yay~ i'm actually proud of myself for sleeping for only 9hrs today.yes! well, 9hrs seem a lot but.. my body has gotten used to sleeping 9+ hrs everyday. >_< so yeah, it's about time for me to sleep less fr now on; sigh, back to sleeping for 7hrs again. school=shivers. u know, i havent had a milk tea for 5days and i already crave for it ^^||| it's all carrie's fault for mentioning the snacks at tap! =P anyway, working tmr and sunday. then wed. oh, and, i wont have the car fr now on cuz mom needs it mon-fri. sigh.

whoops. just realized that my pass2 is on tues instead of thurs.

hmmm, i think i better go visit feuy and her 1month-old baby. ok, time to reply some emails that i've ignore for weeks. hmm, getting bored here. time for another movie. sudden crave for viet springrolls and pho. i want tung kee's.

stood by a counter in greatmall for 2-3hrs today. so boring~ anyway, i missed work again!!!! argh. thank god my co-worker didnt mind ^^||| hmm, or does she? =P too lazy to go online at all lately. sorry for not replying. i'd rather talk to u on the phone. my future roommate asked me if establishing local phone service is really necessary if we all have a cell phone? BLAH!!!!! who'd be using the phone most of the time? duh! %!#$#!@ god, i really can't wait to living with them.

watched 4hrs of burning flame II and "100% feel I". yay~ i didnt do anything at all beside watching movies.

stayed till 3 last nite to finish up a fiction. it was good. i almost cried for the characters again ^^||| anyway, glad that i finally finished it. oh yea, today's mom's bday according the lunar calendar. i slipped a red envelop next to her bed ^^ i gave her most of what i earned so far during summer. she thought it was my bro, hehee, i didnt confess until she complained about how the bills seemed old. hehee.

went out and had dinner with kitty, lori, kelly, sam and the philipino group fr M. we were all starving. but i was hella full after dinner.anyhoo, san jose has no life at nite. well, i guess that kinda applies to many parts of the states. not interested in clubbing, singing karaoke, getting a drink,etc. since i'm sure i'll get a lot of chances to sing karaoke once school starts. i miss ro..altho she wont miss singing for a while now..hehe..

anyway, it's good to see kitty, lori and kelly again. saw so many ppl fr M. thats very very strange. and, uh, i hope the ride fr davis to SJ didnt kill u guys la... hmm, hehee, hello, ms. shoulder.

i was being such a jerk for the past few days. i'm sorry. but thats me.

moving back to davis on 9/12; have like 2-3weeks to re-pack (!!!)
((((((((((AIYA))))))))))) back to school again *sniffs* altho taking 2bio classes shall not kill me as much as what chem did. it should be kinda fun. except that i couldnt get away fr the scene of me sitting for 2-3hrs in chem lecture hall. what should i take for my 4th class ne? soc 4? (ever since taking summer school at foothill, i dont want to take any more of GE in UCD) anyway, soc 4 is a good alternative. altho i'm kinda worried that i may have to take care of all the reading assignments for the class even when i have several of my fds taking it with me. hmmmm~

plan to join joey's bible study group this thurs nite. thats why i switched shift with my co-worker.

couldnt get up for church yesterday (i'm sorry) so i promised to read Book of Genesis again. i was being sly cuz it's short. anyhoo, i should start reading Matthew. sigh, so many enriching tasks i planned to accomplish over the summer, but i had done very little of them. even my story writing. i have a feeling that i'd have to set it aside for another yr till my next summer. sorry woh, SnOwY, hehee, keep yelling at me in my guestbook to "motivate" me la~

oh yeah, Signs was okay. i wasnt very much into the movie. altho the Ring seems to be better and more interesting, i'm in no mood for scary movies yet. wait till halloween ^.^

finally met up with her after 2weeks of "separation" =P anyways, was really tired yesterday. like i was being super lazy lately; sorry that i was way too quiet. had fun shopping; anyways, talked till 2-3am and i slept at 4am. woke up at 11 and went straight to work. there was this old lady who bought milk tea and asked if i were a guy or a girl. my co-worker laughed cuz she just told me that she mistakened me as a boy a few times. i just smiled. i was so bored at work. it seemed longer than 5.5hrs. ok, i gotta go eat now...so hungry.

was being moody last nite. somehow i was mad about sth. thank god that feeling is gone. read "hugging a TB on a bed" last nite till 2. i almost cried again; well, i was so into the story cuz it's a story about my world. even if it's a fiction. it's funny how the TB seems, dresses and appears nearly perfect in the fiction. i'm interested in her ^_* she must be hot.

u know, what's been bothering me is my self-centered attitude towards love (part of my attitude la). u can say that people are still very "chin", if they get a lot of one thing, they'd become wasteful of it. i know i receive lots of love fr you and i started to take it for granted. even tho i knew i'm supposed to be appreciative of it. u know, sometimes, i feel that i wasnt treating u nicely on the phone,etc. becuz of my stupid attitude. (well, now, dont worry yet; it's no big deal, i'm just here to share my thoughts with u) after thinking and reading that chinese fiction, i think i should start loving u with all my heart; cuz it's the only way i can truly express my feelings without any holding back of my love. perhaps it's the not being able to see each other. haha, sorry if this sorta scares u again. yeah, see how many times i've doubts about me or us that make u worried and scared? sigh. i'm such a kid.

watched bishonen by daniel wu and fung tak lun. it's a story about a few hot gay men and who daniel really loved among all his romances. daniel's got 6pack!! yes yes, i check out guys too.

sorta got in a fight with mom and bro just now. about relationship. i always envy how my mom takes my bro's relationship so "understandably" which is so not her. she finally told me that it's my oldest bro who told her to change her perspective. i was arguing with her wanting to make sure she'll do the same if that happens to me. my bro joined our conversation, hehee, since we were talking about him, the conversation ended real soon. anyhoo, i'm gonna have to get back to my mom on "nowadays people can love anyone freely". altho i still dont feel like coming out to her. oh yeah, she thought that i was trying to hint to her that i'm as wild as nowadays' radical teenagers. she thought that i'm willing to have physical relationship with the one i love (assuming a guy) and that wont matter to me. so she was really upset for a moment. hehee........sigh. yeah, why did i even giggle before i sigh? mom still doesnt get it and i thought she almost got it at a point, how will there be a guy who's gonna be interested in a tomboyish girl like me? c'mon. mom, common sense. u know, after moving back fr dorm, my family became a bit distant to me. perhaps due to the fact that i missed a year full of family activities and updates on every family member. it feels diff to be home. ofcourse i still hate the way i live during school year. it sucks. and whenever i get to be home, i always have to rush doing things over the weekend. life could be so much easier if i picked SJSU. but i wouldnt get all the freedom i get now. i mean, there's no way that my family wont find out about my relationship if i go home everyday. do i sound like i'm depressed? well, i'm too lazy to put up an expression on my face now; i always do this. ok, i think i'll go watch some movies.

finally watched "time and tide" by nicholas tse and wu bai(fr taiwan). it's a pretty good movie. actions, love, and nic. nic looks so fine in it.. hahaha =P

and saw "The Wesley's mysterious file" by andy lau. it gets boring since the story is kinda extraordinary. but i'm surprised how "wong jim" could present wesley's scientific idea well in a visual way. very very diff fr ordinary movies cuz u have to think of the characters as fictional characters. kwan chi lam still looks cute in it. so is Su Chi.

was exhausted fr 8hrs of work last nite. i was never tired at work except last nite. one of my co-workers reminded me that the milktea,etc are fattening.. hrm...now i really have to give a second thought to drinking it during work. but but but, milk tea tastes so good tho~ Kiwi icy is good too *chuckles* so is Kiwi flavored green tea.

a distant fd finally ended her relationship that i didnt have much hope for. anyway, sick of her case since it's been my topic for a long while =P

i want to go to vancouver or hk now.. i want to buy CD and VCD again!!! sigh. downloading mp3s is the most important motivation/reason for me to get DSL for my apartment ne!! anyway, i think i should stop mentioning about my illegal habit =P

why doesnt ken chu get as much attention as the other members in F4?!!!!! i really feel like telling ken ken that he is loved by his fans. (he is still kitty's man la~ i just want to show some support ji ma~)

been having trouble falling asleep lately..thats why i'd rather talk on the phone till 2-3am and sleep by 4. mom always yells at me for getting up between 1-2pm everyday; what she doesnt know is when i usually fall asleep the nite b4 ^.^ i wonder how lynn is now...i just wanna say that i miss her and want to wish her all the best and i'll assume that she is happy with her life and ppl around her ^_^

saw so many TBs while i worked lately; we dont even exchange looks, haha..yeah, i guess we may feel competition having each other's presence. anyway, i can already say that i'll miss some ppl fr tapioca express; hrm...i wish that i should've applied there earlier in my life. working till closing tmr.

i finally saw the silence of the lamb and the hannibal. it's good!!! honestly, i grew to love hannibal (to the point where i was willing to be his victim). anyways, glad that hannibal is only a fictional character (so pls dont kill me). then i've been enjoying my summer (staying home, working, playing with my hamsters, talking on the phone late at nite). u know, i started to like my work place... i only have like a month left too. sigh.

went out with lina yesterday for starbucks. she still fell for my insulting..hehee..thats one thing that will never change about her ^_* oh yeah, i better go visit feuy and her newborn...it's been a long while from when i promised to meet her on ^^||| okay, gotta call up PG&E for electricity for my apartment too. sigh. why dont my new roommates ever do this kinda thing??? u know, i really want to see how they will have to take care of themselves next next yr when i become someone else's roommate.

k, worked 3days in a row. got to know my co-workers pretty well in these nites ^.^ thats a very cool thing since i finally felt like i'm their friend. anyhoo, had a long long chat with her last nite till 3. i felt really bad for what happened. i finally realized what she's really going through for me. i'm sorry. is it really worth all her effort? i guess it's not for anyone's judgement now. it's a matter of significance/priorities. knowing more about what u are really going through only makes me cherish you and what u do for me even more; not giving u up after all our effort.

ok, got many bruises on my leg and even my head ^^|| i'm sure the sore-ness will arrive tmr.. it's not here yet..but it will! >_< oh well. got home at like 1something. terren, kitty and lori got to see my hamster and my room ^.^ my place is a mess..but oh well. my living room is so hk-ish, isnt it? u know how many typical homes in hk are all stuffed? =P

been trying to download songs!!!!! argh. i wanna go back to davis now. i want my DSL~ >_< stupid boxup!

so there goes my 5-day vacation in davis. time to go home and return to family life. working tmr and saturday. gonna go help unloading cargos for kitty babe again...get to see terren too ^^ havent seen that chick for a long time. hehee, wait for my whining tmr about how sore i'll get =D take care la, my fds at home and in davis.

oh yeah, finally got to meet up with yoyo too ^^ and jacked sammi's CD fr her..hehee~ anyways, it was so nice of u la.. have a safe ride home. perhaps i'll hop onto ur car for a ride to davis again.

hehe, i'm in davis already. life here is so relaxing. i miss how i can kick back and be worryfree at all. too scared to go back to school >_< taking 4classes at once seems hard again. anyway, she made soup for me tonite. it was good after i added a bit of salt. she felt really bad about making it so flavorless tho.. i really wanted to tell her: "u know how u always say u appreciate every little thing i do? it's vice versa too." knowing that the soup is made espeically for me is already a really really high honor. maybe the soup doesnt taste as good as how it's supposed to be. it's ok. it's pretty good ah~there's plenty of chances for u to show me the best soup u can make. ^_^

woke up late for church today but made it there on time. have a hard time walking, bending, laughing, holding stuff, sitting down, (u name it)... my body is way sorer than yesterday >_< argh. i walk kinda funny today too ^^|| oh well. going back to davis in 1-2hrs...getting a ride fr yoyo tonite. i took a 2-hr nap since i'll have to stay up to watch ghost movie with fds tonite. dont think i'll sleep till 4am. sigh.

so many ppl going back to hk~ kinda jealous =P

went to chinatown with lori and visited kitty on our way to dinner. however, we decided to stay and help unload all the cargos for kitty. that took us 4hrs ^^|||| hehee, everyone is sore today. u can still hear me groan whenever i kneel down =P anyway, that was a different experience. sorta feel very sorry for those who must make a living with their physical strength. glad that my parents dont have a store too. got home at 1am. got so many bruises ^^|||| anyway, was very worried for her since she's the only one facing all those problems. i'm sorry. maybe it'd have been better if nothing happens; altho u will think that u are glad things happen and wont regret it. thx. it's very amazing to see how determined u are.

stupid me didnt read our working schedule carefully and caused a co-worker of mine took over my shift for me after hers. i'm so sorry~ >_< i felt so bad after they called.thank god i'm still new and the co-worker seemed to like me a lot. gonna go stay in davis for 4-5days. working on fri and sat. i miss tapioca express' crispy chicken/squit!!!!! they are so yummy~ and i get to eat them for free when i'm at work~ =P (i usually eat only a few pieces la, not so greedy ma)

hehe, joanna called and whined (actually scold) me for ditching her for dinner on friday~ WHOOPS. sorry law~ i sorta promised her to have lunch with her next week..hmm, consider that she doesnt know i'll be in davis for most of the week. i should meet up with her on friday for lunch. or else i'll die very "painfully". hehee

right when i arrived to class today i suddenly became so weak and was in pain due to my period. sorta suffered for an hour b4 i got to go home >_< i was surprised that i could stand it. anyway, it felt so bad. the feeling that i'd fade in any second was with me for a while...i finally prayed and it sorta helped. thank you. took a nap and i'm back to normal again ^^ yea, working tonite tho. and final tmr morning ^^||| nice timing =P