yay~ simpsons still rules~ ^____^ i just saw one new episode today..it's so funni ^__^ i love simpsons~ heheee.. yeah, it cheered up my day~ me so bored today... and i'm in pain..hehee, well, okay.. roomie has been hitting the same spot on my arm for like...several times...omg..she's becoming violent!! WHY ME?? why do i have to go thru so much in order to get my full scholarship?? SIGH~ what did ppl do to her in vancouver?~~~ argh!!! yes... and my scissors aren't scaring her anymore!! DOHH!! must find another weapon..yes!! must!! hehe, oh yeah, she got me this the dog cell fone thingy... which reminds me of her..i mean, it's as cute as her, oh, i mean..hmm, it's just cute. xtina not cute when she hits me tho...please...

slept at 3 last nite cuz i was downloading mp3s, slow servers and lots of deadlinks!! (((argh))) woke up at 10 hoping that it was already 12noon, but!!! it was only 10. sigh~ whats wrong with me getting up so early?? dohh~ i was supposed to sleep till 12 or 1pm like a pig since i didnt get enough of sleep throughout my spring break. hmmmm, stupid biological clock! stop waking me up so early! stop it~~~~

hee, guess what i'm doing now? yes *chuckles* i'm reading for chem..hehee, yeah, me gots no life, u know. got bored after getting up at 10 and after shower and visit to our bookstore which closed on sunday. reading ahead for class, learning electrochemistry! ^^||| i miss bio tho~ hehehe... patrick teng's songs are pretty good. but then they are all ordinary love songs... oh well... oh oh oh, gotta go watch movies next weekend (!!!) lets see, movies on the top of my must-see-list: a walk to remember, ice age, resident evil, and the count of monte cristo. some other movies that i still want to see after i finish the other list: a beautiful mind, i'm sam, the lord of the rings (yes, can u believe that i havent seen this one yet?), rose red by steven kings (yes, i recorded it on TV like a month ago, still havent seen it), and a few other chinese movies. oh shoot, it's nearly 5pm!! gotta go back to chem~ it misses me! =p

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yay~ me back in moomoo land~ ^_^ i got here at 12midnite!! yes, we drove for...10hrs today from...portland, Oregon. i gained 2lbs rite after lunch..hmm, oh well, it's once in a lifetime thing, so yeah. hmmm,didnt buy much things except "illegal" VCDs ((shhh!!))...ahem. hmmm, and i realize that i'd rather live in the states than in van. even though all the entertainments (availability of karaoke places, chinese community, chinese-owned shopping centerssss, cheap illegal CDs/VCDs/DVDs, BETTER chinese and Jap food!!!)...yeah, but i think it's hard to make a living in vancouver... gas is expensive there...around...$2-2.20 per gallon.

we stopped at some motel in oregon last nite. we watched dragon ball Z this morning, hehee...it's actually the newer episode on TV...u should've seen what the guys from my dorm watch on our dorm cable!! omg, it's like...the episodes of dragon ball Z from 10years ago..okay...i'm so serious... i fadely remembered the scenes from the episode cuz i saw it when i was really small.

anyway, me all by myself in my dorm now..everyone is gone..no roomie too, yes! hehe, jk~ i'm glad that i'm not afraid of the dark (ahem *points*) i dunno, i guess, being scared of darkness is a sign of "immaturity"..hehee, jk~ lemme rephrase: "i'm just more mature than those who are afraid of the dark.." hehee, jk~ *shrugs* roomie used to be out and i had to stay in my dorm by myself, so i had to get used to it. okay, i'm very tired...maybe i should go..nite. oh oh...passed all 4of my classes! ^_^ that stupid 1F-all-B's-dream was trying to jinx me! blah~!!! my mom was surprised dat i was so happy about my C's.....sigh.....i know i know...not trying very hard here..but but but.....but...*sneaks out*

i haven't felt this full for months... was forced to finish the dishes at lunch and dinner...DOHH! thank god i'm only staying for 3-4days...whew~ and i'm going back tmr!!! yes! just one more lunch to go~ *shivers* ahem, anyways, i bet u i can gain 10lbs if i stay here for 3weeks. anyways, i miss DC food now, especially how u have total control over finishing ur food or not! SIGH~ anyways, got lots of karaoke VCDs these days. it's like my only motivation to go out and shop around in vancouver. and congrats to roomie on her extra pounds~ *chuckles*

~la la la~ hmm, feeling cheerful now...hehee, got an email fr buggie...anyhoo, went out all day to shop around and stuff.... quite tiring.. and weather here sux...cold and rainy~ dohh! what happen to my cali sunshine??? and hush, buggie, u and ur weather-here-is-so-nice! hehee... hmm, food here is so good...*yum* too bad dat our relatives kept asking us to have dinners with em at nite..i was like, NOooooo!!!! pls! let us eat out in vancouver b4 we return to SJ~~~ Nooo....*sniffles* ahem, anyways, oh yeah, i went to play some arcades today... parapara was awesome... and i suck, so pls dont ask for demonstration..hehee, but i really had fun. $1 canada dollar for 4songs!!! yes, how cool huh! hhhmm....got so bored last nite dat i went to check out all the movie ratings on yahoo movies... must watch...the something something of monte cristo (short term memory)...ocean 11 again, uh..the other two new movies dat i couldnt recall now..=p hush!

thought of something to write to someone here but forgot. to cathy: i'm a total jerk (now dat i realize)... hehee, yeah, sorry for..hmm, making things worse throughout the whole thing. glad that ur enjoying ur life. what are u up to? how's ur spring break? mine is great so far.

hmmm, waiting on bro to come home so i can sleep... hehee, a great excuse to stay up n to use computer..*chuckles* yups! hmmm, oh yeah, oregon has no sales tax!!! peeps! go shop in oregon!!! ^___^ and for ur info, vancouver has a sales tax of 14.5%!!!!!!!! argh~ it's for govt and province. sigh~ so many malls and great things here..but but but...
i'm all alone now..so scary.. my relative's house is huge and luxurious.. but very creepy and quiet when all the lites r out. and its like all of my typing noises echo!!! *shivers* okie, enuf scary thoughts here. lets talk about sth happy.

didnt get to see snow here! dohh! we missed it~ sigh~ just like what i missed in davis. anyhoo... weather here is okay, just like the windiest and coolest weather in davis. i jus need max of two layers to survive =p yes and i'm thankful for my health. been healthy all my life and pls dun let me take it for granted. amen. oh yeah, saw two huge outlets malls on the way to vancouver and already have a deal w/bro that we'll stop by on the way back~ *CHUCKLES* ahem, i meant to smile..=p they are all prime outlets, one in oregon and one in calif. i love oregon now..for its 0% tax!! ^______^ hehee, sorry, calif! i think i still love you. oh yeah, my stupid bro is dropping me off on our way home!! argh~ he promised dat he'll take me back to davis on sunday after church but now he thinks it's too much of a trouble so he told me to bring everything i need for davis along to vancouver. hmm, well, i jus need a few clothes with me, so yeah. i was just complaining cuz he didnt keep his words..hehee... and i'm going back to SJ next weekend to catch up seeing ice age/resident evil/whatever and to shop at valleyfair(!!!). yeah, gotta do sth fun b4 my quarter starts to kill me again. hmmm.... nite.

yes i'm in vancouver now..met up with one of my closet icq buddies tonite for dinner and to sing karaoke. we had fun ^.^ took a few pics and stickers together... sigh of joy~

i do miss someone these days...very strange but i'm getting used to this "thinking-of-someone-feeling". hmmm, the person should know who she is. ahem...hmmm, canada is so cool, i mean jus the vancouver part so far. i wonder why didnt my dad pick canada to immigrate in da first place? WHY~ hehehe...yeah, sigh~ i wouldn't have been so white washed if we moved to vancouver! why~ hehee..anyhoo, i wouldn't meet so many important ppls in my life if i had lived in van. hmmmm, anything i start to like about van? hmm, they have these huge signs of pedestrians to remind drivers that there are possible pedestrians crossing, they are so freakin' HUGE~ n rite in the middle of the streets too..so hilarious~ hopefully i'll remember to take a pic of those n post it onto my website and u'll see why.

and for my dear cindy: i'm sorry for not contacting u for a loooong while until now that i'm in vancouver, but i do remember u and things we shared b4. ^_^ this time it's a diff kind of love. the kind of love which makes u happy to see the person happy law...best wishes to u. i'll never forget u and hope u won't ...hehe..*wink wink*

hehee, this is my last entry for the week unless i get to use my i-think-she-is-my-not-related-cousin's computer in van. hmmmm...talked on the fone with buggie for more than an hour. good improvement! ^^ yeah and somehow i had a dream of her. hmmmm..... whats scary was that..i think we were together in the dream and somehow i pissed her off cuz of my own careless stupidity (!!!) ahem, yes, and i still remembered how stuipid that was. sigh~ i'm so sorry..i remembered i felt so guilty in my dream..anyway...thats about it...i remembered how we went to shop at some malls...she was really sweet and all. anyways, getting "personal" here...haha... and i know how many ppls are stalking me...

anyways, wish everyone have a wonderful spring break~ yes, hello, buggie! ^_^ have fun sitting there and gaining weight! (jk~ hehe i mean watching TV and..uh, enjoying food from home). and to roomie, yes, how LUCKY we are to meet up w/each other again in canada? (DOOOOOHHHH!!!) sigh...yeah, gots no more to write now..hehee, jk~

yups, i'm ALL DONE! *big big big sigh of relief and joy* i know i know, i wasn't even stressed out...i didnt study hard this time..sigh~ so yea, i deserve for getting bad grades on soc, anthro and chem. math was okay. thank god i did half of the practice finals packet. 2hrs were plenty. the guy next to me WAS SO GROSS...he kept..hmmm..hrmm... scratching his spot?? (Rated R) hehee, yeah, his action annoyed me throughout the finals. stupid guy. i felt very disgusted and had to turn to the other way. anyway, it's sunny today! ^_^ altho it rained this morning!! but i got to see duckies!! ^______^ they were grooming themselves, so cute. but why do i find them cute when i have my own duck in my backyard??? hehee, yeah, my duckie is cute too. no roasting, sorry.

oh yes, almost forgot, plan for my beautiful spring break: going to vancouver with family. we are DRIVING THERE!! yes, we are nutz. sigh~ at least 20hrs straight and we gonna make a stop in between for a nite then continue our trip. my bro said he's not gonna let me drive out of his love and caring for me. i was like, WHATEVER!!! u just dont trust me! he went, "no no no, i dont want to tire u out, u know.." me: "...................go away". anyway, gonna go meet up one of my icq fds in vancouver... we used to be very very close, sigh, what happened? hehee...anyway, hope it'll be fun to meet her in person again.

dohh! anthro was kinda horrible~ and thats becuz i didnt study. hmmmmm......let's forget about this! ^___^ it's sunny and windy outside~ it's such a nice picture when u look it from the inside..hehee...=p

trying to finish my honeycomb cereal...used to like it but now...no comment. i'm almost there! like...3more servings away~ awww! i want to switch to my other cereal already! die, honeycomb, die!

one of my best sweettalks:

me: do you like being loved or loving someone more? *pls, people, this is a serious question*
u or whoever: well..hmm....*sub in your answer*
me: hmm, oh really... i dont know about my answer... cuz....i think loving you is the best!
u or whoever: *if u or whoever like(s) me* "awww~"
*if u or whoever dislike(s) me* "errrrr...........ahem.........nice try.........."


i'm sorry if this example of sweettalks sux...hmmmm.. oh well, anyone who likes it, please call me for live demostration~ ^_* and i think it sounds better in chinese
ahem,why do i found myself writing my blogger?? i'm supposed to be studying now!! dohh~!!! okay, shhh, lemme go back to pretend i am. ahem. *disappears*

it was nice walking in the rain today, i actually enjoyed it. i guess, i'm tired, thats like taking a break for me bah~ i had umbrella with me but i'd rather get wet. it felt good. rain rain rain. wind wind wind. i wish i could just sit there quietly, but i've got finals to study for. hehe, DOHH! ^^||| anyhoo... walked a friend to her finals today and dropped by the bookstore. i dunno.i just wanted to accompany her and since i had no mood to study anyways..and how weird that i enjoyed walking in the rain~ i used to hate walking and there's no way that i'm gonna walk all the way to the bookstore for no reason. i'm always forced to walk to classes cuz of ngan who is afraid of biking. yeah...walking sucks. but i walked a fd to class.hehee... back to studying, i'm sleepy now...bad sign. but anthro should be an easy one, MC finals! heheee..yes!

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slept at 3 and woke up at 10!! omg, whats wrong with my biological clock?! shouldn't it know that its owner lacks of sleep??? tsk tsk, bad bad B.clock.
today is friday!! *scream* have 2finals tmr! one of which i haven't studied for! DOHH!*echoes* but thank god it's a 110MC questions final.whew~ and his practice final is okay, not very hard. it's all about selection and evolution due to genetic mutations. already taken biotech gave me enough info on genes. good thing or bad thing? i don think i'd enjoy doing labs or research later on in life, hmmm...oh well.

my only hope for a B on chem is gone, i THOUGHT i can finally get a B in college.... but no~ my final killed me. i'm guessing i'll get D-C.....either way is bad...i'll be stuck with a C or C- (D+???!!! NoOoOo) ~sigh~ other labs already got their results cuz they have a nice TA...ours..i dont know, he's okay but he's like..he doesnt do anything beyond what's required of a TA. ppl said he's cool last quarter. is he still cool? or he's slacking off? i dont care~ i dont have him anymore.. i still have a possibility of getting him as my 2C TA tho..hmmmmm.... it's so hot today ^.^ uh oh...summery davis is back! hmm..it's nice to see the sun out there when you're indoor and having the AC on. ahem, yes, AC. davis just feels like san jose in the summer but with the AC!! hah! thats why u'd hardly see me on campus in the summer, unless i hafta go to lectures. or else, i'd be staying in my room with the AC on high.

last nite roomie and I didnt sleep till like 3...we were talking and i was massaging her arm... she wouldn't shut up and let me go to sleep okay! someone should kill her b4 i do it myself~~ hehehee... well....woke up at 11 thinking that roomie is gonna be late for her final at 1:30, but she said her final is at 4pm law...i was like, hmm, great.

my hk gang is gone lu~ i miss them ar~ ^____^ *for lori: Jiiiiiiiiiii* and for den, stop calling to my dorm and ask for roomie when i knew it's you!!! argh~ (thats what i do to others! not back to me! =p it's not time of judgement yet~so dont punish me yet!) i'm already looking forward to next school year... hehe, living on my own, having my own room, dealing with rents, electricity bill, fone bill, ahem...enough..hehee, ooh, best thing of all, most of my close fds live very close to me loh... my hk gang lives rite across!! (good thing or bad thing? hehee, jk~i luv u guys too) and then my church fds live next door!! (hehe, so scary huh? it's like, this huge community of hkese lives in the same apartment complex~ hahaa) yups, i like college life now. i'm growing up! ^_^ sometimes, i'd rather not go home for weekends loh, i can get so many things done here. and have total control of my time (when to eat, sleep, kick back, pretend to be studying, work out, be online 24/7, sing, listen to songs, bug roomie and othersssss) YUPS! so fun to be independent.

but mom, i still love you la! not for your food, i'm used to DC food now, i like eating salad now..which i used to hate. ahem, but yeah.

chinese getting worse~ what to do? what to do? was gonna take computer home to fix it so i can write chinese with my chinese program...but since my family is going to vancouver over the spring break, i dont think i'll have time nor does my bro. oh well, i guess, i'll just "give up" my chinese till summer... ^^ haven't written anything in chinese for ages. ohoh, the last time i wrote in chinese was..last week! yes! hehee, cuz i wrote a bday card for bros. i wrote in eng and a few chinese words pop up..hehe.. yea...i had to look up my eng-chin dictionary to see how to correctly write a character in chinese!!! (dohh!) yes, *sniffs* i'm half-americanized. i'm not white-wash!!! stop that~roomie! *bites her to death* JK!! ouch, just got hit..ahem...i love u roomie...*er* see,i lost my flow of thoughts now..great. yes and i'm dying to sing karaoke!! *kinda* i'm so glad that i came here when i was in sixth grade. thats like before i got "contaminated" by all these evil leisures in hk. never been to karaoke place before i came here nor went out with fds to shop around. many ppl fr hk are like pretty sick of life here. there aren't much fun places to go to here. but in hk, there are always places that open almost 24/7. sigh, i miss how i always wandered around at nite when i was in hk last last summer. it was a deliberating feeling to be alone wandering on the street or singing with fds and spending money on things i like. planned to go back this summer, but.. i guess i'll just save this chance for later use. plus, since i'm so nerdy and so goody goody, i'm gonna spend my summer taking summer school like everyone around me! and pls, god, dont let me get into whatever class cutiebuggie is taking. hheehe, I'M JUST KIDDING! u know i lob you too~hmmm, should i take swimming? kinda waste of money huh? i already took badminton in davis! which costs me so much time and my lunch time! argh. i skipped 3times *max is 4* all skippings were for good good reasons, i had papers or midterms due on the same day, so yeah, i've been nice enough to the birdie and the class! badminton~badminton~badminton~ it used to be like..part of my motivation to go thru HS life and its stress. hmmmm, i think, i'm glad that i chose to continue playing badminton in HS ba. or else, i'd really give it up and never get to be as good/poor of a player as what i am now. and i get to own my own birdie racket~ ^_^ hehee, coincidentally, it has a few colors on it, my ex-husband called it "rainbow". tsk tsk tsk. and he wont remarry me!!! that guy doesnt now what he's missing out on!

oh yea, i nicely asked a guy for his chinese bread *fr ranch99*, yes, i asked. hehee...well, he said he'd be going to late nite and he'll go back to get more tmr..so...so...oh oh, and he is DONE WITH HIS FINALS!!!! *sigh* so i guess... i can steal it from him? hehe... roomie "asked" for one too... i'm afraid that she'll end up eating mine..hahaa...

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running out of junior mints to cheer me up~ what to do??? ^^|||| IT'S OKAY!! I HAVE SUBSTITUTES! *drums* Royal Dansk butter cookies!!!!!! awwww, these cookies are like..."sub in anything that worth more than gold and fame"...hehe, jk~ anyway, ahem, i still have lots of chips...yeah..sigh, stuck with chips, i have a feeling that i'm gaining weight, but its okay. it'll always go back to my normal weight.. hehe, so dats cool.

lets about chem final this morning, how did i do? the other class' mean for the same final is 55/164~ very very bad, around 34%!!! i think i'll get 34% for sure ga lah...it's okay la...worst i can get is a C, and i'll be happy as long as i pass it law. sigh, this is so sad law, my standard and expectation for me has gone down ever since my first quarter in college loh. THIS IS SO FREAKIN SAD! my mom laughed at me after i told her my GPA and my grades. i said, "enough,mom! i tried, but if this is what i get, too bad." yes and this is only my freshman year too, should i just drop out now? heheee.... okay, i'm still optimistic, dont worry~ i'm just not trying hard, but i'm still glad that i can still get C's even when i only work as hard as what i did for HS. i guess it's all good then? *shrugs* grades aren't as important as they were to me now. i gave up on them or that they "sin" gave up on me?

hehe ^^||| finishing all practice finals the nite before my final sounds kinda..hmm, unprepared huh? i'm sorrie... yes i'm bad...i'm a living doll!! *fudge!* (this is the worst test result i've ever got). ahem...yes, now i'm told that i'm a big meanie and that no one cares for me, blah blah blah. okay, i finished my last set of practice final just now..hahaa~ my fd was like, i know thermo stuff too well now. i was like, yea, everyone is~ ^^|||||||| hope we can actually apply thermodynamic laws later in life!! argh. woke up at...9, planned to get up at 8 tho. yea, see what happened when u always wait for ur roomie to go to sleep at the same time as urs?

ohh, fuck! what did i do to deserve this? SIGH!!!!







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me so productive today! i finally feel like..i'm actually studying hard for my finals...hehee, OPPS! sorry~ i didnt know i was supposed to study all the other time..hehe..okay, i'm just kidding! i've been procrastinating~ hit me if u can! hah! (exclude those who go to UCD, sorry, u guys DONT get to hit me)
our building has some kinda study-break tonite, they made their own milk tea with pearl. i tried one, it was way too watery tho. *shrugs* i went to get a pina colada smoothie instead. roomie and I ate ramen tonite, it's good. (ramen is always good in spite of what my mom always tells me about ramen, sigh) anyway, still cramming for chem. will i do okay tmr? hmmm, is this a multiple choice question? hehehehee... okay, fine, i'll do okay, aiming for a C. (considering how "hard" i'm trying here)

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got this a long time ago fr someone...very very interesting and meaningful. i'm so tired..kinda...i realize...sigh, that i haven't been productive ever since last week. yes, distractions. all xtina's fault again..*heheeh..naw... just that.. ever since i talked to poobear...my life changed a bit. i'm concerned with her situation... but i can't offer any help...oh well...enough, i'm supposed to study for my cutie hon finals. yes, that cutie hon is added by xtina... ahem, going back to my main point of this, i'm bored, thats why i'm here...hehehe...lets see, i got 2of my fds started on their first blogspots! ^^ hehe, now do i get paid doing so? ofcourse i do! =p not. i was on aim chatting all day rite after my final, this is bad..hehee..oh well...i had fun chatting..hehee...=p and the person who talked to me for hours, u know who u are! =p nite~ i'm asked to go up to massage for my precious and dear lab partner. so off i go.

i hate stingy people. but i love being stingy to stingy people..hehee... thats fair cuz if they are just free riders, then yeah, u'll be stuck with them. stingy, what a word...i dont like people admitting that they are all the time just to avoid being "generous" or "not-as-stingy" since they have an excuse for it. i admit that i'm poor too, but i dont have to act stingy all the time. okie.. i dont like this topic...so, end of this. and those who dont agree with me, i'm sorry, i'm self-centered.

roomie was sleeping when i came back from my final... hehee, i had to wake her up since other girls wanted to go to lunch in 30mins and since roomie is on this diet thing, she makes herself drink at least a bottle of water b4 meals. so yeah, i was like, roomie, if u wanna go to lunch with us, start drinking water now. and, new nickname for xtina: sweetie pie, new nickname fr xtina to me: honey bun. LOL...dont ask why.

OMG...its so FREAKIN COLD TODAY!! argh...i didnt wear enuf thinking that it's quite sunny outside...I WAS WRONG!!! fudge! >__< derefore, i suffered biking in the cold cold cold. ahem... i shivered so badly.

anyway. one of my worst finals is over!! NO MORE SOC!! YES! now...i'm gonna study for chem...i'm doing ok in anthro,math and chem...so yeah. must keep em up.

stargazed for a bit last nite...saw arion belt and...ursa major...*including big dipper*...in chinese,it's called the "seven stars in the north"...anyway...it was cool tho...not twinkling..but was still nice. i dunno... i went to accompany poobear to do sth poobear wanted to do. yeah...was i crazy or sth? i had final this morning! sigh...oh well...i thought it was worth my time,i guess. and yeah, i ditched roomie for that too. opps! i sorta felt bad about it but since roomie didnt mind. i came back around 8-9...ate little bit and showered. then studied and chatted at the same time..hehee...

i'm hungry...
dont wish me luck for my finals, i dont believe in luck, but thx.
what i get is what i deserve. if i fail my class, i deserve it.

i'm so tired today..omg..soc is so boring too..had 5hrs of sleep which is not enough at all...so i planned to sleep early tonite since i hafta wake up at 7 for my final tmr.. oh well... went back and forth to castillian today.. it's a pretty cool place..its got their own swimming pool! and it looks just like any off campus apartment...hehe...but considering their DC...naw..tercero is cool. i dont want to feed myself on ramen everyday. at least tercero DC food is edible and actually pretty good. it rained today..WTF...what is up with that? it was sunny in the morning!! argh~ it started to rain by 3... when i was biking to castillian...aiya.. then i biked back at nite. wenta church today as usual... imiss starbucks now.hehe....okay..my bed still comes first....nite

stupid roomie who kept me awake till 2am!! when i had to get up at 8 the next morning for church! ARGH! I WAS SO SLEEPY DURING SERVICE AND SUNDAY SCHOOL. once again, the cantonese pastor really..ahem, not as good. i dunno..what am i here to judge pastor when i know nothing about god as much as he does? i'msorry.
yes and now i have to coffee fr starbucks to keep me awake for the rest of the day..sigh..must study after this and a bit chit chat w friends..hehehe

me so studious..finally starting to study for soc and the final for soc is on EARLY monday morning *in pain*...hehehe. well, i realize i need less sleep for me to function well everyday. i'm getting used to having 5-6hrs of sleep...this is bad!! all roomie's fault! no reasons given! yes..i have church at 9 tmr..getting up at 8...then study for 2hrs after church *hopefully*. and will go to tons of review sessions held on sunday..(WTF) sigh... too much review sessions at nite...stupid profs. final on early monday morning~ ahhhh~ what to do? *tears*...SIGH....SIGH... it's about time to block everyone or ask everyone to block me on aim till saturday..hehee...okie, me going..oh, wanna see resident evil too..my fd said it's as scary as 13ghosts...*yes!baby* 13ghosts was good... i was about to scream and leave, but.. due to..hmm...some reputation and dignity i need to remain in front of some fds...yea...hehee...enough, i must go to bed.

and hey, Krojen! sup~ i'm sure u'll read my journal..^^ yea..so how are u? i'm almost through with this quarter...fun is ahead waving at me...i can see it! and i can see my summer school awaiting too!! *dohh!* take care, girl.

and..it's such a big relief to know that my..middle school-HS friend's relationship with her family and her love life is fine now...thank u, god. thx.

had a lil'conversation with this lil'dude.
"how come i just know that it will never last even if she falls in love with me...it's an instinct. it's a feeling. but am i going to let myself fall deeper into this? i think i will, but i'll watch it. i'm not going to stop this because it's a good motivation for me. it spices up my life a bit. life is boring without love."-poo bear
"well, it's really up to u...whateva u choose to do, i'll be here when u need me"-me

i'm not studious!!! please! i'm not a goodie goodie... i know i mention a lot about "okay, i'm gonna go study now"..but ofcourse i'll end up doing something else. aiya..yes.. i'm not a nerd! stop thinking that i'm a good student...

woke up at 9 cuz of the ringing of the fone fr some neighbor. the ringing lasted for like...20rings according to my estimate and it rung again later on. i got so tired of it and got up to check if it were my fone...but it wasn't. and den bro called at 9:45...grrr...fine, it's his bday today..so its okay..i got up and watched VCD by myself while roomie continued sleeping. i saw the "police station #7" (or whatever it's called)...it's so sad...the movie was okay..but the end was quite...yuck...i almost cried at one scene.. IT WAS SO GROSS. that scene beats my playing with cadevers in chicago. but its okay...okie.. now gonna study for chem...

solara is pretty cool..just that its too big..hmm..i miss mom's civic. u do not know how good it is to touch the leather steering wheel...*aww* it just feels so good. but, i'm not obsessed with cars..i'm arite.

saw meet joe black with roomie on my computer for like 2-3hrs...feeling weird now..physically...hehe...thank god to our lounge chairs!!! *cheers* if not i could just die in my chair. yes and i will remember how cute brad pitt is..that was why i wanted to see the mexican so badly...but no! oh well.... anyways, i was forced to watch meet joe black... and u know how ...lovely my roomie is when she comes to begging and bugging... sigh.

and yes. i like how my life is now... perfect... sorta kinda...but better than b4. i'm enjoying it...even when i know i'm not being productive doing silly things, but its cool. i became to like and enjoy ppl's gigglings... hehee...giggling just became even cuter than it was to me. i like to smile, i mean i smile more often now...so gay...but..i guess it's normal..^^||| am i in love? or should i say that i think i'm in love?

last day of class.. only went to one class today... i'm done! no more classes till like after spring break~ sigh of joy ^O^ *the thought and the fact that roomie is RITE NEXT TO ME are...ahem, very pleasant* anyway...i'm scared now... cant type anything now..hehehe
so hot today...so sunny...duckies are there mating and eating...pretty cool...ooh, ignore the mating part..sorrie..my bad...hmm..sorrie, roomie is bugging now..kinda lost my mind.
forced (i mean invited) a friend to our beautiful DC for lunch after chem and we *studied* in my room..hehee, yes, study! well..nothing.. ada just sorta looked and played around with stuff on my desk..and we played online pool, she won by default. and she could've won if the black ball didnt go in. sigh.
anyhoo...

mp3 sites are finally updating..yes! dled two albums rite away... listening to sammi's latest mandarin album... she's just awesome..altho some of her songs are her cantonese ones..but its okay.. they are free no matter what! =p

going on a "date" with roomie and her car....yes..there's something going on between us.. hehee... and to determine the validity of my statement, it's up to ur own interpretation! anyway, we are going to get some gas and went out. god bless me on my driving please..i'm not insured! hee...yea...just in case.. i dont want to get roomie into any unneccessary trouble...since i "lob" her so much.

slept through anthro again..haha, my bad! i thought i'd stay awake for it since it was the last lecture...i'll miss the professor...he's so hilarious..he sang in class for us...goshes. ^.^ how cute is that~ *giggles*
anyway..trying to type away my essay... i'm almost there...i know that i'm BSing..but its okay...TA will never give Ds...so its cool..i'll be satisfied for a C..
btw, roomie napping on my bed rite now loh...what the~~ argh.

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skipped badminton so i could have a decent lunch for once on a thursday morning.

hi, yes, guess what i'm doing at 12:26midnite? typing away my second paper..just finished my first 6pages long paper...well, i think i'm just distracted bah..its arite.. aim is still innocent. hehee...hmm...life is normal now..i like the atmosphere of having finals in like a week... u get to slack off!! yes! hehee, yeah, dats my main concern. anyhoo...blogger is a distraction too..must leave now...oh what the fudge..me going to bed..and finish my other paper tmr....nite nite

i really wish that i truly am what it says i am. sigh.

only have like 5hrs left before finishing out my essays. well, i'm half way done. sorta. =p
didnt get home till 5. wenta bio lec with a fd, then to MU to play photohunt for 15min and went to chem workshop. DC's food was actually nice today, altho i didnt eat much. its okay...gotta leave DC to get a fd something anyways...so yeah...its koo. i can always eat my dearest ramen ^.^ oh yeah.. saw several demos in chem today...weird prof loves explosions..hehee, its funny how the girls next to u were all afraid and stuff...it's always funny to watch.

well... almost done with classes...decided to turn off all msgers tonite to focus on one paper then finish the other one tmr. made a friend sat in front in chem for the explosion demos today..hehe, my fds were so scared..hehehe, yes, i covered my ears too. have nothing to write...sick of typing lately...

roomie went over to a fd's dorm, then i shouted, "roomie, i'm closing the door~" xtina gasped, "no no no no!! i'm coming!" and there she was rushing back to our home sweet home. hahhaa....^++++^ i'm sorrie, i'm..evo. cuz i know my roomie TOO WELL NOW... i can finish off her sentence for her which surprises and scares her sometime.

i thought "she" was hot... and still think she is. no matter who she really is.

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is that scary to realize that u are very attached to ur roomie? well, i know, i noticed it a long time ago. hehe, poor her, i scared her a few times today. its still funny to see her gasp when she sees hiding by the corner, behind the door, or outside bathroom. anyway, roomie got a smoothie today and i wrote "i luv my roomie but she hates me *pic of a broken heart*" with permanent marker. hehehehee... yes, i'm mean, i'm evil, i'm weird, i'm *sub in any word u want to describe me with*.

slowly working on my essays... yes i'm writing two essays at a time.. still not sure whats my argument yet. its okie... i can always stay up and skip classes to finish my essays..hehee, yeah, i slept thru anthro again... i slept for like an hour out of my 1hr and 30min lecture...OPPS! my bad... okay, i guess i'll stop talking to myself here and get back to work.

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went to bio lecture with a fd... bio was quite interesting... i'm looking forward to my bio 1A-C next yr...^^ i'm gonna love it in a way and hate it in the other. hmmm... i'm doomed for this week cuz i havent started on any of my two essays that are due on thurs. kill me. if not, kill my profs. jk! i can do it..yes, maggy, u can do it. SIGH!
roomie was using my computer last nite and ignored some of my fds' msgs... and my "illegal husband"(alex) was kinda upset that i didnt answer him..haha, so he said, "i'm divorcing u, woman!!" LOL!!! well, it aint my fault, ally, please kill my roomie when u have time. jk... well... yes, lets get married, ally..dat sounds great. and u hafta to support financially afterward.haha....so can i drop out now? no! i still hafta write the essays.....ta

saw the green mile yesterday n today... enjoyed it. i realized that i dont feel disgusted at disgusting scenes, another reason why it'd be good if i were a doctor. sigh. the thought of that is soooo tempting.

wenta work out for an hour straight. and the result is that now i have super sored arms and legs. but its okay, i still love showing off my biceps to all thte skinny girls around me. anyone wanna take a bite? hahaa, no! and, fudge! i missed the simpsons today!!! HOW COULD I?? cuz i was watching the green mile and some other chinese drama series at friend's place, ARGH!!! >___< i'm so sorry, homer.. i miss u! hehee...

slept at 3 and got up at 8 for church. but came back at 11 and skipped sunday school. went to work up for an hour right after and yes, i already feel the sores on my arms and legs. i love my biceps, yes, it's like the-beyond-perfect-part of my body..haha, just kidding! i'm only kidding! okie.. yea... it's like, if i can't lose any weight by working out, at least i can build up my biceps and i'm getting there! ^_^ oooouch...sore arms...omg!! (but i guess its okay cuz i was trying to work very hard on my muscles since i feel guilty for not working out in like 1-2month(s)...anyhoo...gotta wash dishes now...ta

yes..i got wet again..davis is raining again...i hate it. why? cuz i got all wet again! sigh...anyway...i'm very full now.. roomie got her driving permit...good job huh! ^^ it's all cuz of me..hee, not.. anyway...accompanied dearest roomie to DMV and places... she knows how to take buses now. terrific! so do i. anyhoo...wenta library to study for a bit... was productive for like 2-3hours ^o^ finally! and...i had done nothing on my essays. fudge! sigh..its arite..i can always stay up again...>.< so full...finally went to my thai restaurant (yes, mine)...spent quite a lot of money but its okay...i can still afford spending $ on food now.. considering that i have enuf cash on me ^.*

anyways, hi susan! if u happen to be reading my journal..hehehe, hmmm.. no, i'm not gay, but i like(d) girls. trying to be a bi tho.. still havent met a guy that melts my heart away yet...so lets all hope that it'll happen to me one day, so i can say that i'm heterosexual. ally, i have pride being part of "our" family.. just that, i'm keeping my eyes opened to "all gender" (LOL).. and i wonder when will my family read my jornal to find out more about me?? hehee, i'm sure my mom will never cuz she doesnt even know this URL... yea.. she wanted to read the love stories i wrote in chinese, but i took them away from her... cuz i didnt want her to know that i'm all into love stories and stuff...=p okay, enuf info about me here... u weirdos! stop reading my journal hoping to know more about me therefore u can hit on me =p

i'm so sick of my roommate. I'M JUST KIDDING.. plus, even if it were true, my roomie CAN'T do anything to me about it. hah!

guilt trips? whatever! anyway.. i dont really care if i still have any guilt or not...(the answer is a bit, but it's so small that i dont feel it exist in me)
i dont know..i'm sorry, i'm in a bad mood now...the peeps i usually talk to on aim are all home, great, isnt it? some girl talked to me on icq when she was supposed to go to bed but she couldnt fall asleep. finally she said she'd go to bed now and thanked me for the "entertainment". i was like, great! fuck u! it was so annoying when people talk to u just to kill time, fuck them.

so tired today...walk walk walk....bus bus bus...omg...got so sick of being outside for most of the day...sigh. tired tired tired. gonna study for another hour or so then gonna go to bed with woodstock wannabe-bunnie.

*applauds* another new member of my bunny family ^0^
mr. bunny in "the suit of woodstock"..it's a woodstock-wannabe bunnie!

it's funny how..i was "dumped" by my ex..and now i did the same thing to another person. now when i think of it, it's quite similar. i was with my ex for like a week then she realized that she didnt love me. so she just avoided me afterwards for a week, i was trying to "hunt her down" within the week. hehee, well... somehow...i know how she felt at the moment. she didnt like me, she didnt have feeling for me. not the kind of feeling i had for her. so well, now i totally understand how she felt. i didnt have the feeling that someone has for me. too bad. relationship goes both ways, needs flows coming from both directions. i still truly believe, if it's not okay, then it's not the end. if it's not the person, then the right one is somewhere ahead.

didnt fall asleep today in class at all! i'm so surprised... i guess its becuz the prof went over the class grade...anyway, now i'm tired...just registered another class for next quarter.. taking chem, math, english and music.

had a dream about having dogs....they are so adorable...at least "my dogs" were. anyways... i guess its becuz the vist to petco with roomie on wednesday..heee...learnt too much about rats, chinchillas, hamsters, and dogs. well, woke up late for class on wednesday, went to class like half an hour after it had started. i was so tempted to not go, but my fds insisted. signed our lease for next yr at anderson court, yes, thats our final home. and i hope those girls stop changing their minds and or coming up with weird ideas. anyhoo, havent been here for a while....got many things to say...but have a class to go to now..later

yeah, i know i have my temper...i'm sorry for those i have offended in any way.

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(i need an affectionate relationship? haha, why not? but iwouldn't mind not having it)

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others...and it is this need that sometimes will hold you back ... so let go - trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens ...

Everything seems to be going against you at this time .. Try as you may - you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. Nothing is going as you would plan. The situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. It would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress...You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out...You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares...so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement..

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person... and you demand freedom of thought ...to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in "two-timing" and all you seek is sincerity and "straight-dealing".

ooh, i like this one, awesome.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion ... In fact you just don't want to be involved in any arguments of any shape or form ... All you want is for "them" to get on with it - and to leave you alone..

i love blogger, it's always here for me...sigh... well, things that i dont want to share with the public or anyone, i wouldn't write it here.. i would keep it to myself...

roomie got her jcrew PJ, acting extremely gay, showing her PJ to almost everyone. ^_^ heheee, aiya... i dont know her =p jk!!

and yes, den laughed so hard at my coming out..cuz she said she knew. and i said, i knew u knew. yes, i must hide from them, hehee, cuz i knew den will laugh her head off when she sees me.

came out to denise and lori (lab partner)...feel so much better...^.^ but that means more questions coming from them from now on..hahaa... great! considering how "curious" they can be. tsk tsk tsk, was it a wrong thing to do? ohyeah, they are cool about it tho... not like i'd care if they dont like it...

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one doesnt need another person in order to smile... you take control of ur life... so do i.

i know i do not need to feel sorry for anything i do, therefore, i shouldn't feel this guilt in me. anyways...
cat, i think it's best for us to keep such a distance at least for now, dont u think it's still too soon to go back to what we were before? i dont know..i'm just doing what i feel most comfortable with for now... i know i seem cruel, mean, stupid or unreasonable... i dont care... i enjoy my life now... i like the way it is that i can focus on my academics unlike before... there's no way that i can be as much of a close friend as i was to you before... cuz i dont feel like reporting things happened daily to a close friend...i like having distances with friends, anyone, even roomie. i dont like the feeling of being obligated to contact a friend everyday at least for once... i dont keep a daily contact with my friends, not even with my family... i'm sorry, but there are so much things i dont like about this relationship when i remeasured it within the standards or in the eyes of just friends. i learnt from this interaction...i'm glad about what i learn about myself and you. i have a better understanding of myself. it's not that i didnt get to know you well enough that i would fall in love with you... it's that i realized that knowing you more and being closer to you will gradually ruin the impression of u. i dont want that. its like.. it's bad when u start to dislike a certain things others do or the way they behave,etc.... it'll be too late if i decide to stop this by then. i'm sorry, i'm selfish too. i am ur friend, just a distant friend for now.
again, i'm sorry that my disrespectful way of treating you makes u think that ur not a person to me. i dont know what has gotten into me...but i'm really sorry about my behavior.. you dont have to forgive me, you can ignore me or hate me for that

yes..finally finished math hw thats due in 30mins..hehee...my bad~
anyway, havent been here for quite a while...it seems pretty long to me...though it's only been 2-3days. lets see...my weekend went pretty well...but when i recalled things i did over the weekend, they aren't very productive or meaningful... i guess i just enjoyed the peace and rest at home.

Penguin love

The New York Aquarium on Coney Island recently discovered one of its penguin couples is gay.
Blood testing determined the two 14-year-old black-footed penguins -- who both top and bottom for each other -- are male. Wendell and Cass have been together for eight years.

"They're one of the most dedicated couples in the penguin enclosure," said aquarium spokeswoman Angie Pelekedis. "They sleep in the same nest. They even have sex, though I don't know how successful that is."

Penguin keeper Stephanie Mitchell explained: "I was only seeing one mate with the other, but then one of the other keepers saw it happen the other way round. We did a blood test that proved they were both male."

Maybe the Captain & Tennille could do a song? "Penguin Wendell, Penguin Cass, do the jitterbug down in Penguinland ..."

yes, i'm finally going home after 3weeks of not returning... how do i feel? well, have like 2more weeks of school then i'll be done ^.^ that means, 1more midterm and 2 major papars to go before my finals. i'm gonna finish my anthro book and the reading assignments for soc over the weekend. please pray for me that i wont be tempted by other stuff. cuz..if i dont get my anthro reading done, i'll have to stay up to finish up my paper next week again...which is bad. yes yes... *talks to myself* must get things done before i have fun...sigh.... i actually like my winter quarter than my fall quarter cuz..i guess i'm more used to college and how it works.