going home tmr! going home tmr!! ^________^ stayed up till 5am this morning to finish up a term paper for soc4. i actually liked my paper this time; kinda looking forward to a B- *keeps my fingers crossed* anyhoo, missed home while i was on a break last night. just wished to be in my mom's arms cuz i was so stuck on the paper.

oh yea, went to sing karaoke on friday with lori and terren for a total of 4hrs. my first time driving from davis to el cerrito. took 2 photo cards. hehe, the one w/terren is so cute. (and no need to make a comment on the other one la; it remains in the heart, ok)

losing duckie is like losing a child whom i've known for all of her life. i didnt cry as hard when my hamster/rabbit/chicken died. why? cuz they died due to old age or just illness. duckie must had gone through lots of pain before she died *sniff* and she's finally friendlier with us and sorta regconized our calling of her name. yeah, keeping farm animals is annoying, dirty and unusual. but i really learn a lot fr observing their everyday life and behaviors. thats sth i'll never learn fr school, friends, or internet. would i consider keeping hen or ducks or rabbits again? most likely not. i'd get killed if i insist to keep any of those again. bunnies are too still. i need a cuddly pet. (no, not a teddy) perhaps a puppy or chincilla. after playing with guinea pig, i realize how litter interaction or limited stroking i could have done on my hamsters. cuz they dont like being stroked too often or for too long!! SIGH~ bad hamster! bad!

mom called today to inform the death of my 5-6yr old duckie who died after being attacked and brutally eaten by some wild cats last nite.
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i instantly cried and continued crying for the next 30mins. i dont know. the thought of picturing my duckie's body just frightened and saddened me. cuz i know how fat he was and how mom's descriptions of his body fit into my imagination. it's funny tho. cuz i cried like someone i know died. that kinda scared wendy. my eyes are swollen now.. and tired too. anyhoo, i feel better now.

the quarter is coming to an end very soon. realized it when i realized that i only have one more BIS1b lab left. awwww!! i really enjoyed BIS1b labs cuz they were fun. as in, really really interesting. anyway, did better on the midterms this time. will i pass BIS1a?? hmmm...*very doubtful*
i want to go home~ >_< i want to play with my hamster! (actually, denise's guinea pig is cute too. that should do it) been having sloooow connection lately;%!$!#%! pacbell! argh. hello~ i gotta download mp3s!! fell asleep in BIS1b today; noticed that there were more people who fell asleep like i did today. so i guess Keen's lecture wasn't as exciting as usual.
oooh, keep forgetting to apply to UNITRANS!! aiya.

had a unpleasant talk with lori about next yr's housing. i guess i've been happy lately (1-2months) that i seldom express my unhappiness. while reading the long-ass word problem on a practice midterm tonite, i suddenly wished that i were in my mom's arms complaining about school and all the restless nights. i cried. even when i was in lori's arms tonite, i cried. tears just keep on falling out whenever i thought of my mom. there's only 15mins left fr viewing leonid meteor shower. sigh~ midterm tmr at 9am. anyway, i still want to cry some more. i need my pillow.

thx for ur dinner woh~ soh gwa

finally listened to the other songs in yong bang's album. found a few other nice songs. the lyric of track3 touches me the most cuz it talks about loneliness. download the song here

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(translation: in the case of a couple, any fight, jealousy, doubt/suspicion, or childlish act is udnerstandable)

lori, remember la

been listening to this song at least once a day cuz it's so good; must share with ya. yong bang- track01-tears of weslleys

watched "dark water" (a jap scary movie). not bad; i actually got scared during a few suspicous scenes. anyhoo, liked the theme song by suga shikao tho. suga shikao
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spent 2hrs watching "jan dara" with lenlenium and lori. it's pretty good; quite interesting if u give more time to it. anyway, ditching fellowship over a rated-R movie is kinda, hmm, yeah. ok, so whats new for today? oh yea, xtina dropped by today; finally met her mom in person. have 2midterms next week and another paper due in 2weeks.

i need to seriously study!!! ugh.

dude, forgot what i wanted to write earlier. aw, crap. should've written when i remembered. anyway, been busy downloading movies thru kazaa lately. still need to clear some of my mp3s out of the hard drive soon. just realized how messed up my schedule for next quarter is, sigh sigh sigh. okay, i need to sleep now... having class at 10 doesnt mean that i can go through the day without sleep!! (trying very hard to remind myself of that)

keeping a guinea pig is just as troublesome as taking care of a rabbit. ofcourse, i'd rather keep a rabbit as pet than guinea pig. most rabbits are quiet and still. they let u pat without biting u! (altho i haven't been biten by denise's guinea pig yet) her guinea pig just reminds me of my rabbit >_< sigh, i guess i wont be able to keep a rabbit as pet until i get out of college. anyway, got cute pics of my hamster over the weekend~ have u guys seen them?? well, go check it out!

oh, does ur partner have a particular way in calling u? u know, such as, "honey, come and take a look at this!" or "baby, lets watch a movie",etc. well, i just realized how mine started calling me "hon hon" soon after we got together and now it became "my name". the next thing u know, she'll be calling me hon hon in front of her parents. hehee.

oh yeah, been having this strong preference for dark colored clothes lately. why? cuz it makes u look mature and serious (business-like). anyhoo, winter is perfect for dark colored clothes ^_*

just had quite a long chat with my HS lowerclassman, lina. i miss her too..haha~ wanted to call her up over the weekend (seriously), but i was "lack of motivation" to put my thoughts into actions. sorry~ anyhoo, she isn't as gullible as before. that's something new. hehee~ (thinking if it's a compliment or further insult? hehehe) well, as i said, be good, stay non-green and eat more. and thx for ur last comment on my "mushi-ness" towards my gf =P well, at least i wouldn't confess to a friend how much i miss her after she puts on her away msg~~~~ hehehe, anyway.

i enjoyed my long weekend. had fun playing with my hamster and just sticking around my mom for 2days. went shopping too ^_^ havent been able to afford to shop around previously, so yeah. it's refreshing to me. saw "saving private ryan" on TV over the weekend, pretty good; at least it's not as tragic as black hawk down. oh, finally saw the simpsons on sunday. oh, and i've been missing 3simpsons' episodes daily just becuz i dont live around bay area. they show the simpsons 3times a day on UPN44!!!!!!! >___< someone pls fix my stupid cable plug so i can watch basic TV here at davis!!! argh.

oh yeah, gotta stop yapping here. someone waiting for me.

been quite busy downloading mp3s...connection's been kinda slow yesterday but it sped up to 9k-10k!! hehhe. so happy. anyway, got no more albums that i'm sorta interested in to dl (i got most of them already). got quite good songs lately; kinda glad about that. havent heard such quality for a long time~ hehe. been forgetting what i intended to write earlier and now i have to BS about my life. sigh. oh yeah, something exciting to know: I AM FINALLY GOING HOME~ ^____^ u understand how glad and grateful i am about going home?

just read an old fd's journal, quite interesting. that leads me to thinking about why isnt mine as fascinating? mine has become boring~ >_< anyway. whats new? nada. oh yea, found a few really really cute hamster pics. they are so adorable!! everyone went "awww" as i showed them the pics except wendy who screamed. o_o looking at those pics just melts me away~ i'm serious. i gotta stop looking at them ^^||
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watched 3movies over the weekend. Mighty Baby, Lan Yu and My left eye sees ghost. Lan Yu and "my left eye sees ghost" are the better ones. Lan Yu is a recent gay film based upon an online fiction. pretty good. i'd recommend them ^_* oh yeah, hey, 20, should check out Lai Yu. it's as interesting as Bishonen. need a copy?

yes~ finally am done with my second set of midterms ^_^ got average on my first set, but oh well. Lori: study hard la.
it's such a relief to know that i have no midterms in 2weeks (cuz i'll have 3-4 within a week!!) >_< okay, so i gotta study really hard b4 it's too late like how it was last week. SIGH. i suddenly felt so bad for screwing my time and school. i really think i should cut back half of the time i spend on socializing. perhaps eating dinner at home will help. spending too much time on everything else except reviewing lecture notes and text. ARGH~ i really want at least a B for BIS1b (since there's little hope in obtaining that fr BIS1a). i shall stop relying on the sure A+ i'd get for CHN-BL01 to even out my GPA. aiya, college. a sudden thought went thru my mind today during class: could i really finish college? then why am i struggling with lower-division classes????????