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Saturday, August 26, 2017
Hi, sis, I value you and our friendship and that's why I have given some deep thoughts all night and day in working things out with us and communicate our differences. I appreciate your communication and openness because you care about our friendship.
同你有衝突我好唔開心,我覺得自己好無用,我好驕傲,生氣自己,成日不知不覺傷害和趕走愛我的朋友,我最怕自己孤單一個.
你指出我的"攻擊人hostile pattern"令我想到心理治療師上個月也指出來,我一直都不知而經常做的pattern. 多得你指出,否則我不意識自己在重覆this unhealthy pattern. 就算我不自知,我要為我的行為帶給你傷害而道歉,請你寬恕我.
根據therapist,這個pattern是源自我對原生家庭的suppressed anger, 而channel out toward others, 這樣對身邊無辜的人是不對和不公平的. 我還在逐步地幫自己離開這damaging pattern,不知需要幾多時間,我會努力work on my issues. 我亦需要你的幫忙和耐性,如你願意, 下次見到我對你hostile/擺你上枱,please let me know nicely. 這樣可以幫我increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share with me, you help me become aware of my issue. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. It is difficult for me to admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you!
Hi, sis, I value you and our friendship and that's why I have given deep thoughts all night and day in working things out with us and communicate our differences. I appreciate your communication and openness because you care about our friendship. Knowing there is a conflict between us saddens me, I feel that i am useless, I am so arrogant, angry with myself, unknowingly hurt and drive others away, I am afraid to be alone without any friends in the end. You pointed out that my "verbally attack/hostility pattern" reminds me of what my psychotherapist also pointed out last month, I did not know that I do this frequently. I'd say words to others with a hint of anger without knowing. I'm grateful that you pointed out to me, otherwise I'd still be unawared of this unhealthy pattern. Even though I was not aware nor intentionally attack you, I am responsible for my action and I apologize for hurting you, please forgive me. According to therapist, this pattern is derived from my suppressed anger toward my family of origin. Because it was suppressed over the years, this anger finds ways to channel out toward others (who are innocent). That is not right and unfair to those around me. I am gradually working on this issue and just beginning to be more aware of it, I do not know how much time it will take me, but I will work hard on it and other issues. I do need your help and patience, if you are willing, next time when you notice this hostilty in my conversation, please let me know nicely. This can help me increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share your anger with me, you help me become more aware of this damaging pattern in my life. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. To admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant is extremely difficult, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you! If you think of any other conflict between us in the past, please let me know and we can make time to talk and listen face to face. I really don't want any conflict remain unresolved between us. I won't make it to church tomorrow due to work. I'd make time for you just let me know when you're ready.
同你有衝突我好唔開心,我覺得自己好無用,我好驕傲,生氣自己,成日不知不覺傷害和趕走愛我的朋友,我最怕自己孤單一個.
你指出我的"攻擊人hostile pattern"令我想到心理治療師上個月也指出來,我一直都不知而經常做的pattern. 多得你指出,否則我不意識自己在重覆this unhealthy pattern. 就算我不自知,我要為我的行為帶給你傷害而道歉,請你寬恕我.
根據therapist,這個pattern是源自我對原生家庭的suppressed anger, 而channel out toward others, 這樣對身邊無辜的人是不對和不公平的. 我還在逐步地幫自己離開這damaging pattern,不知需要幾多時間,我會努力work on my issues. 我亦需要你的幫忙和耐性,如你願意, 下次見到我對你hostile/擺你上枱,please let me know nicely. 這樣可以幫我increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share with me, you help me become aware of my issue. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. It is difficult for me to admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you!
Hi, sis, I value you and our friendship and that's why I have given deep thoughts all night and day in working things out with us and communicate our differences. I appreciate your communication and openness because you care about our friendship. Knowing there is a conflict between us saddens me, I feel that i am useless, I am so arrogant, angry with myself, unknowingly hurt and drive others away, I am afraid to be alone without any friends in the end. You pointed out that my "verbally attack/hostility pattern" reminds me of what my psychotherapist also pointed out last month, I did not know that I do this frequently. I'd say words to others with a hint of anger without knowing. I'm grateful that you pointed out to me, otherwise I'd still be unawared of this unhealthy pattern. Even though I was not aware nor intentionally attack you, I am responsible for my action and I apologize for hurting you, please forgive me. According to therapist, this pattern is derived from my suppressed anger toward my family of origin. Because it was suppressed over the years, this anger finds ways to channel out toward others (who are innocent). That is not right and unfair to those around me. I am gradually working on this issue and just beginning to be more aware of it, I do not know how much time it will take me, but I will work hard on it and other issues. I do need your help and patience, if you are willing, next time when you notice this hostilty in my conversation, please let me know nicely. This can help me increase my awareness so I can do something about it. Because of your love to share your anger with me, you help me become more aware of this damaging pattern in my life. After I reflect upon them in the last 24 hours, I begin to see my limitation and mistake. To admit my own limitations, to admit I'm arrogant is extremely difficult, but I'm glad I did because you care about me enough to tell me how you really feel inside. Thank you! If you think of any other conflict between us in the past, please let me know and we can make time to talk and listen face to face. I really don't want any conflict remain unresolved between us. I won't make it to church tomorrow due to work. I'd make time for you just let me know when you're ready.
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Lord,
I feel so uneasy all day. I know I finally took care of the Prius recall on the side airbag and spent 2 hours and changed up my plans to exercise and relax. I don't know what is troubling me inside. I went to Daiso, Grocery outlet, places that I used to enjoy wandering at. Yet, they didn't bring me peace and enjoyment.
If unloading everything to You is the way to go, here I am unloading feelings and thoughts that have yet made sense to me. During shopping at Daiso, I felt dizzy and weak. I thought I was hungry or dehydrated. I just don't know what is going on inside me. Lord, what is really going on inside of me? Can you please tell me?
"You're dealing with a lot, 搞到你"陀陀擰".
好辛苦,很難再這樣過活每一天.......how do I get out of this, Lord?
我撐不下去了
主,你要我當如何看和行呢?
Jesus: come lean on me.
I lean into Your shoulders and cry; I have no more strength to hold myself up.
Jesus: 有我和你一齊行, I know what's out there.
I feel more at ease, more peace, being comforted and reassured of Jesus' presence to face my challenges.
I feel so uneasy all day. I know I finally took care of the Prius recall on the side airbag and spent 2 hours and changed up my plans to exercise and relax. I don't know what is troubling me inside. I went to Daiso, Grocery outlet, places that I used to enjoy wandering at. Yet, they didn't bring me peace and enjoyment.
If unloading everything to You is the way to go, here I am unloading feelings and thoughts that have yet made sense to me. During shopping at Daiso, I felt dizzy and weak. I thought I was hungry or dehydrated. I just don't know what is going on inside me. Lord, what is really going on inside of me? Can you please tell me?
"You're dealing with a lot, 搞到你"陀陀擰".
好辛苦,很難再這樣過活每一天.......how do I get out of this, Lord?
我撐不下去了
主,你要我當如何看和行呢?
Jesus: come lean on me.
I lean into Your shoulders and cry; I have no more strength to hold myself up.
Jesus: 有我和你一齊行, I know what's out there.
I feel more at ease, more peace, being comforted and reassured of Jesus' presence to face my challenges.
Sunday, July 23, 2017
Saturday, July 15, 2017
Saturday, July 01, 2017
I felt uncomfortable being alone at home today, not at ease with Jesus as well. My head reminded me that I have a choice to follow my own infatuation or Jesus. I kneel in my conversation with Jesus, telling Him that I now choose to let go of any physical, emotional, spiritual attachment and connections with ex in Jesus' name and by His blood cut them off and connect the loose ends to Jesus for healing and restoration. I know Jesus knows my pain and is more broken for my suffering and His royal princess is living in poverty. It really puts His sacrifice in vain. I want to live as who Jesus intends me to be, who He died so I now become, worthy of His life, I want to feel it, experience it, be it and live it. And I know it will take some hard work and sacrifice, Jesus is willing to help me and has everything needed to help me. I know someone's are praying for me, Thank you for your prayers.
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Thursday, June 08, 2017
上班要壓抑心裡對你的愛用上許多氣力,很多時候我都不容自己說出真正內心的話,反而表現得對你冷漠生氣. 看見有時你對我的無所適從,我只有內疚.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I'd be the father of your child.
爱情有时候是一种沉沦
I have a headache today. It's a struggle to stay in a fantasy and yet unable to connect with the reality. I get dizziness in my head. I'm so messed up and helplessly in pain.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I'd be the father of your child.
爱情有时候是一种沉沦
I have a headache today. It's a struggle to stay in a fantasy and yet unable to connect with the reality. I get dizziness in my head. I'm so messed up and helplessly in pain.
Saturday, April 29, 2017
灵魂伴侣 田馥甄
若你只是一道 某個弄堂緊鎖的門
我是門外的藤
若你是 難得一見的彩虹
若你又是一顆 可望不可及的星辰
雙手和你碰過 肩膀和你擦過
靈魂卻無法相認
和你談笑風生 和你談過心聲
靈魂卻不敢相認
聽著歌想起你,想起我們
曾經心如此的貼近,如此的同步,分也分不開的愛.
今天的你已經把心完全送了去,回不來的愛,叫我如何可以忘懷?
今天我還是一樣的戀慕你,疼惜你,偷偷的欣賞你. 每一天可以見到你,在同一房間中,呼著一樣的空氣,吃同樣的午餐,說說笑. 都叫我無從招架.
內心的我在生自己的氣,
到我失去後,我才知道我對你的瘋狂,對你的執著,我完全的失去預算,失去自控. 愛得這樣離譜,不能自救,不健康,我是怎麼了?!
也没有一丝顾虑
你就这样出现
在我的世界里
带给我惊喜 情不自已
可是你偏又这样
在我不知不觉中 悄悄的消失
从我的世界里
没有音讯 剩下的只是回忆
你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里
你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
Deep discoveries
Rapha 312's discoveries about me....
1. I'm self-centered and narrow minded; I set my own idea and would not listen to any other idea. I'm very stubborn.
2. I love KL deeply and will take another 10-20 years, until someone else can cherish me like she did.
3. Deep in my heart, I want to chase KL and beg her back. Even if she left her marriage/husband for me, I want to punish her by making her go through the pain she put me through. I want to revenge. This temptation to revenge is not from God. If KL left her marriage for me, what kind of person is she really?
Can I stop and choose to minimize people getting hurt from this revenge? I love KL because I want something from her, not because I want her to be good.
4. I choose opposite from authority figure. Rooted from being in the womb, mom wanted to kill me but I decided to go against her will. This created a pattern in me that I would not listen to authority and be as stubborn as I can be with their opposite choice.
5. Mom is getting old and too tired to continue to fight me, so I continue this inner struggle by making choices that bring me trouble/suffering. I make choices that don't really help myself, so I struggle with myself inside.
6. God led me to Golden Heritage to show me my limitations and how I really feel toward KL. Now that I see myself collapsing, I continue to stay and blame God for this misery. God gave me a choice to stay or leave/stop this suffering. I need to take responsibility and consequence of my passive choice (stay at GH and be with KL).
7. I perform very well at GH and make myself irreplaceable so I could stay at my job to be with KL.
8. My clavicles and shoulders were sored for 2 days that I woke up for 2 nights in a row. (Sabrina said this is normal "breaking process" as we had some deep work the night before. My body is so solidified that it hurts when it is being torn down)
9. I am distant with Father God, as I didn't feel loved by my dad.
10. I don't trust Holy Spirit nor allow Him inside my heart
11. I use Jesus to meet my agenda. I wait for Him to fulfill my agenda first, before He could proceed to His.
12. I get distracted all the time. Stay focus!
1. I'm self-centered and narrow minded; I set my own idea and would not listen to any other idea. I'm very stubborn.
2. I love KL deeply and will take another 10-20 years, until someone else can cherish me like she did.
3. Deep in my heart, I want to chase KL and beg her back. Even if she left her marriage/husband for me, I want to punish her by making her go through the pain she put me through. I want to revenge. This temptation to revenge is not from God. If KL left her marriage for me, what kind of person is she really?
Can I stop and choose to minimize people getting hurt from this revenge? I love KL because I want something from her, not because I want her to be good.
4. I choose opposite from authority figure. Rooted from being in the womb, mom wanted to kill me but I decided to go against her will. This created a pattern in me that I would not listen to authority and be as stubborn as I can be with their opposite choice.
5. Mom is getting old and too tired to continue to fight me, so I continue this inner struggle by making choices that bring me trouble/suffering. I make choices that don't really help myself, so I struggle with myself inside.
6. God led me to Golden Heritage to show me my limitations and how I really feel toward KL. Now that I see myself collapsing, I continue to stay and blame God for this misery. God gave me a choice to stay or leave/stop this suffering. I need to take responsibility and consequence of my passive choice (stay at GH and be with KL).
7. I perform very well at GH and make myself irreplaceable so I could stay at my job to be with KL.
8. My clavicles and shoulders were sored for 2 days that I woke up for 2 nights in a row. (Sabrina said this is normal "breaking process" as we had some deep work the night before. My body is so solidified that it hurts when it is being torn down)
9. I am distant with Father God, as I didn't feel loved by my dad.
10. I don't trust Holy Spirit nor allow Him inside my heart
11. I use Jesus to meet my agenda. I wait for Him to fulfill my agenda first, before He could proceed to His.
12. I get distracted all the time. Stay focus!
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