before?
> Do you know why He has
> put you through more this time than ever? Do you
> know why it seems as
> though He has not heard you and He does not care?
> Do you know why it seems
> like you have had to go through more tears, more
> pains, and more struggling
> this time?
>
> Because this blessing is a Special Sauce Blessing!
> This is an Overflowing,
> Pressed-Down, Shaken Together, Blessing! You made a
> Special Order and God
> has been putting together a Special Sauce Blessing
> for you and He has to
> prepare it for you!
>
> That mate you wanted . . . He's putting together a
> Special Sauce! That job
> you wanted . . . He's putting together a Special
> Sauce! That financial
> blessing . . . He's putting together a Special
> Sauce! That peace on the job
> . . . He's putting together a Special Sauce! That
> house . . . He's putting
> together a Special Sauce! That deeper anointing . .
> . He's putting together
> a Special Sauce! That promotion. . . He's putting
> together a Special Sauce!
>
> For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,
> says the Lord, thoughts of
> peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
> . . [and a Special
> Sauce]. Jeremiah 29:11 How many people have driven
> away before the clerk
> brought their food, and how many people have missed
> their blessings because
> they did not wait? Hang on there. Keep on waiting.
> You made a Special
> Order, now wait on God's Special Sauce! But they
> that wait on the Lord
> shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with
> wings as eagles; they
> shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk, and
> not faint. (Isaiah
> 40:31)
>
> They who wait shall receive a Special Sauce! Please
> send this message to
> those people who mean something to you, to those who
> have touched your life
> in one way or another, to those who make you smile
> when you really need it,
> to those that make you see the brighter side of
> things when you are really
> down, to those who you want to let them know that
> you appreciate their
> friendship. And if you don't, don't worry, nothing
> bad will happen to you,
> you will just miss out on the opportunity to
> brighten someone's day with
> this message.
Monday, July 22, 2002
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Saturday, July 20, 2002
tapioca finally called me up today. just worked for 4.5hrs...so tired fr standing...but it's still kinda fun. ppl there were nice and funny. (cuz i worked for day shift today instead of the evening shift). so tired...going to church tmr...carrie called to remind me that i should be more enthusiastic about reading the bible and learning His words. ok ok...i'll pick up lynn's book very soon.
Thursday, July 18, 2002
hmm~durian is yummy~i ate half of the durian..hehee...well, too bad, my bro didnt want it. now i wish i could go to thailand >.< mom said the durians there are so fresh and sweet (seeds are tiny too)...sigh. oh...^^|| see, as u can tell that i'm bored. totally forgot that mom's car will be tuned up on sat...so have to move all the plans to friday instead. everything should be fine..i mean, it should be better off than to cancel it. right?
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
it's not my first time being jealous. all the other times were just minor. this time was just another minor incidence but i couldnt help feeling bad. no sorry tho. it's ok. i mean, if i tell u that it's over, then it's over. i mean, if i say i'm done feeling bad, then i'm fine. but dont worry..i felt so much better after telling u. thats a good thing ^^
Monday, July 15, 2002
how does it feel to lose a friend? well, i havent been so heart-broken for a friend. actually, i didnt lose her. since i know she'll be in a better hand fr now on, it's actually a happy thing that she moves on. losing a friend is such a negative/pessimist way to describe "2ppl departing for the better". lynn is one of my few fds who share deep thoughts about life with me. the last time i was so heart-broken cuz of a friend happened toward the end of my sophmore year in HS. my best fd in HS who couldnt ignore socially constructed prejudice. anyway, everything is over now. whats been bothering me *sigh* i shall continue with my life without a great advisor and listener. but u know what? at least i have had it. ^.^
Sunday, July 14, 2002
didnt have the mood to go online or update my journal at all recently. had a nice and fun conversation with lori today for hrs. that was pretty funny and i laughed kinda hard. somehow i feel so much relieved. not becuz of the content of our conversation, but talking to her about random stuff loosens me up fr the tension i've been having. thx.
Saturday, July 13, 2002
Thursday, July 11, 2002
been way too hot in the bay area...sigh. there's nothing more i can do about it besides whining =P yay~almost done with this week.. sorta glad that having 5days of school didnt make me dislike school even more. thats a good thing. the weather is finally cooler today (THANK GOD)...
my gf was in a bad mood yesterday due to imbalanced hormone level =P anyways, i made her laugh so bad when she was doing facial mask. hehee.. too bad, i'm naughty =P
my gf was in a bad mood yesterday due to imbalanced hormone level =P anyways, i made her laugh so bad when she was doing facial mask. hehee.. too bad, i'm naughty =P
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
yay, found the computer lab in foothill. good thing: i get go online in the morning instead of waiting 2hrs for class to start. bad thing: no more naps for me in the morning! (altho i feel like a homeless sleeping on campus =P ) i want to sleep more!! argh, it's summer!! >_< fine fine fine~ just 3more weeks of getting up early in the morning! just 3more weeks.
lori, do sth productive at home la.. such as writing letters to me (i still havent received urs, hoping today ba), doing ur secret thing, cooking, cleaning the house, starting on ur program (!!!), and expecting for my call la. i wont be home till 4-5 today.
lori, do sth productive at home la.. such as writing letters to me (i still havent received urs, hoping today ba), doing ur secret thing, cooking, cleaning the house, starting on ur program (!!!), and expecting for my call la. i wont be home till 4-5 today.
i hate the weather..so hot...been sweating all day..goshes, it's such a yucky feeling. made so many drinks tonite at tap...nothing special, i was still quiet as usual. dont know why i wasnt in a good mood after work.. didnt feel like talking. anyway, gotta sleep and get ready to get up at 7am tmr!! sigh.
lynn, thx for ur email and sharing..^^ i was smiling while reading ur email too! i'll reply u soon.
lynn, thx for ur email and sharing..^^ i was smiling while reading ur email too! i'll reply u soon.
Tuesday, July 09, 2002
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was in a good mood all day till i got a call fr tapioca express. i didnt go to work cuz i didnt know i have to work today. anyways, perhaps it's not a reasonable excuse to one of the experienced coworkers there. sigh. i was pretty surprised how scared and worried i was after receiving the call. gosh,she's my nightmare!!! >_< anyhoo, fine, i'll face her and whatever unpleasant things about my job. well, it's life ma. my worry and fear didnt go away till tap reassured me my working schedule for tmr's nite. thank god or else i will have flashbacks when i go to bed. i studied for econ early today, hehe, i better do well on tmr's quiz!! must ace it to make up for today's. ^^||| then talked to so many diff ppl tonite..thank god i have unlimited mins at nites ^^|| anyway, i couldnt think of topics to discuss with lori most of the time. i guess things will be better and smoother if i get to see her ba. i'm glad that we'll have 9months together after 2more months of summer vacation. ^_^ hmm...thinking about working at in-n-out's after my summer school since i'll be doing nothing at home.
Monday, July 08, 2002
it's so hot today!! >_< argh, i hate summer school. anyway, i had a 3-hr gap today, sigh. didnt know where to go so i just drove around. finally gave up and parked my car under some shade. after starting on a letter to lori, i stopped and tried to sleep in the car. i was sweating when i woke up like an hr later. omg, i was so tired and hot >_< a car seat s an horrible place to rest. anyway, i'm glad i'm home! cali is way too warm. kinda annoying sometimes. (but i still love cali's weather most of the time)
Sunday, July 07, 2002
yay~ me just wrote a long passage in one of my to-be-continued-online fictions, gosh, the last time i updated that particular story was 14months ago ^^||| i remembered how i couldnt finish the following part so i started on another fiction..haha..yeah, u move onto other works when u get stuck! anyway, a sense of accomplishment is all over me now ^.^ too happy. altho i am expecting a call any time soon now. ok..enough internet for the day. miss writing story in chinese =D *sigh of joy*
finally attended sunday service and sunday school. had not been able to fight against my tiredness in the morning ^^|| but i had fun at sunday school cuz the lecture was actually provoking. i wish my fellowship in davis could experience such sunday school. i dont know.. maybe i'm just being too picky when i do little to improve =P well..anyway, i've decided to go to as much worship service as i can before i head back to davis. finally got a few icq msgs fr lynn ^_^ havent heard fr her for such a long time. pal, i miss u too ^.^
eddy pissed me off today when we randomly shopped for grocery. i spent at least 30mins cussing at him on his back. sigh, yes, i couldnt help it. i was so in rage. i even cried in the car. so ppl pass by were just staring at me in the store cuz my eyes were red,etc. we both scolded each other in the car yet no compromise was done. so yeah, we gave up. i ignored him on stuff that doesnt matter. i'm glad that i feel normal now.. totally forgave him. i guess reading lynn's msgs, i was too happy to stay angry at my own bro. anyhoo...i really hated him at the moment. but, haha, i was actually happy that he made me so angry so that i could finally cry... havent cried for a long time, kinda miss that way in expressing myself =P anyway, i'm fine, dont wanna repeat the story..so yeah. it'll just become one of those things that will remain in us for the rest of our lives. (dont worry tho since i realize i'm making it sound so bad ^^|| whoops)
eddy pissed me off today when we randomly shopped for grocery. i spent at least 30mins cussing at him on his back. sigh, yes, i couldnt help it. i was so in rage. i even cried in the car. so ppl pass by were just staring at me in the store cuz my eyes were red,etc. we both scolded each other in the car yet no compromise was done. so yeah, we gave up. i ignored him on stuff that doesnt matter. i'm glad that i feel normal now.. totally forgave him. i guess reading lynn's msgs, i was too happy to stay angry at my own bro. anyhoo...i really hated him at the moment. but, haha, i was actually happy that he made me so angry so that i could finally cry... havent cried for a long time, kinda miss that way in expressing myself =P anyway, i'm fine, dont wanna repeat the story..so yeah. it'll just become one of those things that will remain in us for the rest of our lives. (dont worry tho since i realize i'm making it sound so bad ^^|| whoops)
Saturday, July 06, 2002
havent really sat down and written any personal thoughts for almost a month now. hehee, well, since i'm busy with many diff things and people. i miss my 24/7 free internet in dorm. SIGH. anyways, thats why i dont use as much internet as b4. but it's okay, i'll move back to my new apartment in late september..hehee..and u'll get to read like 2entries a day. =P God has been providing me with lots of peace and comfortable environment. havent been so troublefree for a long time. i dont even worry a lot for my relationship. thats a good thing ^.^
yay~ i'm back at home eating as much ice cream as i want now~ *chuckles* can't wait to refridgerate more ice cream at my own apartment in davis..^_* been thinking about going to grad school after my BS...if i do, i'll be going into premed. there are a few little incidences that make me think twice about my abandoned will to go into medicine. anyway, i'll see ba, since a lot of things can happen in 3years.
yay~ i'm back at home eating as much ice cream as i want now~ *chuckles* can't wait to refridgerate more ice cream at my own apartment in davis..^_* been thinking about going to grad school after my BS...if i do, i'll be going into premed. there are a few little incidences that make me think twice about my abandoned will to go into medicine. anyway, i'll see ba, since a lot of things can happen in 3years.
Friday, July 05, 2002
just took the personality type test on aol cuz i was bored.
INTP
"The Conceiver"
"I" stands for Introversion.
An attitude in which interest, value and meaning are attached primarily to internal objects. External matters are habitually not valued or are difficult for the introvert. Introversion is the opposite of Extroversion.
"N" stands for Intuition.
One of Jung's four psychic functions (Thinking, Feeling, Sensation, and Intuition). In Jung's system, Intuition means that the internal and external world are perceived through the unconscious. Intuitive types focus on the future, with a view toward patterns & possibilities.
"T" stands for Thinking.
One of Jung's four psychic functions (Thinking, Feeling, Sensation, and Intuition). According to Jung, Thinking suggests logical and rational thought processes. It is the ability to make evaluations and judgments based on logical categories and ideas. The Thinking function is the opposite of the Feeling function, which is the ability to make evaluations and judgements based on values.
"P" stands for Perception.
The way in which raw data or information about the outer or inner world is made known to consciousness. Jung called it an "irrational" function in the sense that perception is unfiltered. People who have stronger Perception than Judgment are people for whom "the journey is more important than the destination." Perception is open-ended, a never-ending stream of insights, experiences, and possibilities. Perceptions come through the five senses (Sensation), and yet also through the unconscious itself (Intuition). Both are ways of taking in experiences about the outer and inner world.
INTP
"The Conceiver"
"I" stands for Introversion.
An attitude in which interest, value and meaning are attached primarily to internal objects. External matters are habitually not valued or are difficult for the introvert. Introversion is the opposite of Extroversion.
"N" stands for Intuition.
One of Jung's four psychic functions (Thinking, Feeling, Sensation, and Intuition). In Jung's system, Intuition means that the internal and external world are perceived through the unconscious. Intuitive types focus on the future, with a view toward patterns & possibilities.
"T" stands for Thinking.
One of Jung's four psychic functions (Thinking, Feeling, Sensation, and Intuition). According to Jung, Thinking suggests logical and rational thought processes. It is the ability to make evaluations and judgments based on logical categories and ideas. The Thinking function is the opposite of the Feeling function, which is the ability to make evaluations and judgements based on values.
"P" stands for Perception.
The way in which raw data or information about the outer or inner world is made known to consciousness. Jung called it an "irrational" function in the sense that perception is unfiltered. People who have stronger Perception than Judgment are people for whom "the journey is more important than the destination." Perception is open-ended, a never-ending stream of insights, experiences, and possibilities. Perceptions come through the five senses (Sensation), and yet also through the unconscious itself (Intuition). Both are ways of taking in experiences about the outer and inner world.
spent my july 4th with my gf and then dinner with a few other dormmates. pasta there is good. so were the mosquitoes. they are well fed. =P watched "the others" and "the haunting" at her place. not bad. but i'd prefer movies with a bit more life-provoking thoughts to it. after watching the others and the hunting, didnt make me think much about life. but those graphics fr the hunting were stuck in my head. got home a bit after 1am.. havent been home later than 12 for a long time. anyway..thank god my family trusted me.
was very touched that she cried. well, not that i enjoy making her cry..^^|| but yeah. u know, when i saw her tears, it just felt like i was one of those monsters whose heart and mind are melted by the tears of an angel. not that i never make ppl cry so that i was in shock. but.. the fact that i saw the purity and the love in her tears. esp how much unneccessary pain i caused to her due to my little stupidity. as i said, ppl in love are weak...there's no winners in the game of love. (ofcourse, it's not a game, but it's just a saying) even tho i always say that i'm superior or special or perfect, i have to admit that...i am a person with many weaknesses. lori, sorry for being so unstable and doubtful...those who are boastful becuz they lack self-esteem. i am one of them. sometimes, i'm amazed how u can appreciate everything in me. altho it's ideal for couples to appreciate each other in order to maintain a healthy and sincere relationship, it's still very difficult to see such phenomenon to happen. isnt it sad to know that there are less true love cases existing? or am i just being too sheltered or pessimistic? ^^|| oh well. i'm happy about my summer so far.
was very touched that she cried. well, not that i enjoy making her cry..^^|| but yeah. u know, when i saw her tears, it just felt like i was one of those monsters whose heart and mind are melted by the tears of an angel. not that i never make ppl cry so that i was in shock. but.. the fact that i saw the purity and the love in her tears. esp how much unneccessary pain i caused to her due to my little stupidity. as i said, ppl in love are weak...there's no winners in the game of love. (ofcourse, it's not a game, but it's just a saying) even tho i always say that i'm superior or special or perfect, i have to admit that...i am a person with many weaknesses. lori, sorry for being so unstable and doubtful...those who are boastful becuz they lack self-esteem. i am one of them. sometimes, i'm amazed how u can appreciate everything in me. altho it's ideal for couples to appreciate each other in order to maintain a healthy and sincere relationship, it's still very difficult to see such phenomenon to happen. isnt it sad to know that there are less true love cases existing? or am i just being too sheltered or pessimistic? ^^|| oh well. i'm happy about my summer so far.
Wednesday, July 03, 2002
yes! finally i'm done for the week..that means no more waking up at 7am every morning to go to class. >_< argh. it's funny cuz it's only been 3days and i already dislike how my days go. sigh. just got my cell phone bill for the previous month..hehe, opps, kinda used more mins than what my plan included. oh well. i just peeked at my bro's old cell phone bills, he said he over-used his mins too. and i was totally shocked when i saw the amount due. so yeah, mine is NOTHING compared to his. anyhoo, talked for nearly 1600mins at nite in the past month. oh well.. i better keep an eye on my mins this month.
econ is easy so far..doing pretty well in class..maybe i should've taken more classes over the summer. u know...since foothill does seem to be easier and i feel less stressed out. hmm..nothing much for today.. still having a headache.. got a dayful of plans for tmr..^^ hope my headache will go away.
been reading chinese fictions in the car when i go pick up my mom fr class. reading "butterfly's extended stay" by "cheung siu han". it's pretty good cuz it's complicated. u know, after reading so many sad stories/struggles that the characters faced, i suddenly re-realized how much i'm loved in real life. like, i suddenly was reminded to cherish everything and everyone around me as much as possible. anyhoo, it's always good to have the feeling to ponder about life and myself after reading a good book. even if it's only a fiction about love. somehow, after writing a long letter to my gf yesterday, i suddenly stopped missing her as much. i was really scared that it's a sign or sth. ^^||| i was so scared and couldnt think of things to say on the phone. lori sensed it. i denied it cuz i wasn't even sure myself. how am i supposed to tell her stuff that will only make her worry and panick? i mean, since she cares a whole lot more than i do, i dont want her to feel hurt by my sudden doubt. not that i dont want to share all of my pain and happiness with her..but..i know, it's a personal issue that i have to deal with. anyway, i'm glad that we're meeting up tmr. perhaps, i can't handle any more long distance relationship. i need physical presence to ensure it. realizing that i am also a person who lacks security. when u said u were feeling very very ill today, i was really worried. esp how u were about to suffer a hr and more drive home on top of ur headache and unpleasant feelngs. anyway, hope my headache isnt contagious cuz i felt pretty sick all day too. sorry that i didndt tell u that nite on the phone...there are things that i need to tell u in person or at a diff time than on the phone. u know how things will become worse (even if they aren't meant to be) if i tell u these on the phone. and yes, i know how much u care, love, and would like to share my doubts. but.. i wasnt even sure if it really bothers me or i'm just being too sensitive about things. do u remember once i said, it's super important for a person to understand what she really wants before she goes into a relationship? understanding urself is an even harder task than loving one another.
econ is easy so far..doing pretty well in class..maybe i should've taken more classes over the summer. u know...since foothill does seem to be easier and i feel less stressed out. hmm..nothing much for today.. still having a headache.. got a dayful of plans for tmr..^^ hope my headache will go away.
been reading chinese fictions in the car when i go pick up my mom fr class. reading "butterfly's extended stay" by "cheung siu han". it's pretty good cuz it's complicated. u know, after reading so many sad stories/struggles that the characters faced, i suddenly re-realized how much i'm loved in real life. like, i suddenly was reminded to cherish everything and everyone around me as much as possible. anyhoo, it's always good to have the feeling to ponder about life and myself after reading a good book. even if it's only a fiction about love. somehow, after writing a long letter to my gf yesterday, i suddenly stopped missing her as much. i was really scared that it's a sign or sth. ^^||| i was so scared and couldnt think of things to say on the phone. lori sensed it. i denied it cuz i wasn't even sure myself. how am i supposed to tell her stuff that will only make her worry and panick? i mean, since she cares a whole lot more than i do, i dont want her to feel hurt by my sudden doubt. not that i dont want to share all of my pain and happiness with her..but..i know, it's a personal issue that i have to deal with. anyway, i'm glad that we're meeting up tmr. perhaps, i can't handle any more long distance relationship. i need physical presence to ensure it. realizing that i am also a person who lacks security. when u said u were feeling very very ill today, i was really worried. esp how u were about to suffer a hr and more drive home on top of ur headache and unpleasant feelngs. anyway, hope my headache isnt contagious cuz i felt pretty sick all day too. sorry that i didndt tell u that nite on the phone...there are things that i need to tell u in person or at a diff time than on the phone. u know how things will become worse (even if they aren't meant to be) if i tell u these on the phone. and yes, i know how much u care, love, and would like to share my doubts. but.. i wasnt even sure if it really bothers me or i'm just being too sensitive about things. do u remember once i said, it's super important for a person to understand what she really wants before she goes into a relationship? understanding urself is an even harder task than loving one another.
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
was 15mins late to work..oh well, ppl there were nice to me this time. it's like i was so touched cuz i felt like i was loved and understood by them. anyway, had fun working yesterday. like, i was truly happy even though there were hella customers and orders. talked so much on the phone after i got off work cuz i was too happy. couldnt sleep till like 2-3am..i guess i was too excited about my job ^^||| yeah, was so dead tired today in class. slept in the car for an hr and in class, ofcourse =P felt that life is finally going my way.. have a job, have a steady relationship, family members are doing ok, God loves me ^_^ what's more perfect than this?
about the detective's book i checked out fr the public library.. hehe, i went to ask how much i'd have to pay if i lost it? and the lady was cool about it and told me the price. and i decided to pay for it rite away.. around a total of $15...well, i have no regret tho..cuz i've always wanted to buy books of Maurice Deblanc in chinese. ^__^ anyhoo, i'm happy!! hee..
about the detective's book i checked out fr the public library.. hehe, i went to ask how much i'd have to pay if i lost it? and the lady was cool about it and told me the price. and i decided to pay for it rite away.. around a total of $15...well, i have no regret tho..cuz i've always wanted to buy books of Maurice Deblanc in chinese. ^__^ anyhoo, i'm happy!! hee..
Monday, July 01, 2002
so, my first day of summer school began at 7:30...>_< actually, my class doesnt start till 10:30am. since i'm dropping my mom off to her class.. sigh, yeah, i had like 2hr gap b4 mine. went to get the books i needed for class. then just found a place to sit down and started reading my chinese fiction. first time in my life that i found "ai hong's" fiction boring and predictable. finally it's time for class. there are lots of asians in my class. all kinds of ppl~ bay area is great ^^ unlike davis. too peaceful and lack of competition. thats why i always find folks in the bay area more aggressive than others. anyways, made a few friends today in class. sorry honey, i know u may get jealous o rmad. but.. yeah, fr an eye of a fd, my new fd is cute. like, very hk-ish, yet she's friendly. anyways, enough of my adventure in foothill. there are tons of HS kids around!!! argh, i hate them! cuz they all look like middle school kids!! anyhoo, i have a feeling that i will go to that lounge place (w/little, uncomfortable sofa all over the place) everyday fr now on. ohh, they've got some massaging chairs for ppl too.. and it's free. yeah, foothill reminds me of davis...so hot and quiet. there's nothing else for u to do beside studying or being educated. boring? sigh. yes. in a way.
ya.me working again tonite >_< working at taps been giving me unpleasant flashbacks... sigh. ok, it's ok, i need to keep telling myself that i'm still as good no matter how slow i make drinks. >_< ok, i guess i should stop complaining about working...hmm..i hate it cuz it gives me a sense of failure ba?! ^.^ oh well. ok, i'm gonna go read for my class now..
ya.me working again tonite >_< working at taps been giving me unpleasant flashbacks... sigh. ok, it's ok, i need to keep telling myself that i'm still as good no matter how slow i make drinks. >_< ok, i guess i should stop complaining about working...hmm..i hate it cuz it gives me a sense of failure ba?! ^.^ oh well. ok, i'm gonna go read for my class now..
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