got back in san jose in 1.5hrs..hehe~ anyhoo, took sticker pics with lori at greatmall. the sticker pic machines are pretty nice. anyway, am finally home and have met our rabbits. they are huge! the female one is in bad health (probably been thru some harshness when it first ran loose, perhaps was chased after by cats,etc.) need quite a lot of time for her to recover its fur and esp after her pregnacy. it's a quiet girl tho. changed their bedding for them cuz i couldnt stand having her sleep the nite in such "wetness". the male rabbit is a naughty and smart guy... mom said he's quite aggressive, so i have only pat him when he was eating. oh, his eyes remind me of the seeds of the long-gan. hehee..i'm serious! ok, now lets all pray that maggy may finish reading one chapter for chem now. thank u.

aww..life is so wonderful with pets ^__^ hi! BeBe! hope ur weekends arent so boring without me talking to u day n nite ^_*

been surfing all the personal websites of bunny owners. just want to get myself back in the loving-mode-for-rabbits by looking at the pics. it works~ ^_^
putting BeBe in my arms(actually on my lap) and looking into her eyes just warm my heart up somehow. i really hope to hold my own pet in my arms and be able to hug it with the love thats only meant for it. it's a sense of belonging... it's the trust and bond between two living things.

i couldnt help crying whenever i called "BB" in my heart. not that i'm in denial of its death. how could u ask me to understand how u feel when my own wound hasnt gone away? simply ask me to spend more time with it. there's no need for tears or such "pissed-off-ness". i'm sorry if i show more love toward the guinea pig and not ur hamster. if not for BeBe, i would not want another pet so soon. it's putting me back together and i'm trying to train her at the mean time. i really want to see BeBe as a less active, friendly guinea pig. i was so upset cuz all this is about pets!!!! i get ur point but...doesnt this sound a bit ridiculous? that we are fighting cuz i dont have the heart to care for ur hamster?

anyway, been under stress cuz of midterms. pls forgive me for any rudeness/unloving action; if not, kill me before i take my midterms. finally slept at 3hrs past my expected bed time. i want to go home. i want to see my rabbits and hamster!

oh yea, had a fever on friday. it was horrible, going to classes was so horrible that i realized how much i hated school. but after sleeping, taking medicine, and eating properly (as in the right food at the right time), my fever was gone in half a day under the loving hands =P too sick to go to fellowship on fri and too lazy to go to church on sunday. sigh. i'm drifting away~

arms, abs, and butt sore cuz of the slight workout i did last night. catch me if you can was alright. i still like "Three" the best so far. yay~ friday! it's always a relief to know that it's a thursday cuz most of my assignments are due by thurs. so how am i doing? i'm good. got a new cell phone at last. those who wanna know, pls leave a msg in my guestbook. yeah, try to be healthy and studious starting next week. (i think i've telling myself i'll start reading and studying like weeks ago, sigh~) oh yeah, pepperwood is nice. i like it and how it's sooo close to petco! ^_^ hehe

there are two rabbits wandering around my house for the past few weeks. i saw one with my own eyes when i went home last saturday. mom called today to tell me that they caught the two rabbits. when she first said, good news! i thought she is finally out of unemployment... "we caught the rabbits!....." anyway, she went on describing how they ran after them and who guard the corners, etc. so they are now in the cage that used to be my other rabbits' cage in da past. one female and one male. one Holland Lop i suppose. i think i'm gonna have bunny rabbits soon. like when i go home after a month or so.

home was good. but was unhappy for the last two days here cuz some issue repeatedly came up in the conversation. SIGH. still feeling i'm missing some part in me that i'm sure no one or pet could fill the empty space. i dont want any hamsters for now. bunny rabbit? chinchilla? a puppy? a kitty? i dont know......

yup, we've been together for 8months. longest relationship so far. anyway, quartity isnt what makes this relationship great or unforgettable. anyway, got a baby cinnamon fr sanrio for lori. i got a hippo bowl with a hippo plush inside a heart.

oh yeah, got a fish bank fr east pacific shopping center a while ago..it's cute!!! come say hi sometime~ =P

yay~ finally going home this weekend, felt like havent been home for like months! ok, i better catch up reading for my classes starting next week. yes, pls help me. keep me away fr all distractions pls.

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made our own dinner tonite. we had alfredo linguine with shrimp and chicken ^_^ it tastes just like what i had in a restaurant. hee, why? cuz we got the alfredo sauce from safeway =P anyway, it's just a sudden crave for pasta. have a bio lab midterm on tues morning *sniffs*

blogger has lost its meaning. there are a lot of things happening that i dont want some of my friends who read my journal to know. so, there will be no more meaning in expressing my thoughts here anymore. maybe thats why i started to update this with a wider gap. anyway, whats new? have a lab midterm on tues morning =( got 1.5 day to study for it. SIGH. gonna lock myself up in my room going over notes,etc. i'm doing so poorly this quarter, god, help me.

so many things happening.. i just hate it...u know, its weird how when i try to take care of more things for others, there's always a cost to it at the end. a nonsense cost too. i'm just sick of it. housing is another problem. the horrible midterm grades i've been receiving so far. i think i need more time alone thinking over stuff.

oh yea, i'm sorry about forgetting to greet my lovely friends a belated happy chinese new year ^_^ my weekend at home was alright. ate a lot and stayed home all the time. didnt even go to any store at all. anyway, forgot what i was gonna say (again)... losing my memory, sigh. come back, brain cells~ *sniffles*

feels like quite a lot of things happened over the weekend, not really many, but enough. was outraged for hours about a friend last nite. dropped a few tears about it and i decided to let go of the matter. lori was sorta deeply hurt. so, there's a priority for me to "ease her pain" b4 anything else. hmm...oh yea, i finally had a chance chatting/discussing with lori's mom and lori today at their house. anyway, went to SF and richmond. almost got the ericsson T66 too.

i still found myself missing my hamster a lot. even more than the time when i heard the shocking news about its death. i dont know..it's like there's sth missing in my daily life. home is so love-less without a pet.

finally going home today for chinese new year. not in any mood for last min review on stat at all, even tho my midterm is in 90mins ^^||| anyway, i can finally kick back over the weekend at home. weekend here is really diff fr living home. the surroundings are diff. i miss my watery bed in davis. i was studying on my bed the other nite and suddenly miss its "rubberi-ness". it's fun cuz it feels like a water bed. except u know that the fact is my mattress is totally messed up and used. (eww)

wow, felt like i havent been here for weeks. anyway, been through a week of midterms, still have one tmr but it's stat13. so glad that i didnt get into the other stat class cuz the one i'm in now seems very easy and light on hw. =D hehehe, yup yup. altho been thru quite some time worrying, it still turns out fine at the end. oh yea, almost lost my precious plant bio book the other time cuz i left it somewhere on campus. didnt remember until 20mins after and drove back to campus and found it safe on the table. oh yea, and i had a bio midterm the next day, thats why i was really really grateful for it. thank you, god. ochem midterm was easier than what i expected and what peeps been telling me. being extremely unprepared (only read the first two chapters in 4weeks; didnt even bother to try the practice problems, didnt even try to study beside going over the notes and past midterms) SIGH~ never been so bad and lazy for chem. i guess i kept having this idea that screwing one midterm grade isnt gonna hurt me. so yeah, but..thank god it's not so hard (and that i didnt study hard for it).

havent been home for days. i only slept in my own room once this week, good or bad? half half ba. i really want to spend as much time possible with lori and still get some works done. mac not happy.

just saw "new blood" with lori and joanna. it sux!!! waste of time, sigh. anyway, i'm feeling better now as i readjust to the life in davis. working on chinese hw, hehe, thats kinda cute. when and how should i go home next weekend? hmmm~oh yea, had fun hanging out since i only had little hw due tmr. havent had TK noodle for a long time. oh yea, an old old fd of mine, koy, called the other nite n we talked for 30mins. i knew her for like, hmm, almost 7yrs by the end of my sophomore year. wow~ altho we aren't any close fds, just buddies that used to hang out everyday. they never believe that i miss them too, sigh.

so, i'm back in davis. the weekend was horrible for most part of it. didnt have a chance to study at all. after all the packing for 2days, i was finally done by yesterday. so i took a break watching some will&grace i taped for the past 2weeks. only saw 2-3hrs!! thats the fun part over my long weekend. mom asked for a hug before i left home. so i got out the car and let her hug me. she only did this for a few times in the past 2yrs when i left home to school. but this time i said some harsh things to her. i dont know..since no one else cares about my comments, she was my last one to put all this on. sigh. i still miss BB...i gotta get another pet soon or else i would never go home again. goals for this week: stay home and study harder. falling behind in chem and botany.

i hate home!!! there's no more love =( i want to go back to davis. i'd rather stare into the space in my blankie. it's not the cleaning up or packing that annoys me; it's the attitude they order, scold at u, and rush u to finish packing. they accidentedly tore my drawing i drew in 9th grade. i've been keeping it (altho it's not my "masterpiece" or something, i just wanted to keep it cuz it's sorta memorable), anyway, so i had to throw it away. that sorta triggered me into tears. and another thing that lessens my attachment to my home and my family is that my baby hamster is gone. i kept having this urge to visit him and bug him, but i had to stop myself b4 i really went over to where his cage was located. even when i was really pissed off, i wanted to go see him and just have him accompany me. however, perhaps he wishes he could be there for me too. it's just funny. cuz whenever i was bored, i wanted to hop over to where his cage was to see him. but..... yeah, today's just depressing.

just watched "three", it was creepy. i got so scared. yeah, it's cool cuz there's finally a movie that gave me the creeps. my heart was beating so fast throughout the movie. well, i laughed at it at the beginning... hmm,anyway, go check it out la. hmm, didnt go to fellowship again. i think i'm getting LAZIER. sigh. someone pls whip me. so i went to have dinner with fds tonite, then watched one episode (an hour long, gosh) of lavender, played with BeBe the guinea pig (it's adorable!!! aww, BeBe), scored 12/10!!! whoohoo~