just deleted about 50 icq contacts on my list o_o feeling quite blinded now... there were too many random contacts on my list that i could no longer put new contacts into my general group...so yeah, many of them stopped using their icq accounts anyway. ok...hmm, so i havent done any reading so far. productive huh? i miss DoDo... there's no one i can bug whenever i'm bored at home =\ even all the hamsters aren't with me..sigh.

how to pray? teach me

i'm home! ^_^ came home for good, ofcourse. left all of my pets by themselves =\ aww, my hamsters and DoDo... and i forgot to feed him with carrots and hay before i left! hrm.. opps. well, i hope it'll make him cherish my presence more from now on..hahaa ^_*

finally chatted with Lynn after a good long week. it's good to see her again. glad that you're more confident about urself now. take care and we shall talk again.

hello, all! i'm back with new internet access ^__^ *chuckles* so i'm in my new apartment in davis. it's good to finally share kitchen and bathroom with another person. sharing with 3other is horrible. not horrible, but i think i've lost the patience to deal with problems within the house over time. i'm glad that there's room for my DoDo and 3hamsters now ^^ seeing DoDo everyday is like dream come true cuz i've always wish to have my own pet in my own house. been spending time watching movies at home and making dinners with Lori these days. and organized our place a little more. tomorrow is first day of school. class at 2pm, baby~ dont expect much this quarter, just hope that i'll enjoy my new place and have as little conflicts as possible with Lori.

basically, i'm doing good. weather is hot as usual here. but now the AC is working at the new place ^_^ we leave it on all day (at an energy-saving temperature, ofcourse)

hmm..had a busy yet meaningful weekend. many thoughts pop up in my head these days. wanted to write them down but ofcourse i had forgotten them all again =\ sorry, i wish i could share with you my greatest thoughts (heehhee)
there's been this special joy in me lately ever since i decided to do something with my church life. someone had told me before: it all depends all how great you want to make it to be! i think thats the spirit and dedication i lacked all these years. i had been waiting for others to approach me in church which led to little feedback and friendship and i started to hate the feeling of being left out. i finally figured it out (took years =p ) that i should go get what i want or simply make it as great as i want! the passion of life is finally pouring into me. i feel the passion. i really do. i had been this happy before when i thought i could give all to Him and when i know i'm blessed in every way. the one sentence i really wanted to write down a few days ago was: i'm happy to know God, or else, i would never realize how much i'm loved and being provided. i'm rich in Him.
i really do wish the people i love to understand how revived i feel now. i'm actually eager to love everyone around me. loving one another is great.

so i'm leaving home for college tomorrow. i heard it's super hot there =((((( (yes, real unhappy) i think it's near 35 degrees celcius or it'll feel like it. hmm, bringing 3hamsters and 1guinea pig with us. not too much stuff for me; oh, we got a new VCR. i would've gotten ourselves a new TV with DVD/VCR if i could carry it (i tried but did not succeed ofcourse). yeah, need to work out a little more from now on. wont be able to update journal until weekend or unless i use the computers on campus. in the meantime, enjoy your life while i enjoy mine.

cool stuff on haight st of SF. -www.sfgate.com

Clothing

Aaardvark's Odd Ark: Sure, these folks can't spell "aardvark," but who cares? You know you need to buff out your Hawaiian-shirt collection -- or what about a funky old tuxedo jacket? Hats, ties and dresses are also here, and nothing's just any old piece of clothing. 1501 Haight St., (415) 621-3141.

Ambiance: The staff at "your famously romantic Haight Street store" wants you to know: They "really like you." Indeed, they're helpful and friendly, and not annoyingly so. The women's clothes are fabulously classy, perfect for any party or date or even a job interview. 1458 Haight St., (415) 552-5095.

Behind the Post Office: No, there is no post office in sight of this women's clothes boutique. But owner Stephen Pringle did name the shop after a San Diego store run by his brother that was located behind a post office. Employees at this shop say that the fit of an article of clothing is of paramount importance, as it should be for the price range: jeans and pants for $100 to $150 and tops for $50 on up to $200. The standards of this sporty, fashion-forward line of clothes are high, though, with designers like Buka and Development on the racks. 1510 Haight St., (415) 861-2507.

Buffalo Exchange: A used-clothing buy-sell bonanza, with racks and racks of hip jeans, sweaters, jackets, dresses, T-shirts, shoes and much, much more! There are a few new items sprinkled throughout the store, but they're usually pretty cheap, too. 1555 Haight St., (415) 431-7733. (Readers' Choice Pick 1998/Web site)

Bulletproof: Browsing through Bulletproof is like shopping in your best friend's closet. The shop carries men's and women's vintage clothes, hand-knit hats, its own label of T-shirts, accessories by independent local artists and a few pieces of new clothes. The welcoming spot is set up like a living room, with a couch and a coffee table in the middle, and the atmosphere is super friendly. 629 Haight St., (415) 255-7168.

Clobba: Geared toward men and women ages 15 to 32, Clobba carries trendy and upbeat designs mainly from Los Angeles and New York. Aside from the clothing lines, the front of the shop features accessories such as jewelry and belt buckles. 1604 Haight St., (415) 864-4701.

Costumes on Haight: A mecca for Halloween and Mardi Gras revelers, Costumes on Haight is the place to find those Viking hats, boas, king's crowns, colorful wigs, pimp jackets, pirate shirts, Victorian boots, poodle skirts or whatever else you can dream up. The main floor is stocked with vintage clothes as well. Costumes are also for rent. 735 Haight St., (415) 621-1356. (Web site)

Crossroads Trading Co.: Though the front of this expansive store shows off some new lines for men and women, most of the stock at Crossroads is high-quality used clothes. Crossroads pays 40 percent in cash or 50 percent in trade of what it will price the item to sell for in the store. Whole sections are devoted to hats, belts, scarves, sunglasses and jewelry. 1519 Haight St., (415) 355-0555. (Web site)

Dharma: Despite the name of this 20-year-old shop, the India cottons, peasant tops and other ethnic clothes are far outnumbered by the choices of sporty, trendy women's attire. Sweaters, small coats, lycra tops, velvet scarves, hats, handbags and sparkly jewelry take precedence. The best attribute is the motto at this women's clothing store: "Keep it affordable." 1600 Haight St., (415) 621-5597.

Duzz 1020: Duzz 1020 carries reasonably prices funky women's clothes with a youthful slant, like Toska tops, Monteau sweaters and items from other offbeat designers. The target age of these trendy fashions is clearly high school and college. 1780 Haight St., (415) 751-7720.

Harmony Studio: Custom designs and alterations are the specialty of this small women's clothing shop. Though there are a few fashion pieces in the window, Harmony focuses on its production work. The store will also custom-make wedding dresses and bridesmaids' outfits. 316 Fillmore St., (415) 495.1823

Held Over: Sift through racks of vintage clothes from the '60s and '70s for men and women -- basic used sweaters, T-shirts, dresses and jeans. Held Over charges relatively reasonable prices, such as $20 or $30 for a pair of jeans or $250 for a good-quality leather jacket. 1543 Haight St., (415) 864-0818.

Hookin': DJ and hip-hop wear is the focus of the Hookin' line of clothing at of the most recent newcomers on the block. T-shirt slogans and the casual style of clothes are all geared toward the urban-music fan audience.

Kweejibo Clothing Co.: "Simpsons" fans will recognize the name of this shop as a made-up word from one of the show's early episodes. That has nothing to do with the fashions at this men's-clothing boutique. All clothes are designed by the shop's owner and made locally. Some of the button-up shirts are retro style. 1560 Haight St., (415) 552-3555. (Web site)

La Riga: The Lower Haight's answer to Daljeets or New York Apparel, La Riga carries goth and fetish wear, with an emphasis on leather. Labels include Serious and Lip Service, and the store carries the usual array of accessories such as studded belts and bracelets. 1391 Haight St., (415) 552-1525.

La Rosa: This upscale vintage boutique focuses on clothes and collectables from the '20s to '50s, though there are some items from the '60s and '70s in stock. Dinner jackets, formal dresses, feather hats and other accessories come from all over the world. While shirts range from $65 to $265, some carry as much as a $1,000 price tag, while gowns can cost up to $2,000. 1711 Haight St., (415) 668-3744.

New York Apparel: This is the spot for that fishnet bodysuit, silver vinyl pants, black vinyl lace-up dress, chains, leather and sexy lingerie. Old-school New York punk wear, like studded belts and bracelets, lives on here. A wall of cheap colored tights and fishnets is a main attraction. 1722 Haight St., (415) 751-8823.

Piedmont Boutique: The two giant fishnetted legs sticking out over Piedmont give a hint as to the creative and colorful clothes inside. For more than 30 years, Uti, Piedmont's designer, has been fashioning costumes and outfits for dancers, stylists, theater folks, drag queens and local rockers like Super Booty. About 90 percent of the clothes, lingerie, hats, coats, boas and assorted accessories are produced by Piedmont, and Uti says its seamstresses can produce anything on request in two days. Prices are midrange, but the store uses only high-quality fabrics. 1452 Haight St., (415) 864-8075. (Web site)

Red Five: This gallery and men's clothing store keeps true to its street flavor. Casual designs from labels like Charizmatik complement the store's own line of T-shirts. Local artists get some exposure on the Red Five walls, with exhibits that change every couple of months. 1472 Haight St., (415) 552-6494.

Satellite Vintage: The range on vintage clothes at Satellite is quite broad, spanning the '30s to the '80s, for both men and women. Midcentury used furniture is sold here as well. Buying and trading by appointment only. 1364 Haight St., (415) 626-1364. (Web site)

Solo Mia: Unlike the trendy clothes shops that dominate Haight Street, Solo Mia focuses on elegant clothing with a funky twist, from a simple black evening dress to a fully beaded gown. The other specialty is its variety of alternative wedding dresses. As for accessories, shawls, scarves, gloves, jewelry and capes are beautifully displayed. The store's designers can also custom-make costume or bridal wear, with about nine weeks' lead time needed. 1599 Haight St., (415) 621-0342.

Something Else: Something Else refers to the stock of one-of-a-kind pieces in this women's-clothing boutique. Many of the unique sweaters, T-shirts, jackets and pants are designed by local talents and are geared toward the club crowd. A few men's items are mixed in. DJs spin drum 'n' bass and house most Sunday afternoons. 1603 Haight St., (415) 864-1684.

Sugarpuss: Everything in this small women's boutique falls on the sexy side, whether it be a pair of hip-hugging denims or sheer lingerie. The shop carries light fetish wear as well as more mainstream accessories like jewelry from Peru. Prices tend to be lower here than for similar goods in the Upper Haight. 248 Fillmore St. (at Haight), (415) 861-7877.

Stussy: All Stussy, all the time. The showcase for Stussy men's and women's jackets, shirts, bags and more charges about the same for its products as in department stores. A basic sweatshirt sets you back $55, and jackets go for about $200. 1409 Haight St., (415) 701-7474. (Web site)

True: There are two True shops, one for men and the other featuring women's clothing. The men's store carries Akademiks, Enyce and Triple 5 Soul, among other urban street designers. True also has its own line of T-shirts, jeans, hooded sweatshirts and beanies. The women's store carries Enyce and Babyphat, among others, as well as bags from Gravis and Yak Pak. 1427 Haight St., (415) 626-2331.

Upper Playground: Upper Playground consists of an art gallery, a clothing store and a back room full of used vinyl, mainly soul and jazz. Urban-style T-shirts bearing rap-star monikers like Chuck D and Kool Keith abound. The gallery, meanwhile, spotlights local and national artists with exhibits that change monthly. 220 Fillmore St. (at Haight). (415) 252-0144.

Verd's Funk: Verd's Funk oozes personality. Astroturf lies in the entranceway and the walls are peppermint-stick pink. The women's clothes are just as eclectic, with one-of-a-kind upscale designs, like a green leather bolero for $645, a black leather chiffon for $660 or a purple jumpsuit for a mere $450. Most designers hail from London, Japan and L.A., though some are locals. The international art installations change once a month. Closed Tuesdays. 1312 Haight St., (415) 431-7509.

Vickie's Boutique: This store's signature items are T-shirts and undies emblazoned with the "Lower Haight" insignia. Vickie also carries some African tie-dyes and music T-shirts, as well as sunglasses, jewelry and small bags. 603 Haight St., (415) 552-5997.

Villains: Villains has taken over the block with its main store, the Villains Vault and the Villains shoe store. Villains' large storeroom focuses on urban casual and edgy styles, while the Vault offers higher-end, more conservative attire, mainly from Europe. G-Star and Diesel are carried at the Vault store, while brands like Hurley and Volcom and Fred Perry can be found at the main shop. The shoe store focuses on urban wear, though it carries some dress shoes. Villains: 1672 Haight St., (415) 626-5939; Villains Vault: 1653 Haight St., (415) 864-7727.

The Wasteland: One of the most intriguing window displays in the city fronts this used-clothing store, packed full of everything from vinyl skirts (and bras to match!) to less outrageous sweaters and campy T-shirts. And for a change, the stuff's not overpriced. 1660 Haight St., (415) 863-3150.

X Generation: Clothes at X Generation speak to a far younger crowd than the original Gen-Xers. The women's-clothing shop caters to teenagers with its feather-trimmed lace shirts and club-style wear. Its sister store, X Generation 2, carries somewhat more sophisticated clothing. Prices at both shops are quite reasonable. X Generation: 1606 Haight St., (415) 255-2838; X Generation 2: 1401 Haight St., (415) 863-6040.

should i join the UCD badminton club???? very tempting~~~ would Lori join with me too? i've been feeling lazy and unhealthy sitting around too much when i'm at davis. only get to swim during summer and i have so much finally exercising ^^|| havent been to hickey gym for a long while. the last time i've been there was...my freshman year. about 1.2yr ago. sigh.

wtf, people faking shawn, edison and charlene (i believer there's more hk artists) as if they really have xanga and update it everyday. hahaha... PATHETIC. (pls tell me that u didnt fall for it) i really dont think charlene's english is that good.

i miss twinbridge =( who has it and is nice enough to lent it to me ma? it's the only tool i use to type chinese...please~~~

got DoDo a toy. it's for baby and squeaks if u squeeze it. DoDo seems to like it and wants to explore what that is. whenver it squeaks, he'd approach and sniff on it. yeah, i'm finally seeing why guinea pig is social... it takes some time for mine to express some guinea pig qualities =
so, i'm getting new mobile service in 6months! which phone should i get? hmmm, very tempting. i'm definitely getting a phone that i truly like.

**sniffles**

i'm already packing stuff for me to bring back to Davis. just packed playstation along *chuckles* at least when i'm asked what to do during our free time, i'll have a good answer. not too much new games though. but i havent played for a year so i supposed all the old games will seem unfamiliar to me =p i want to try the simpsons road rage though. altho it doesnt appeal to me (all the 3D looks on the simpsons, eww), i'm sure my family will abandon PS2 pretty soon if we ever get one.

but gameboy advanced SP caught my eye for a while. it's sleek!

omg, UCB has a course that teaches "the philosophy of the simpsons"... my friend got in..and he was happy about it ^^||| why is there so much fun in berkeley??!! >_<

sometimes when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I see how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

saw new pics of a friend's new love. hehe, became a good topic for me and Lori. anyway, what to update? the ones who are close to me already knew what i wanted to tell them. then there's no point to repeat here.

let DoDo out tonight. he ran around quite unwillingly, i guess i bothered him during his nap. then after many rounds he ran in the living room. he just stood next to his closed cage hoping to get in. aww..sorry, my little guy. so i let him in and gave him a yogurt treat. i hope bribing will make him love me ^_* hehe, i wish!

the conversation with lori started out quite bad and silent. i'm glad that it became a pleasant talk and like the old time. hehe, sorry for being mean and honest, i knew my words could be harsh sometime; but..i just want to be able to tell u everything in my head honestly.

dad and I went to shop for many things today right after i got up. i hadnt eaten anything till 3pm. i was starving!! this repeats everytime i shop with dad!! >_< sigh! yeah..and i just went straight for food after unloading the necessities we brough.

i'll never forget the camp i went to this summer. all the bugs and spiders i saw and how hot it was during the day (it was as hot as Davis!!) many people got sick due to the hot weather..hehe..i'm ok. i've learnt to be tolerant under extreme hot weather. i guess everyone in Davis does.

i'm already thinking about how to spend my weekend without Lori in Davis (without a car and all by myself in our apartment). lori will head home next weekend (btw, school STARTS next thurs =[ ) anyhoo, i guess i can try other restaurants. or just to swim in the afternoon and play with DoDo and the hamsters.

saw the movie "not a woman, not a man 2" by leslie cheung, yu wing yee, Tsang chi wai, etc. it's an old movie, several years ago. (gum chi yuk yip 2 or jin zhi yu ye 2) it talks about relationship and another msg hidden: how to face homosexuals in real life. mom didnt get it; i've always thought that she's a person who has depth and has a deeper perspective o_o sigh~ anyway... night

i'm finally back from the summer camp held by CBBC (Chinese Bible Baptist Church @ Los Gatos). it was a good experience for everyone. i learnt and grew a lot from the message and interactions with others, so was my faith. i think i'm ready to step out and learn to serve instead of being served. i also learnt that by expressing, behaving and loving others in a Christian way glorifies God. i finally understood how small details matter. there were many problems throughout the camp. most of them attacked the team that prepared and host the camp. i had fun. there were around 30 children/youth running around. the babies are so cute, altho many of them shy away upon my Hi and smiles ^^|||
anyway, Pastor Fan couldnt be at the camp with us but many people miss their presense throughout the event. altho i'm not close with our pastor but i also missed his presense. anyway, he'd been so pleased and happy to see how the team he put in charge did a great job organizing and carrying out the plan.
there were many moments in which i had tears in my eyes. the love of this church had greatly touched me. i've also met a few more people and knew many from the student fellowship a lot better in these 3days.

also, i've missed my family, Lori, DoDo and Krojen. can't wait to share with them what i had experienced in these 3days.

i finally have my own Bible! ^_^ i've been hoping that my brother(s) would realize that i dont have one. i'm glad that Eddy did. Thanks. i've read Genesis before but i dont think i had finished it. Alan finally realized that i dont have a Bible and he didn't respond. i assume he's already forgotten. sigh. i try to forgive him and talk to him about his lack of communication with the family. i dont think it has worked. there're too much happening in his life that he cant take care of every aspect in his life. i'm sure there's a better way for me to take this.

had an average of 4-5hours of sleep for the past 2days =( sooo tired. i was exhausted today. slept through our last sermon and prayers =\ finally arrived home at 6pm and couldnt wait to sleep at night, so i slept at 7-midnight. i feel so much better. i havent been this tired for a long time.

sigh~ wont have internet for 2days. ooh, i finally finished reading the chinese fiction i was working on. hmm..it's quite diff from what i've read before. this book mentions many varieties of emotions/cases and thoughts. quite interesting. i think the author is quite well-known. thats why i chose her books. hmm.. driving up to davis with my civic for the first time! ^___^ well, mom would add to my comment, "it's mine, not yours!" i'm gonna miss DorDor =( my silly guinea pig, love u.

happy 15th month

meeting u in 2days. are u ready to do some labor and chores? SIGH~

funny
or here

the korean ass-kicking drama series--> Romance
cant believe i'm still crazy over the characters after weeks. this is so not me.
a few pics from the drama

had fun at church today. talked to a few more people. i think i need to break the ice after attending the same church for..6years (on and off though). SIGH. as i was talking to a friend about how i wanted to go to another church. she asked me if i had put an effort in meeting people from church or even talking to them? i had to admit that i didnt really try. ofcourse i always wished that i'd be more talkative and easy-going with new friends. but i guess there's some part in me that stopped me from being that for years.

oh, saw a plastic, cloudy whitish glasses at valleyfair a month ago. i actually liked how i look in them. then i looked for the price tag: Gucci $270 USD. =\ couldnt find it on ebay either. ANYWAY, i wont buy such thing just because i think i look good them!! i'll only spoil myself further more!

aww, ken. heard that love storm is good. thank god roomie has already bought it. hehehe

blogger was down all night last night, couldnt update nor remember what i intended to write now =\ my memory has gone worse...still going worse, i believe. anyway, i finally got Dor some carrots ^^ yup, just for him. got into an unpleasant argument with lori last night. we spent 1-2hrs solving and talking it out until 3:30am. we were exhausted by then. glad that it works out now. i realized that i've changed a little over the summer. perhaps it seems like a bad change to you, but i hope it'll be a better change to you when we get back to school. i mean, what i've become should not be thought of as a negative change. i regret to make you cry on your birthday. as i said, u dont need to be special on your birthday, you simply are. i'm sorry to have become an insensitive person.

happy birthday to you

i'm going back to davis next wed and thurs to clean up what should be done at my old place. i have a feeling that i'll become a maid with plenty of patience. u know it's weird how sometime i'd enjoy doing house chores or yard works, because doing it gives me time and peace to clear out my mind. Thus, i appreciate more of life and people. well, talking to pets works too.

thanks for your love and support and being part of my life. i love you too. (a reminder: "you" can be plural. including those who consider me as an important friend; so do I)

sorry, i'm bored

Cinderella!


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aww...but i like the cuddles and hugs picture better!

hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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hmmmmm, i think a few of you would want to read the result for me

You represent... happiness.
Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a
sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread
your happiness. You have a tendency to be a
little hyper, but you have the ability to make
your own fun no matter what.


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******speechless******
i hope things will be back to normal after school starts esp when we both dont have much classes next quarter. we ought to get back to each other's life.

already started persuading mom and bro to let me go to HK next summer. yes, need to deliver my messange into their head gradually. hope i'm applying what i learnt from PYSC1 correctly. *chuckles* (i love the way Bart Simpson chuckles, btw)

oh, mom's friend and her doctor thought that i were a guy today. her friend still thinks that i'm a guy. she isnt a close friend so mom didnt bother to explain or we didnt have the time to explain to him today. i just wore t-shirt and jeans today. didnt even spike up my hair. didnt put on contact lens. i dont understand either.

today is a long long day for me. been out with my mom to various places from 11am-8:30pm. we didnt have lunch till 4pm. spent most of our time at the hospital as my mom went to diff departments to get injections/x-ray and physical exam taken. then many little things happened. i dont even want to bother writing it down. but there was this lady who got me so upset that i was outraged for 20+mins. i havent been this angry for some while. anyway, i finally realized that it's no body's fault and it's more like a lesson for me to learn how to forgive. i usually have a hard time forgiving but i would've forgiven her sooner if she hadnt given me such a bad attitude. thank god i'll never see her again. one of her kids is cute, by the way.

ms. Zhan called late at night. that was quite unexpected ^_^ mom asked when did i sleep last night. i couldnt answer her nor explain to her why i sleep so late at night. anyway, nice talking to you again and am glad that it went well. perhaps we could extend our conversation for a bit longer next time =P oh, so you left home without your TV drama today? *gasp*

Lori dropped by today to pick up Bebe. the cute darn thing left!! >_< my mom wont get to see her again in a year. anyway, mom and dad had fun playing and watching BeBe. ok, so I took Lori to the great mall and took sticker pics. it actually looks nice this time! ^_^ we finally remembered not to wear blue as the color of the background. it took us some time to learn! oooh, i got myself a pair of skateboard shoes! they are nice!!! =D thats it. there's no more shoes i want now. perhaps the diesel shoes or nike hi-pro. but they arent as important now =))))))
so, i'm finally out of financial crisis. school is refunding some money back to me after taking what they needed for tuition from my grant and loans. but i wont get the money in a month =\
okay, so i originally planned to take studio pics with lori today as her birthday present and it's what i've always wanted to do. she told me that i didnt get anything for her on her last birthday. i didnt?? see, now i'm convinced that i have bad memory.

had a dream last night. i was a cop and my team was undercover and waiting to get some evidence, etc. Lori and some friends were there so i talked to them while i worked on the case. i dont know why i'm telling you this but the dream was fun! no, i'm not a cop-type of person.

tears. havent seen you in a while. i never knew i was creating pressure for us. another thing, i know where important people stand in my life, you must know where you stand; if you ever forget, i always remember where you stand. sorry for creaing insecurities in you. one thing i always forget: God loves me even if i'm with a girl.

exhausted from the labor on labor day. we moved everything of mine into my new place. it was a mess for half a day until i spent two hours organizing them and putting them away. i knew my dining room is there somewhere~~ so i finally brough up my papasan chair ^o^ it looks great in the living room. sitters have been giving high ratings on it =P anyhoo, there wasn't air conditioning in the car. so our way up and back from davis was a little painful. not as bad as my days during summer session though. but the heat is new to my family. they had never experienced such heat before. hehe, glad they understand why i whine about the heat now =)

dear, i'd love to tell you things, even we mentioned before that our lives become so busy that we couldnt spend time talking about random stuff like before. hopefully, now that we live together, we'll have time to share and let you be my close or perhaps best friend, ok? I understand you are bored at home and couldnt find anything to do. do something meaningful than to waste it ah! when i get bored, i wouldnt care if i had to wash dishes! if you're really bored, find some house chores to do (to make ur mom happy). so many people had talked to me regarding money and apartments in these last 3days. everything i heard adds up pressure in my head. please forgive me if i seem to skip my usual greetings or caring. i know i didnt spend time looking at and talking to you yesterday. do you think i'd rather spend time packing than to talk to you? COME ON. i wished there were 4 of me to answer all questions or respond to all comments from my family. i appreciate their help and time. i'm thinking about writing them each a thank you card for that.

for everything else i do, i didnt mean to. no matter what i do, you must always know where you stand. even if you forget, i do remember where everyone in my life stands.

so, couldnt sleep last nite until 3 and kept on waking up in the morning *grrr* dont know who should i blame this on though...quite mad about being able to sleep well when i woke up this morning. was very tired and the thought of "can i stay awake in church or will i sleep through the sermon again?" aiii~ but i got up. couldnt go back to sleep anyway. the topic of the sermon today was on dealing with homosexuals. talked to Lynn about it tonite and to make it easier for me, shall I paste what i wrote her?
the highlights:
-homosexuals sometime dedicate even more time and love in God's name
-some heterosexuals may not have as much love for God as homosexuals
-we should not forget that some are good christians even if they sin
-we should hate the sins, not the sinners

good sermon, thanks, Lord.