Since October 2015-March 2016, I started a journey that is full of excitement, pain, suffering, self discoveries, torment, heartache, anxiety, and support from friends. It's been rewarding yet overwhelming physically and emotionally. I couldn't grasp the time and words to express.

In summaries:
1. At age 32, I realize that my mom rarely accepted and affirmed me throughout my life. This shaped me into a person who lacks self esteem, confidence, self acceptance and hope. I'd become anxious to make any small or big decision; to speak up; to stand firm. I always give in when people pressure me. This cause a great deal of pain in my life.

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