As a manager,
I struggle most with confrontations and disciplinary acts for under-performing staff.
As a coach,
I'm natural at caring, supporting, encouraging and lifting my staff in prayers.

I see life is about connecting all areas together. I'm still a coach at work, a manager at home. Today I'm proud that I made a decision to hear my under-performing staff out and prayed with him.

Jesus, I hope this is what You would've done with the under performing me. Kindness.

I have been mentally exhausted over this process of home buying, getting a loan, gathering documents, etc. I couldn't sleep well with so many deadlines to meet, I couldn't focus at work, I almost forgot deadlines at church/work. Opps. I have a harder time doing my breathing & calming exercises. I realize I'm losing my way for this home. So, what is really important? Why do I drive myself crazy over this home? Is it leading closer to God or away from Him?

I was so tired that I finally prayed, Lord, I don't want this home anymore. It's Yours, take it away from me. Give it to me in Your time, I don't want it anymore.

In my dream, I had a dream with K. I told her what I love most about her, her love and passion for people. Her love inspires me, her passion moves me. We chat for a long time. I have an awesome time sharing my thoughts with her like old days. When I wake up, I feel pleasant, I feel satisfied. I knew God has healed me once again. He knew my desires and filled them in His way. Thank You, Jesus.

I was driving home after a long stressful day. I suddenly thought of corn porridge what k made for me and how much I love them. I know my eyes would light up whenever she asks to make corn porridge for me. I wonder if you ever wonder why I like it that much?

I really love the way k loves the people around her. I call that life. Passion.
I admire the love and passion k pours out unto others. My heart stops when I try to feel the depth of her love. It's a one of a kind feeling to feel this connection. People tell me she has changed, I believe in k. She must be tired. Don't lose what's important, follow God.

Sigh, one of the protection questions:
who's your best friend?
I can't believe I put down my ex's name a few years ago....

I have dreamed of K again, it was her wedding. Everyone left the party. Carroll was in the back waiting for me. K and I went to the balcony, we saw a goat peeing at her garage, then a cow. We laughed. I was tempted to hug her and kiss her. Then I woke up and was running late for work.

This is the 6th dream of her.